Monday, July 27, 2009
{ 4:46 PM }
The following article is just for my own personal interest and curiosity. I have no intention of kp-ing anyone and is merely just for more general knowledge. :) NO ACCUSATIONS, ASSUMPTIONS OR POINTING OF FINGERS. TY and ENJOY!
Depression or mental stress is a psyche condition that inhibits personal happiness and productivity during pregnancy. Even during pregnancy, many women who have had depression may be continuing antidepressants to prevent symptoms. However the first trimester (12 weeks) of pregnancy is a crucial time when medication can cause malformations of the fetus. So experts may advice discontinuing medications over this period unless a woman has had multiple episodes of severe stress and depression. After three months, there is not the concern about medication causing malformation of organs. However, there are still questions about whether medication might cause a miscarriage or subtle changes in the early development of the future child.
Following are some of common symptoms that indicate 'Emotional Imbalance' during pregnancy:
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| Persistent longings.(aww) |
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| Unreasonable longing desires. |
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| Delusions or hallucinations. |
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| Noticeably depressed mood however if this depression persists without any interval between subsequent periods then it is more likely that she has another kind of mood problem.(ahh, who knows)
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| Blank depression. |
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| Irritability. |
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| Get depressed over trivial issues.(such as a skirt)
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| Sadness. |
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| Aversion. |
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| Disgust or gross feeling. |
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| Fear of miscarriage. |
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| Resentful behavior.(VERY resentful)
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| Swinging moods. |
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| Marked anxiety |
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| Feeling tensed. |
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| Feeling twitchy. |
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| Marked shifts in mood (suddenly tearful, overly sensitive)(TRUE) |
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| Persistent, marked anger or irritability, increased conflicts. |
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| Loss of interest in usual activities (e.g., work, hobbies)(only interested catching and scolding)
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| Difficulty concentrating and focusing attention |
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| Marked lack of energy, feeling very easily exhausted. |
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| Noticeable change in appetite, overeating, food cravings or aversion to food.(only interested catching and scolding)
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| Sleeping too much or having a hard time sleeping.(whole day practicing how to scold) Aiya! no wonder she so bushuang la, ok la forgive her la, got baby mah, bo pian ma :)
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I think we should promote this in to the whole Singapore, especially in SCHOOLS to help those who are pregnant cope with emotional stress they might face and this may actually help them out in their attitude towards the school, work and STUDENTS :) |
Sunday, July 26, 2009
{ 7:20 AM }
Is there no one who believes me?
Is there no one who trusts me?
Why is everyone doubting me?
I just wanted to be treated with the same respect as anyone else.
I'm reaching my limit. I can't do this anymore.
Thursday, July 23, 2009
{ 3:18 PM }
This school is encouraging me to become a rebellious teenager. Hooray.
Just a few more assumptions, accusations and scolding from them and I will become a full-fledged rebellion.
Quite impossible la. maybe half-fledged hahas.
They like to assume things alot, without knowing the real truth.
Ok why am i so pissed, i got caught by cwy. ah u all probably know who I'm talking abt.
SO if any teachers happen to read this, you all shall not accuse me of anything BECAUSE I DIDN'T SPEAK ANYTHING. You all have NO PROOF. HA.
and y m i caught? my skirt is too short and i folded my sleeves. typical.
Then she demanded my class la, my name la, and i said i didn't have money to buy a new skirt and she was like "U UNDER FINANCIAL ASSISTANCE AH?"
Do i need to be under financial assistance to not have any money? Stupid logic.
My grandma takes care of me and I don't like asking her for money.
Do you have any idea how i feel each time i took money from her?
So yeah, I'm not under any financial assistance but as long as the skirt is wearable I will wear it till the day I die.
If you don't know my family problems, stfu. And don't even think of using my parents as a threaten.
Using them to threaten students is like treating them like a piece of shyt and saying that u will force it down their throats if they don't obey.
No.1) They are not in singapore. I strongly advise anyone to call them, like GO AHEAD. (i'm not challenging anyone or any teacher ah, dont anyhow assume and accuse), cause it will make your phone bill bao. And yeah no, they will not call you, because no point wasting their hard-earned money to hear a dog barking. (once again, im not pointing any fingers, no assumptions ty)
No.2) As long as it doesn't concerns my future, they wont care. They are not like typical parents who only wants to curry flavour with teachers for the sake of good reputation blah blah blah. It's not gonna work.
No.3) They will own you in whatever argument, i 100% guarantee + chop, dont bother competing, esp those who have lousy languages and cannot speak fluently.
No.4) They've been letting me live on my own for 12 years and trusted me in taking care of myself. And did I turn rebellious in these 12 years? NOT A SINGLE RECORD. So it somehow proves a little that I'm still a FENGGONGSHOUFA de HAOGONGMIN and HAOXUESHENG. ASSUMING that I'm a bad kid from my looks and blacklisting me from one min of communication, I feel retarded that people (not accusing anyone ah, dont anyhow assume) wants to use it to blackmail me. VSing against 12 years of foundation, very smart.
No.5) I take charge of the house. Fine, maybe it seemed as though my grandma is ruling it but the truth is, this responsibility also lies in my hands. We both are working hand in hand, like things can only be operated if both of us agree. If one of us disagree, its not gonna work. So when I say that I don't care, she will not care also.
Assuming things. They always like to assume people.
Because I looked messy and unkempt while other guai ppl's hair are all pushed back with long skirts and long socks. Wah, i become bad person lor.
Do you know that in the working world, ppl with fully pushed back hair with long skirts and long socks look like an idiot?
Just by looks, they assume that one is a bad person.
Just by classes, they think some students are stupid and have no hope.
Just by one post on the acp, they can immediately conclude my characteristics.
ZAI, SUPER ZAI. *claps claps*
and I didn't say who the "THEY" are so NO ASSUMPTIONS.
and why do i keep repeating NO ASSUMPTIONS?
BECAUSE THAT'S WHAT THEY DO BEST RIGHT?!! KEEP ASSUMING. corrupted.
ASSUME ASSUME ASSUME. I'M FRIGGIN TIRED OF IT.
You dont know ANYTHING abt the students or me.
So why assume?
I swear, if you had TRUSTED me that I'll change my skirt and not threaten me by saying that you'll tell my teacher, I would have changed and ur impression on me will be good.
But because i looked quite sai on that day, tucked out shirt messy hair and you assumed,
You come and kp me. (didnt say wad kp means, DONT ASSUME AH)
You know why there are rebellious students? because of situations like this, ppl dont trust them.
The more you threaten me, the more i wanted to rebel. That's the feeling I got today.
But I'm not gonna change YET, because I think i still can tahan. but not for long.
Just a few more, and I'm gonna explode.
I know who I am and pls dont think im a f-ing immature kid who doesn't know responsibility. (I'm not saying anyone ah, DONT ASSUME OR ACCUSE TY)
I know very well when I'm wrong and right or if I'm changing or not. Better than anyone else.
Typical law-by-law singaporeans, yawns.
Ah. end of blabbering. For ultra-sensitive people, please dont assume or accuse me of anything AND COME FIND ME AND TALK TO ME OR WHATSOEVER, I DONT LIKE DOING THESE KINDS OF STUFFS. I KNOW WHAT I AM DOING. as you can see it urself, I've made every precaution not to get myself in trouble. No room for pointing fingers, HA.
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
{ 11:11 PM }
TRUST.
What the hell do you know about it?
What exactly is trust to u?
In P5 i think, I was quite self-conscious.
So when any teachers had bad impression of me, I was quite upset.
Because I know I'm not whatever they though I was and I'm definitely better than that.
But hey, which child likes to be misunderstood and wrongly accused?
and LAST YEAR, I just got enough KP-ed by my own form teacher.
the fact that the welfare has to stay back for noticeboard competitions even though theres a common test tmr,
and the fact that the teacher is not helping in assigning ppl to help. No, i'm not nagging about PEOPLE NOT HELPING OUT like I KNOW YOU ALL R CONCERN ABT TEST so PLEASE STOP SAYING THAT I M UPSET THAT PPL DIDNT HELP AT ALL AND STFU BEFORE I LASH AT U. since when the f did i ever say that? NO PROOF THEN KEEP QUIET! At least WE DID OUR JOB. and thats what truly matters.
I rmbered, cuz we won the noticeboard competition we had a free packet of weird choco sticks, den after psycho-ing everyone in the class to get one, I left it on the teacher's table for my teacher to indulge the rest of it.
Ah. She come in, ask "who put this packet here?" then I raised my hand la. Den she ask "why never eat finish" den im like "teacher, the rest are for you to eat"
Guess what she said.
"WAH, NEVER REMOVE IT AWAY, STILL ASK ME HELP YOU EAT THE REST?"
and the great thing was that THIS CONVERSATION WAS IN CHINESE :D
NB. KNN.*(I didnt say what that means, so pls dont accuse ty ^.^)
Hais.
It's so hard living ur life to please other people. People who don't trust you.
Which is precisely the reason why I'm gonna stop pleasing other people liao.
There are enough "i-dont-trust-anyone" ppl in the world. Why don't people start trusting one another?
To me,
To be trusted is a greater compliment than to be loved.
The glue that holds all relationships together - including the relationship between; the leader and the led is trust.
So ytd, I called my mom or my mom called me (OMFG I MISS MY FAMILY), I was like, "妈妈, 有老师不喜欢我啊"
Den my mom was like "啊， 那你伤心吗?"
If i was still my old-self, I'll be like YES I AM, but I replied...
"哎呀, 谁管她。 去她妈的。 她不喜欢就不喜欢， 对我没什么影响."
I feel so good saying it. ahaha :D and the best thing was that my mom supported me and said,
对! 就是要有这种态度! 她要说就让她说吧! 管她喜不喜欢.'
Usually mothers would like their child to become teacher's pets because they wanna curry flavour with them to enable their child to get into whatever school they want.
But that fact it, i rather be disliked and have bad reputation because I stood up for something I was wrongly accused of than to be liked because I'm being a teacher's pet.
U know what? people who already has a definite impression of you in their minds JUST from a few experiences with you are immature to me.
It's sad because there was no trust. It takes a long time to understand someone.
How can one just judge based on a few pessimistic moments?
Don't TALK TO ME ABOUT FIRST IMPRESSION. If first impression is so important, why bother thinking abt the future? SO WHAT if one has a good first impression when in the future that person is gonna SUCK anyway? So ironic.
What I think is the most attractive part of my mother is her headstrong attitude.
And I think more people should be like her instead of bowing their heads to so called the higher authority people.
Pls do not misunderstand, im not stereotyping.
I can name some fine and wonderful teachers and name some "teachers".
And recently, I posted a new inquiry into "YOUR VOICE MATTERS".
As what all the students say, your voice matters is never gonna matter abt ur voices.
And face it, all the students in every school has something to complain about their school.
And they usually wouldn't like it in their first 3 years.
ITS A GENERAL THING, SO I DONT SEE THE REASON WHY ADULTS ARE REPROACHING TO US ABT HOW GOOD THE SCHOOL IS AND HOW WE MUST TREASURE IT.
ITS NOT THAT WE DONT KNOW. ITS JUST A MATTER OF TIME.
and when we are sec4 and realising our demise, we WILL UNDERSTAND and DEVELOP FEELINGS.
YOU DARE SAY YOU DIDNT COMPLAIN ABT UR SCHOOL WHEN U WERE YOUNG?!
no right? SO WHATS THE PROB. juvenile delinquency. FACE IT omg.
And the inquiry i posted was abt "WHY STUDENTS ARE NOT ALLOWED TO WEAR SLIPPERS IN SCHOOL"
and I dunno why r people STILL MAKING A FUSS OUT OF IT. OMG JUST FORGET IT, ITS ALREADY SETTLED.
I'M DOING A GOOD DEED BY ADDRESSING ABT SOMETHING THE ENTIRE STUDENT BODY WANTS TO ADDRESS. WHAT IS UR PROB, SCHOOL?!!
I DIDNT DO ANYTHING WRONG. IN FACT I THINK I'VE DONE A GODDAMN RIGHT THING. IM PROUD OF IT.
Mr.yeow is kind enough to explain it to me in msn. SO MEANS ITS SETTLED.
SO I DONT WAN TO HEAR ANYTHING ABT IT. because im not gonna say i was extra or made a mistake. dont even think of me saying such stuffs. i wont. im not such a retard.
it is not our responsibility to know and understand abt the world ur living in.
but it is URS to guide us along and help us understand and fit in into society.
But what makes someone more inspiring than the others is that they emphasized on the importance trust and understanding of children and retaining the innocence ANY HUMAN HAS ONCE THEY CAME OUT FROM THEIR MOTHER'S WOMB.
Its not our fault that we have lost your trust,
but Its yours for not trusting us,
its YOUR loss, not ours.
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
{ 11:15 PM }
ZZZ actually i was like writing one whole essay abt teachers and stuff, but then its abit wrong LOL so i deleted the whole thing.
My new emaths teacher dont like me and kp me lol.
Got another teacher i think also starting to kp me and is angry i think o.o
Not like i do care alot, but it just doesnt feel good when teachers kp u -.-
like u keep kena scolded den u oso buaysong one right?
but seriously, now i kinda dont care whatever they think abt me LOL
cuz i know what im capable of and i will prove it -.-
it just so happens that at that few moments of blunderness.
at least other teachers who r closer to me knows the real me ahaha.
THATS WHY I THINK TEACHERS AND STUDENTS SHUD HAVE ABIT OF FRIENDSHIP MA.
then the nus high professor was like "I dont like students when they try to be informal to me and dont use proper english"
i think is the THE ARENA that gay guy la,
like, WHATEVER LA, nus big ah -.-
at least the teachers n students in other school will have a piece of memory of each other and a friendship that he will never ever have.
why must we be so freaking formal?
as in i do understand there has to be a certain degree of respect,
but must we be so formal like, when chatting in msn or talking in school?
Man, i pity these kind of ppl de children. Confirm will feel lonely one lor.
Ok la, ahs de teachers quite nice la, can scream HI CHER and they wont mind :)
sian, now i dont like NUS lor after hearing what that professor say.
like, he doesnt wan to be close to his students.
how to be approachable if he's like this -.-?
Like i WONT find a teacher for help if he/she is not approachable,
i will just find another one that is more openly and outgoing.
sian. growing into adulthood is such a saddening stage.
u lose all the vibe and energy and youthfulness u once had.
PETER PAN SYNDROME WEE :D
i hope no one will become like that nus high professor, must be a respectable and friendly and patient and caring adult ok XD?
Sunday, July 5, 2009
{ 11:30 PM }
People always mistaken sadness to be a form of anger...
CANT Y'ALL GET IT IN UR HEAD THAT ITS BOTH FORM???
How to say ah, I'm already HURT by her/his actions, and he/she is now telling people that I AM ANGRY WITH HER/HIM -.-
Doesn't this like, deepens the hurt?
It's interesting to see how incomprehensive and unsensitive (screw my language) people sometimes can be.
And how hurt one can become.
I am THROUGH with it -.- seriously, its not worth my time and effort.
Ok HERE ARE PICS AND PHOTOS :D of AHSChoir concert and our performance at the SYF CHORAL PRESENTATION :D :D.
Performance at world choral festival was...slightly better...
at least it's a step forward than deproving :) I'm glad.
Pic 1 - 8: ESPLANADE AHSCHOIR CONCERT :D
Pic 9 - 10: SUPPER AT SIMPANG :D
Pic 11 - 26: SYF CHORAL PRESENTATION :D
A sea of blue :D
Eugenia's wallet SPARKLES under the light ok o.o
I LOVE YOU REBECCA :D THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR SUPPORTING T.T
HI KEITH :D smileysss XD
THEY CAME T.T I'm super super super touched ahaha :D stupid sam purposely bend down to accomodate to my height -.-
LOUIS SHORTEST :D
LOLS :D Louis trying to look tall and wang+sam kena strangled @.@
My dear sis danica wif me :D
HI ZHENSHENG :D crazy boi ahaha
HI JESSE :D you look dead o.o
Kunmei mei :D:D:D
Charis, our ever-pro makeup artist :D
JOYCEEE :D we took like 3 photos :o!
Shijiaaa :DD :D D:D
Sec3 batch female singerellas :D
Emmaus's hair - stylo milo sia o.o
niania :D this pic is glam de ok ahaha :D
me n reynold :D (ex-co keep quiet hor -.-)
TWO AHSCHOIR PRES :D (with one monster called rachkoh behind -.-)
Dwayne is being LAME o.o
general situation - crowded, stuffy, sweaty, u get it -.-
FEDORA KEEPS MOVING ARND :D pic is BLURRED o.o
ying-rach-fedora-eugenia LOLSSS :D u guys r funnayeee~~
Christopher shouted at me when I took this photo ._.
TINGWEIII :D :D :D D:D HIHIHIHI XD
Eugenia being funnaye and unglammmmmm o.o
Read the second competitor's name from hongkong ._.
for a moment, I thought I saw my name and got a friggin shock of my life ZZZZ -.-
MY FULL NAME WAS ALMOST THERE o.o just 3 letters difference omg =.=
KONG MAN YI LOLSSS. this is damn cool ok XD
ahh people, if you see ur faces up there, pls dont scold me -.-
I put pics that showed both glam and unglam wise, including myself, so yeah,
but my aim is to show everyone that we're a happy and united choir :D
LONG LIVE AHSCHOIR MUAHAHA :D I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!
boowahlamokong!!!!
