Thursday, April 23, 2009
{ 10:49 PM }
OK firstly, i think i need to include some disclaimers before anyone started commenting on my blog =.=
this is MYYYY blog. not YOURS.
GET IT?
i didnt FORCE u to read it. neither did i scold anyone on this blog (maybe a few posts :D?)
i have many alter egos. u wan me zi-high and act immature fine, but u wan me be calm n act mature ALSO CAN. how i wanna write my posts here depends on MY mood.
blogs r created for our own purposes. a platform for our own feelings. i've no idea why it can be made public, but, there's NOTHING WRONG with it.
You will definitely NOT LIKE some ppl's blog, but keep ur comments to URSELF, becuz if they had done NOTHING WRONG, u've no right to criticize. even if u wan give comments, give CONSTRUCTIVE ones. or not, keep it to urself, no one likes hearing negative stuff =.=
maybe u've never had an experience of extreme jubilation or what, but since i did, i have the AUTHORITY to BLOG ABOUT IT and post ALOTTTTT of zi-lian pics.
ITS NOT EVEN ZI-LIAN IN THE FIRST PLACE LA, IM TAKING IT WITH FRIENDS LEH.
even if ppl DO ZI-LIAN, theres nothing wrong. its just abt whether u like it or not.
and if ur standard of living is oh-so-mighty-high, den DONT EVEN READ OUR BLOGS. sorry i'm not as rich as u (whatever kiddo).
i like my life to COLOURFUL and RAINBOW-ISH, and i respect ur life n ur character, even if its dull n grey, becuz u r who u r and i ACCEPT THAT.
but if ur comments have OFFENDED me, den please reflect.
I'm trying VERY HARD not to have a bad impression of u ok. it is VERY VERY VERY FRUSTRATING n STRESSFUL. becuz apparently, EVERYONE is having the same opinion as me. YOU COMPLAIN TOO MUCH.
I can guarantee RIGHT NOW, ur life is DEFINITELY much more blissful den others. that's why ur standard of living is so high =.=
U've got to accept that there r ppl who r very different than u.
I've never seen u ONCE admit that u r wrong. cuz u always give reasons.
why r u so afriad to say "sorry" or admit that "im wrong"? Wah, ur pride and ego is so friggin big hor?
Apologising to someone doesn't mean its BU YAO LIAN or embarassing, it only means that u have courage to admit ur mistakes.
It's ok to be different, but be DIFFERENT IN A GOOD WAY. be UNIQUE, not ODD.
Today, you officially made me pissed till I just wanna scream in the class and throw my water bottle at u. You have totally shown disrespect to someone in the class.
But i'll try to view u as my friend and HOPEFULLY U WILL TRY TO CHANGE WHATEVER ATTITUDE EVERYONE IS HAVING WITH U.
No one is perfect, so stop giving excuses and say it proudly that u suck in some way. CUZ ITS THE TRUTH, LIKE DUHH =.=?
OK ENOUGH FOR THE CRAPPY POST. its either u know who im talking abt, or u don't. and don't view it as backstabbing or anything, i didnt scold or spread any rumours =.=
the ASEAN delegate thingy is driving me crazy. like, i know i shud have done it earlier, but its so sian, like, WHY THE HELL MUST WE DO THE FRIGGIN PAPER.
I swear right now, im never gonna be someone who will have relations to the politics, becuz i dont give a heck about politics. sorry, i jus dont like it, blame it on my antibodies or sth =.= as u can see LOLS, i loveeeeee science. n only science.
the only thing im excited abt the asean thing is THE CLOTHING WAHAHAHAHAH XD they say must wear FORMAL clothing, so im gonna have like, a gathering for all the ppl attending the asean thingy to GO OUT SHOPPING N BUY FORMAL CLOTHINGSSS :D D:D D: D:D :D
aiya, wont waste money one la, bugis 10 dollars can also kena one liao lor XD~~!
wah sian, tmr need hand in the stupid position paper, until now not even ONE done lor.
like "MALAYSIA TERRORISM" WTF =.=?
if we are meant to die, WE DIE. accept it governments =.=
sian, zhen de regret accepting it. hais. sian sian sian sian sian sian.
wooots. napfa i got position 46. GOT IMPROVE OK XDD?? by 30+ positions lehhh~
becuz i cheated n stand very infront =.= so will chiong faster.
and the champions for females are:
1) JACQUELINE :D
2) VALERIAGOH :D
3) CAROLYN :D
4) SERENE :D
5) HAZEL TAN :D
3 ppl from our class sia o.o wah, really damn proooooo T.T
i was like, keeeeep stopping for many many manyyyyy times. sian.
nvm la, A very happy le :D GOLD FTW~~!!
for guys, isaac fastest in our class o.o i heard zhenju kena 4th, which is like DAMN PRO ok =.=
oh, and happy birthday QINGYING and happy birthday ISAAC in 47 mins heh :D
I'm loving 3D more and more and more and moreeeee :D
Sunday, April 19, 2009
{ 9:27 PM }
Ok, im still very high about the goldwithhonours THINGY AHAHAHAHA~~~!!
not only me lor, go see every AHSChoir member the msn, all put our achievement there ok =.=
except for reynold though o.o lol
no, dont come "goldwithhonours NIA"
U NIA US SOMEMORE, u try getting it first la =.=
lols EUGENIA XD no, its not that we r getting COMPLACENT or HAOLIAN.
its becuz, at that moment it was either we MAKE IT or we BREAK IT.
and seriously, i felt like killin myself when i tot we failed but, HEY HEY HEY XDDDD
WE DID IT. IT was definitely the magic the judges felt.
it was the magic of our true sincerity to the music we want to convey.
our message wasnt "HEY JUDGES, WE R A VERY PRO CHOIR, GIVE US A GOLD WITH HONOURS"
but our message was, "HEY judges, this is what we've done to the music and this is how we appreciate it. We hoped you felt our feelings for the songs too"
And that is the most significant n fruitful lesson we've gained.
The goldwithhonours is an ACHIEVEMENT.
but what we've learnt is an AHIEVEMENT for LIFE.
and ok, i know we didn't like, practiced as hard as some other CCAs do but, we DID worked hard u know =.=
and as my first and my last SYF, i'm so relieved that it ended well. Like totally no regrets.
Juniors, jiayou bah, got pressure liao, WAHAHAHAHAHAH XD!!~~
and yeah, i know i've been screaming alot in class abt this GwH thingy, i'll keep quiet (i think o.o)
JIAYOU FOR OTHER PERFORMING ARTS WHOSE SYF IS COMING SOON :D
(must make dr.boon and ms.cheong happy. hehs =.=)
and for the other CCAs who didn't get what they wanted, pls don't fret or be very depressed ok?
i know u'll be like "ya la, u get GwH what"
NOOOO =.= didnt i tell u in the previous post that we were most likely getting a gold??
and that MC who stopped for 3 seconds which seemed like 3 centuries =.=?
I ALMOST HAD A HEART ATTACK OK GOD DAMN U =.= i was preparing to jump off the building, literally.
so yeah, i did feel that "OMGOSH" moment. But SYF is subjecting and i guess, there is just SO MUCH we can do.
even if the whole competition repeats itself, whatever happens before will happen again.
and we've all seen the hard work u guys have put in, like, WOW O.O
and to know that u all had tried ur best, it's already a great achievement :) cheer up guys~
yeah, i admit, if i were u, i would definitely sulk at this post now and u guys must be hating me =.=
but, we're all in this together, u know.
OK ENOUGH WITH THE MUSHY MUSHY =.=
gosh, i've liked so much unnecessary stuffs to do,
like this STUPID JIANBAO which just suddenly pops up in my mind, and im like "OH GOD -.-"
wat the helll laaaaa~ I DONT ORDER ZAO BAO and NONE OF MY FAMILY MEMBER DOES.
and by the time i come back from school, the ZAO BAO ALL SELL FINISH LIAO~
how u expect me to buy it larrrrhshshshshhsshs~
and my family members doesnt read chinese AT ALLL~~~!!!
it is REALLLY frustrating u know. like, ARGHHHHH JIANG LAO SHIIII!!!!
and then got this ASEAN plus thingy, in which i might have regret agreeing to join it =.=
becuz apparently, im kinda losing interest now =.= come on, MALAYSIA?? get george to do it la =.=
but whatever, i have to do it anyways =.= NO REGRETS MANJINGGGG~~
and i was like complaining to mr.yeow i actually like, half-regretted choosing history =.=
no, not because of the class. its the subject itself starts to bore me.
I'm not like some others who's totally in to that EUROPEAN STUFF. and definitely not MILITARY.
WHICH IS WHAT THE WHOLE DAMN TOPIC IS ABOUT. SCREW CHAPT 2.
i prefer like, how the people suffered under the rule n how they overcame it blah blah blah,
like world war II in SG LOR. exactly the reason y i chose history when i was a sec 2.
NO, not that i like to see suffering =.= but i want to know how the experience was and their feelings. i want to see determination from ppl trying to overcome stupid fat ass yamashita.
Cannibalism is cool though o.o HEHS i see the gruesome pics i quite interested sia.
but come ONNNNN =.= INDUSTRIALISATION. BORE. YAWNS.
not like geog would be interesting but =.= ok y does humanities even exists.
I KNOW WHY, cuz now got siow miew yew (dunno how to spell) fund thingy, which gives like, 100 dollars O.O
and u'll be asking "WHY ONLY HUMANITIES??!!"
HA! i've no IDEA TOOO =.= i expect many ppl to chiong for humanities for that 100 bucks hehs.
Watched 17 AGAIN. and dont mind watching it AGAIN :D
so funny, so so sooooooooo funny u'll laugh ur ass off lah.
HANDSOME SUIT is nice too :D oso quite funny.
wow. so many comedy movies nowadays. hmm.
like, ZAC EFRON is always so GORGEOUS O.O
but my heart's forever with EDWARD CULLEN MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHA~~!
AND HEY!!!~~ they're filming new moon like, right now, nearing to ITALY BWAKEKEKEKEKEK XDDD
EDWARDDDD~~~ here i COMEEEEE :DDDDDD
Saturday, April 18, 2009
{ 1:11 AM }
Yo yo people...
I KNOW NOW IS LIKE, 1.12 am WTF =.= but im so excited to post all my pics during SYF :D
hehes, sorry ah, only took it like, after SYF, before SYF very little one o.o
i think i koping some from ppl's blog lehhs o.o sorraye to JOJO AND RACHKOH~~~!!!
THERES HELL ALOT OF PICS :D hehs take so long to load leh =.=
Group photo with our dearest drboon and mscheong =.=
personwifbackfacing: CHARIS, and that is YEEYING :D
I know im being lame =.=
Taken jus after we sang :D wif costumes hehs
more fun at mac with a no. of sec3 batch :D
me and rach loves icecream :D
rach and eugenia being spastic XD!!
Max throwing zhensheng into water o.o
crowds gathering after RESULTS OF GwH!!!
more crowds :D
hehs, zhensheng kena dumped into water by max :D
sec3 batch pic wif mr toh :D YAYAYAYAYAY!!
choir in a circle, singing UBICARITAS LOVESSSSS~
some sec3s taking pic wif jesse :D:D:D:D:D:D
Ok below pics are ZILIANS with many many choir ppl :DDDDD
QIANYUU~ YINGJUNN~~ JESSEE~~
ALVINAA~~ CORNELIUS~~~ ZHENSHENGG~~
CHRISTOPHERR~~ EMMAUSS~~ CHARMAINEEE~~
POHYII~~ Jesse in rachkoh's specs hehs :D
nice scenery HEHSSS???? :D
I absolutely love love love love loveeee AHSCHOIR like siaooooo~~~~
AHSCHOIR WE ROCKED AND WE JUST MADE OURSELVES PROUD!!!
JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU!!~~~
*ABOVE POST UPDATED AT 1:57AM*
Friday, April 17, 2009
{ 9:21 PM }
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!~~~~~~~~~~~~~
AHSCHOIR GOTTEN GOLD WITH HONOURS BABEHHH~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
my goshy goshy goshy goshy!!! the MC was like, choir no. 25, ANGLICAN HIGH CHOIR
btw i was sitting with miss yeeying :D den me n her hold our breaths and squeezed each other hands...
GOLD.........(PAUSES FOR 3 FRIGGIN LONG SECS. DAMN THE MC)
for a moment, my heart totally crashed, was about to cry actually, but still got a teeny weeny bit of hope in my heart so.....
WITH HONOURS........
then the next thing is....
*AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! YAYAYAYAYAYAAYAYAY~~~~!!! WAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH SETHJTRRGDRUYJHEFFXSGTYJHGFR SO HAPPYYYY!!!!!
wakao i tell u, this is like one of the most happiest day of my LIFE MAN~~~~!!!!
is like MY GOSHHHHHHHHHHHHH AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH GOLD WITH HONOURSSSSSSSSS BABEHHH~~~!!!!
before that our conductor was like telling us, "don't put ur hopes up too high ok? I'm very very proud of you, but it just wasn't there. So no crying later on ok?"
i tell u, that instant right, im like "O.O WTH"~~~
i tot we didnt do as well, but at least still got abit of hope of getting GwH...
though everyone commented as though it was terrible, but hey, i did feel goosebumps during ave o.o a little, mr toh was like, ABOUT TO CRY (not joking! trust first row de :D)
basically we went sharp, white horses starting rhythm was wrong, miao jia got one tenor solo came in wrong (or is it we were slow o.o?) kinda draggy,
but, i really like, focused until my eyeballs wan pop out and gave in my super super superrrr best,
so i really hoped it paid off =.= like COME ON??????!!!!
jemimah was crying though o.o becuz she was touched after yingjun sang the first sop solo~
HOWEVER, our hopes got back up again after cornelius was like saying, theres this guy who posts on a live blog after every choir performance, and that particular guy was like commenting "Clearly a goldwithhonours!"
wow.
den afterwards a VS friend, clement, smsed rachkoh and told her that we rocked and totally trashed VS and anderson...=.=
WOW.
den really lor. we got goldwithhonours.
WOWOWOWWOWOWOWWOWOWOWWOWOWOWWOWOWOWOWW.
was it like, really THAT good =.=?
i think we could've done better, THERES ALWAYS ROOM FOR IMPROVEMENT :D
but for now, i really want to enjoy the fruits of our labour for just this period. i desperately need some happiness to boost myself up after the dropping of my grades and some emo probs =.=
me n yy was like "now even if we fail chinese oso will dont care one lor"
im serious ok. choir is more important than academics, at least for this period.
then we were outside VCH screaming/hugging/shouting/crying/wailing/cheering/shakinghands/takingpics/morescreamings!!!
i really wanted to cry =.= (honestly) but couldn't =.= sorry, i really tried u know~
but cant stop smiling =) is like smiling with my mouth damn wide, showing teeth for like the entire day XD!!!
den hugged almost everyone~~~!!!
danica n jojo were crying T.T DONT CRY BABEHSS~~~ GOLDWITHHONOURSS!!!
den we all wanted to taupok mr toh, but failed, so taupoh corn instead :D
den max threw zhensheng into the pond hehehehehs~~~
den we hold hands in a circle singing "UBICARITAS"
its our so called TRADITIONAL choir song, we sang it like, almost after every successive competition ;)
to show how much we love our seniors, we love mrtoh&teachers, how much we love AHSCHOIRRR~~!!!
den we zi-high alot, everyone was staring at us like WTF =.=
BUT WE DONT CARE HEHEEHEHEHEH XD!~~~~!!!!
btw, today many ppl ponned school =.= cuz too tired ahahaa~~
I STILL COME LEH, SEE I SO GUAI :DDDDD
ya la, flunk physics lor, ta ma de.
all the questions i dunno, becuz ON THURS I WASNT PRESENT!
asshole la, whatever la, now my mind full of ahschoir, i dont even bother abt physics (unlike muggers)
We've put in so much effort for this SYF,
esp 3 weeks ago, when we almost breakdown becuz we're not moving on in ANY WAY and burdening our conductor and the entire choir,
but we finally break through the goddamn barrier, and WE MADE IT XD
NO REGRETS PPL.
becuz what we've gained most importantly is not the goldwithhononours (aiya dr.boon super happy one la),
but that we've grown and matured, and overcame our weakness through this SYF,
and not to show that we're better than the rest of the choirs,
BUT TO SHOW WHAT WE'VE DONE AND HOW WE APPRECIATE AND TREASURE MUSIC,
and to show what WE'RE MADE OF.
to be an inspiration to other choirs, to say proudly, "WHAT WE CAN DO, SO CAN YOU"
I LOVE YOU AHSCHOIR!
THANKS FOR EVERYTHING YOU ALL HAD DONE TO MAKE THIS SUCCESSIVE.
WE WILL CONTINUE TO STRIVE OUR LEGACY AND HARDWORK AND NEVER EVER EVER FALL AND SURRENDER TO FAILURE!
I LOVE YOU MR.TOH!!! I LOVE YOU SENIORS!!!! I LOVE YOU TEACHERS!!! I LOVE YOU AHSCHOIR!!!!
U R JUST LIKE MY 2ND FAMILY AND UR PLACE IN MY HEART WILL NEVER EVER FADE AWAY!!
AHSCHOIR KICK ASS MAN!!!
(just gotten news cat high kena gold. mr.kwei must be feeling like, T.T zzz. dont fret cat high ppl!)
sorry ah, pictures next post la ok ^^?
Monday, April 6, 2009
{ 8:08 PM }
I'm not going to Chiang Rai.
Final decision.
1) Parents. They are opposing me for the right reasons, and I respect them.
2) The people going. I will only go there and never return because I'll be pissed to my grave. Trust me, go and you will know what I mean. Crows who only know how to complain. HA.
3) The below reason.
I've never felt so selfish of myself this way before. Ever.
What have I done. What have we done. What the heck has gotten us into this place.
I knew we could have been more hardworking. We should have been.
But to suffer in the place of someone I love...is...I don't even know how to express [don't think too far thanks)
It's not like, a mild thing. It's a freaking damnass huge problem. It can kill.
Why suffer it all alone? WHY?
I hate myself for not trying even harder. I hate myself for not remembering all his words during those precious moments he gave up for us.
Where's that diligent and hardworking spirit we once had?
WHERE IS IT?
Where's that ever-determination to work and work and work TILL WE BLEED?
I feel bad for thinking this way but, desperate times calls for desperate thinkings (I know the word is measures)
Because it had driven me to the fact that I'm now thinking alot of weird things.
We only knew today, the hidden things that he has been devoting it to us,
to the fact that we may even cost him his life.
All for who? ALL FOR WHO?
Maybe sacrificing the trip is only a little something I could do.
It's not even sacrificing in the first place.
Love is about sacrifices.
It is ever so tedious and delicate.
Always humble and never boastful.
Today, I finally realised the love I've been receiving for a long, long time.
And tomorrow, I'll make sure I give it back.
Jiayou AHSChoir.
