Even that time when the wind stopped, it's not enough for me;
A single smile, the last bow...

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She is well known to be a SINGING freak, SUSHII freak, DEATHNOTE freak, DBSK freak, or a sia0 kia :D She plays the drums and piano!

She is Publicity Officer of AHSChoirand an alto 1 chorister :D music builds up her life! She is a computer-game freak and currently plays GRANADOESPADA :D

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So let it go, because you know you can.
And always smile, because it's always worth it :).

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FOOD such as SUSHI, DARKCHOCOLATE, ICECREAM and JAP CUISINE
freak im growing fatter DX

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When life gives you lemon, throw it back and say "I WANT EDWARD CULLENS!"

JAP ANIME such as TsubasaChronicles, BLOOD+, DEATHNOTE and INUYASHA
manga manga manga manga!!

MUSIC such as playing the DRUMS, listening to fav JAP/KOREAN/ENGLISH music, and using my DIAPHRAM =D
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Friday, October 30, 2009, 11:09 PM

THE FOLLOWING POST IS PURELY BASED ON MY OPINION AND ANY SIMILARITIES IS PURELY COINCIDENTAL AND PLS DON'T BE A PETTY DOG AND BE OFFENDED. BE GRACIOUS OK?

Oh here comes my report slip -.- And I'm like focusing on the remarks part lol.
Shall not furthur comment on it. Wasn't what I expected. Lol.
Well, maybe I'm just an immature kid. Shall wait till I grow up then :D
I'm losing my passion in everything. Don't even feel like coming to school.
Singapore's education is screwed. Or maybe only our school.
I mean seriously take a look around, all we produce are muggers, including myself,
and I don't see how THAT can bring us far in the future.
Look at CCHS, most of their students are not very muggish, in fact they look kinda ahlian ahbeng to me,
but yet they scored BETTER than us, and they even got band 1.
I'm obviously sending myself to hell posting this post but whatever.
Other students scold teachers scold schools on their blogs.
I'm just stating an opinion, or rather, a FACT.
Seriously. muggers after muggers after muggers. When will this end?
I think all of us will die in JC la.
In America, students are encouraged to speak up their opinions and voice their views as much as possible.
In Singapore, students who voiced their opinions are condemned by the school and their tone is viewed as RUDE.
WOW. Seriously man. That's probably the reason why americans are usually far more successful than Singaporeans.
Hey, I'm not stereotyping, there are smart people out there of course.
Ya la, like one in a million. LKY is probably the smartest and outwitting guy in Singapore.
And there's one guy in our class that is wickedly smart too.
Why is this school like this one ah...
Really frustrating to the max you know my goodness.
If it wasn't for SOME teachers here or my friends,
I will be home-schooling now.
DAMN I WANT TO STUDY OVERSEAS LOL.
EVERY MIN I STAY IN THIS SCREWED UP SYSTEM THE MORE MUGGISH I BECOME.
and then my brain goes mushy and my head shall become dead.
Sian. No money no money but CHIU *clap clap, clap*
Here is so screwed. Staying here another minute is TORTUROUS (if it is purely based on education)
NOOOOOOO mugging is not the WAYYYY.
Even for special courses like gifted programmes and stuff,
MUGGERS ARE CHOSEN over those like, really genius people.
One example start with I one, in our class.
I can bet with you with my LIFE, he is gonna be very successful in the future.
Definitely more successful than muggers. It scares me to see how many people in our school wore specs.
This is a mugger regime. Die.




Sunday, October 25, 2009, 3:01 AM

OK I just watched this U.S gameshow called "The moment of Truth" and it was WOW.
It is like this show in which a person is invited and he/she is being asked questions and he/she must answer truthfully in order to get money,
But one false answer will cause the person to lose all the money he/she has been working towards.
And before the show, the person is put on a lie detector and answer the same questions without knowing the results of the detector,
Then on the show, he/she will be asked the same questions and the answer will be revealed then with like 4 or 5 of their close or loved ones present,
which may include their family, their husbands/wives, best friends.
AND THE QUESTIONS IS NOT SO EASY OK?
It is like "Have you ever had sexual relations with anyone after getting married with your husband?"
and the person REALLY admitted it -.- wah siao liao la. You see the husband face is like chua tio you know lol. Like seriously WTF.
Then is like "Have you ever had sexual fantasy involving your best friend?"
"Have you ever blamed your father for ruining your childhood?"
Is like, if you were being asked that question HOW WILL YOU ANSWER IT LOL?
The worse thing is that that person is RIGHT THERE WATCHING YOU and you gotta admit it. Zai leh.
It ruins like, how many families and marriages zzz. But at least the truth is out.
Oh ya there is one which asked "Have you ever had sex with over 100 women?" to a guy, and guess what that guy answered when his girlfriend was present there -.-
I KNOW YOU'RE INTERESTED LAH. It's not a fake one la, cuz after the episodes some magazines are interested in those really screwed up lives of some contestants and they went to kazhao them la, and it came out on newspapers and magazines and stuffs.
I think Singapore should have it lor, in fact I think schools should have it.
Then everyone would reveal every damn truth out. Then every teacher would reveal everything MUAHAHAHA.
It destroys relationships la but then, ah well. It's always good to know the truth. Whether it sucks or not.
But Singaporeans so humji confirm won't do it one lol. Sian.
Anyway, those interested can go youtube and type the show name. My personal favourite episode is Lauren Cleri's one, and the media announced that she became like, the most hated woman in the U.S.
Which is kinda ironic considering that actually many people IS as screwed as she was then, which makes it kinda normal and should-be-forgiven kinda case.
Lol, the highlight was when the show invited her ex-boyfriend to ask her questions infront of her husband.
Wah imba I tell you. Not that I enjoy watching the show -.- if you were watching it I DARE YOU CLOSE THE INTERNET EXPLORER LA. You wouldn't lor.
The best thing to do is NOT TO JOIN THE SHOW AT ALL.
Lol, this is seriously one screwed up world. We're all doomed -.-




Wednesday, October 21, 2009, 11:24 PM

This is not home. Not my home.

I'm just asking to live on my own. I can do it. Why won't you guys let me?
When will you all finally let me go? She cannot take care of me forever.
In fact she's doing more harm than good.
Now the relationships I've painstakingly built is damaged.
I'm sorry I can't see her goodwill and intentions towards me
Because it's biasness and I hate it.
I don't mind loneliness because there's no difference when I'm in here.
The difference will be perhaps no more shouting screaming or crying.
Life is just getting more difficult day by day and wouldn't it be better for everyone if I just leave?
No need to cook for me no need to wash for me everything I'll be doing on my own.
No I don't wan you all to come back all of a sudden and disrupt the stability we've obtained.
I prefer my life like this. I don't know why but I just like it. And I want to continue this way, at least till I complete my education.
I can make my own decisions. Even if u want me to get my own money I am very sure I can do it.
But life sucks now and it doesn't need to suck even more.
This is terrible. This conflict will never be resolve.
So don't ask me to help both of them or whatever cause YOU KNOW IT CANNOT WORK.
THE HATRED IS ALREADY THERE IN THE FIRST PLACE.
What can I do? And I don't want to do ANYTHING. Just demolish the bloody heater.
I shall shower without warm water from now on then. Nothing too big about it. I'm not going to touch that bloody thing again. 
She blew it up at her. And there is NO CHANCE the harmony we once had will return.
Oh, we are not even living in harmony in the first place. It's just a mask. AGAIN.
Why you guys pretend like its not there? Aren't you escaping from reality?
What hopes can you all harbour? Can't you see the situation now? ITS OVER. Don't bother.
Why make life difficult? Put a separation between us, I don't mind at all.

Cause I'm sick and tired of all these conflicts and I want it all to end.




Saturday, October 17, 2009, 2:27 PM

Spent the entire night out with a friend yesterday night.
As in, literally the ENTIRE night from 11pm - 7 am in the morning LOL.
WHY? BECUZ IM CRAZY THAT'S WHY.
I'm stressed and pressured till my brain can't function anymore.
Ok, back to the topic -.- anyway life's so short so just try whatever I can.
ITS LIKE, DAMN COOL CUZ AT 7AM when you're about to go home and sleep, it feels like NIGHT time but actually its morning and the MRT is like, packed with PEOPLE and u'll be like "hey what's everyone doing here LOL" so cool~ XD
We watched 2 movies at one go, My sister's keeper and The deadly tsunami
BOTH ARE SUPER SUPER TEARY-EYED MOVIE LOL OMG!!
I HAD TO CONTROL MY TEARS SOOOOOOO HARD FOR BOTH MOVIE LOL XD

I'm sure u all know the My sister's keeper story right o.o?
IF you don't, you suck.
Anyways pls check out the movie, it's really well done :D
The deadly Tsunami is a korean movie...
Ya it's something like The sinking of japan.
A natural disaster is about to happen to the country,
then there's like love stories LOL. i think like, 4 different type for that movie.
Then is like, at first before the tsunami the couple in these 4 stories are quarelling and stuff LOL
Then when tsunami come they CRY CRY CRY AND HUG EACH OTHER SAY BYEBYE -.-
Eh, but got 1 couple survive, then some is both die some is one die.
AIYA u get it la, i luo suo so long lol.
But it's VERY touching too, you WILL cry. Super touching.
Just that the tsunami de waves ha...velli de fake leh -.-
But anyway there's alot of water so yeah :)

Youtubing. BYEBYE :D




Friday, October 16, 2009, 5:58 PM

Life is just like a masquerade - Just that you can never take off that mask nor show any of your feelings. You can only pretend that you're dancing happily in the grandiose ball but beneath that blissful demeanor lies the melancholy and sorrows.

Why must we be called weaklings each time we tear?
Why does apologies always go unaccepted?
Why do people treat you in a way you would never treat them?
Why do people just don't care about the good things but keeps probing on the bad ones?

The end of a terror state gives rise to another one.
But for this state, you can never EVER show your feelings out.
You'll have to pretend that you're always happy even if you're not.
And you'll find it hard to trust people.

No one will ever appreciate your efforts
No one will ever appreciate your intentions.
You can only just live in fear and hope that all goes well
And this sucks.

"Grit you teeth and sustained through the torture" says society.
But why can't we just take off that mask and let our feelings go where they want to?




Sunday, September 20, 2009, 3:55 AM

Just watched finish a millionaire's first love.
Harna I super lag la, 3 yrs ago de movie -.-
But I feel very emo n feel like crying BUT I CANT
so just watch emo movie.
OK i didn't know it will be THIS emo but,
ah anyway. eyes r puffy.
changed blogsong, obviously cuz i feel emo now.
Its by my faved band DBSK anyways, (shocked n surprised :D)
enjoy emo-ing :)




Tuesday, September 15, 2009, 9:00 PM

Today was in like, a super emo mood and bad mood so I just on the com ANYWAY -.-
and as EXPECTED, I was glued to it for so damn long i didnt even study any damn thing la.
Aiya i bloody screwed up la with like f-ing screwed up grades I DONT EVEN BOTHER MINDING MY LANGUAGE.
Its a wonder that I dont even write out the whole damn word zzz.
WAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH THIS BLOODY WORLD LA I STUDIED SO BLOODY HARD STILL GET BLOODY LOW WTF WTF.
ok im obviously in a pms mood.

Hais. gonna be on hiatus soon la. Call me mugger la but seriously i will regret if i dont mug now so, whatever.
One thing zai about muggers r that, they can be stereotyped and criticized and stuff,
but when eventually they still secured a better future than us, got better grades,
we are the ones that end up being laughed at.
Anyway its not as if we have no life. We have loads, just that we don't say.
LOL. Act so mysterious for simi sai.

lol. I wan someone to GET OUT OF MY LIFE LOL.
You are spoilt and annoying and rude and selfish.
Your mother teach you how to complain but never teach you how to shut up.
Always scold vulgarities and hurl the F word, den when i say vulgarities u ask me keep quiet.
Keep calling me annoying somemore. Wtf la, without me can u still be like, HERE??????
Walao eh, bloody immature person. Other than LOVING the women u love right, the most important thing in the future is still, TO PROVE THAT YOU CAN PROVIDE A GOOD LIFE FOR HER RIGHT?
And how u do that? u bloody work ur ass off and always think for others not urself.
Is like, in the future if there should be a fire, u would throw ur child inside and run away first. IM NOT EVEN F-ING JOKING, UR SO SELFISH UR LIKE THE MOST SELFISH PERSON IN THE WORLD OMG.
Can't believe your older than me. Age really doesn't matter when it comes to relationship.
I'm confident I CAN MAKE WISER AND BETTER CHOICES THAN YOU.
Just because you r older, doesn't give u the DAMN RIGHT to comment on me.
And what r ur comments? "You f-ing stupid leh, you very annoying leh, walao why you liddat one?"
SHUT THE HELL UP MAN WHO YOU THINK YOU ARE? I am still a human no matter what, I dont care if anyone is older than me, if u dont respect me I FIND NO REASON TO RESPECT YOU.
Each time u insulted me I WILL REMEMBER it.
and I swear I WILL CREATE TROUBLE FOR YOU IN THE FUTURE. Better watch your f-ing mouth before I go to the extreme and end everything for you.
And by the time u read this I bet u'll be showing off ur hokkien vulgarities all the way and come sms me scold me.
YA BUT THATS PROBABLY THE ONLY THING U CAN DO, never use logic always scold the F word.
Whatever, life's too short to talk to failures.
go reflect on yourself pls. Horrible horrible person.

Aiya, not our lvl de la so relax la dont guess who, not important de,
AND THE PERSON IS NOT MY PREVIOUS BF OR MY CURRENT BF OR ANYTHING LIKE THIS NO NO NO NO NO lol, that will make me seem like bloody A.A and despo NONONONO LOL impossible zzz.
I'm really doing this out of risk of being killed and for fun purposes cuz im obviously in a bad mood and i was bored and i think that he shud be taught a lesson since his parents dont seem to teach him the right values :D
Only important to him la, but i doubt he will ever reflect and understand so why bother?
I'm obviously just irritating him and making him angry,
who knows the next day he's gonna take a knife and kill me?
I'm like f-ing serious la, he's so bad tempered and violent, I WORRY FOR MY LIFE MAN.

Sian. WHY MUST I TALK ABT HIM AH omg now i so pissed LOL.
Ok some happy stuffs :D SUPERJUNIOR M CAME OUT A NEW SONG CALLED SUPER GIRL!!!
:D BLOODY NICE AHWEEE~~~~~~
For thos living under the rocks -.- superjunior M is a sub group made up of Han kyung (ldr), siwon, ryeowook, kyunhyun, donghae and 2 non-super junior members. They sing chinese songs and focused on china market.
The song listen at first quite sian and repetitive, but as you hear it more frequently you'll begin to love it LIKE ME :DD :D :D :D
Oh here's the video :D


I THINK kyunhyun is SO SO SO SO GORGEOUS AND HANDSOME IN THIS VIDEO, short hairstyles ROCKS for him ok.
siwon just looks so much older. hais.
Han kyung is quite handsome for china guys :D
And that chio girl you see in the video is SNSD's jessica, shes really very beautiful and hot in the video hahas.
OH LET'S ALL BECOME ANTI-KANYEWEST :D
he's screwed up, i think his company should just sack him cuz no one would buy his music.
For those living under the rocks AGAIN -.-
Taylor swift, which by far i Think shes a great singer and songwriter, received the award for best femalde video at the VMA awards :D HOORAY.
and then, this black guy called K.Ww went up to the stage, stole her mic, and told the whole damn world that beyonce shud receive the award, which is like WTF-ARE-YOU-OUT-Of-YOUR-MIND kind of thing.
Then in the end, beyonce got video of the year which is like :O LOL.
So what K.W was like, only caused disadvantages cuz beyonce is not even touched or anything.
Wah damn screwed up man this guy. He's so notorious I seriously think 1000 apologies wouldn't be enough.
So just pack home and leave :D
WEEE.

HIATUS TILL END OF EOYs BYEBYE :D






Wednesday, September 2, 2009, 6:32 PM

LOL blog revamped.
I kinda like it actually. Sweet n simple, image-free,
ah well, only have images of ME and ME FRIENDS :D
Hais, I'm like failing in almost every single f-ing thing.
My bio is like WTF? Is bloody lousy until I cannot believe it.
Sian la. Life always sucks as usual. Work so bloody hard den in the end you get nothing.
The Ls rocks lor. Louis, Lindy, all zai kia one.
Hais. Maybe my english name should start with L (yes i'm allowed to make one myself AHAHA :D)
LOL.

Hais I bored until buitahan. Ok la, I have alot of things, but seriously no mood.
WTH have i done wrong. Sian sian sian.

What comfort food am I?

You Are Apple Pie
When you're stressed out, you crave the company of those you love.
Your comfort food is likely to be something you cook and share with others.

In fact, stress often causes you to cook like crazy... even when you're not hungry.
Taking care of people often wears you down, but it's also the thing that energizes you.

LOLS cool. Okay here's another one :D

What flavour pocky am I?

You Are Flan Pocky
Your attitude: modern and offbeat
You are East meets West. Sweet meets salty.
You are fond of contradictions. You are a contradiction.
You're a pro at bringing unusual combos together!

Can someone tell me WTS is flan -.-?

okok last one :D

What flavour icecream am I?

You Are Vanilla Ice Cream
Your personality is anything but "vanilla"
You're a risk taker, who's up for anything new.
You go well with anyone and fit into any situation.

You are most compatible with rocky road ice cream

Ok I'm obviously hungry la. Go eat dinner liao :D BYEBYE!




Sunday, August 23, 2009, 10:37 PM

If there is something I've been longing to tell you...it'll be,

I'm sorry for not voicing out my honest opinions.
I'm sorry for not appreciating ur efforts.
I'm sorry for not understanding you enough.
I'm sorry for not being able to be someone you can rely on.
I'm sorry for not caring you enough.
I'm sorry for neglecting your feelings.
I'm sorry for not being true to myself and to you.

I'm sorry for being able to make you happy.

If i could rewrite my past, there would be so many incidents and happenings in which I can change for the better.
But because I couldn't, sorry is the only word I can say.

I envy those who have the ability to make people laugh and smile...because it's such a precious and wonderful gift...
but I don't think I have it, and it's probably my biggest regret...
I'm sorry to all my loved ones...for not having this ability. Please forgive me.

Even thought it seems like our lives never change, the slowly do. And just like how we never notice, the changing of the seasons...the same goes for our hearts.

If only there is such thing as eternity.




Friday, August 21, 2009, 11:42 PM

Ah. What a day. Just ate with 3D at east coast steamboat to celebrate mandy's bday :D
AHAHAHAHAHA super super super fun fun fun fun fun :D
The icecream there is like, surprisingly delicious, n me and yanyan kope alot :D
den what happen ah. Aiya just keep eating non-stop you mei you...
The bills is like sibei WTH. $17.30 leh, 10% service charge zzz, like THEY GIVE SIMI SERVICE LOL.
Den one can of green tea = $1.80 -.- is like so WTFFFFFFF.
Money gone liao lor. Xin xin ku ku save like siao all gone liao lor lol.
But anyway, at least i ate lotsa food and icecream :D
Hais, I can't express how much I love 3D :D
Though I not very significant char but i still think its really dam fun and dam bonded class ahaha :D
MORE 3D outings pls pls pls!!! ahahaha.

Sian what did I want to blog about -.-?
Right, I got no pictures so cannot post anything ahaha.
I reached home at like, 11.15 pm STILL IN MY UNIFORM.
LOL WTH WTH WTH. Then took a shower and gonna die now, seriously dammmm tired.
Sian I super super super scaredddd of EOY.
Every subject has like a dammmmmn big number of subjects to study. damn sai.
Then the school keep on giving us tests which is what we are currently focusing on zzz.
Wan us study den STOP GIVING US TESTS LA ALAMAK.

Aiya dunno what to blog, today dam fun jiu shi la :D
3D`09 is LOVED :D