xiia0manman

2010-02-02T00:14:00.000+08:00

LOL damn Isaac and George are getting really loud in class these days~
NO, I'm not bloody hao-lian-ing that I am in a relationship whatsoever, wtf, hao lian simi? For those idiots who think I am, stfu, sorry that you're single la, don't blame on me right?
Because, in my opinion, I think that one shouldn't hide if you are with someone, I mean always hide hide hide then don't wan say its bloody stupid la for me,
I mean why so secretive? Then what if go out people see you with someone else? What, ur gonna run away and hide? Like stupid only?
Besides, we should always be proud of who we are what.
When people ask about us, I will just answer it normally, its called YOU ASK I REPLY.
SO SHUT UP, I ALSO DON'T WAN IT TO BE SO BIG LA TMD!

And pls stop saying he is old, he is only 2 years older wtf?
Boys mature slower than girls, in fact they only mature when they're 30 years old,
not that I'm condemning those who have younger/same age stead but, yeah its a scientific fact -.-
If you think its easy to understand people 2 years older than your age, then you go try talking to them.
Their mindsets are very different - JC vs Sec school students, different levels of maturity and opinions,
So why the fark people make it sound its like a negative thing? I mean at least I do attain some level some level of maturity?
You think so easy to interact then you go try stead with one la!
LOL. WHY AM I SO AGITATED?!

OH I KNOW WHY.
because someone left a F*** U tag on my blogshop! OMFG THAT BITCH?!
OMGAWD THAT BITCHHHHHH OMFG IM SO BLOODY ANGRY LOL!
Walao eh, please rmb that YOUR ITEMS STILL WITH ME AH, I CAN CANCEL IT ANYTIME!
LOL i admit la I kaopei-ed some customers,
some is that day I bad mood (ultra sorry), but some is really deserved to be scolded la. Won't go into detail, only will create more F U tags on my blogshop,
but whatever la, my service is ZAI ok?! It is not KANASAI, mind you farking language, if you think its kanasai then bloody cancel your orders AND ASK FOR REFUND, I ALSO LAZY TO SERVE YOU TMD!
Anyways, I'm closing down my blogshop (LOL WTF, only after 2 months of operation), so I don't care liao la go ruin my reputation for all I bloody care lol,
But I'm still gonna order from taobao from time to time, so I will only open it to old customers and friends :D
For that bitch, I obviously know who you are, don't act like you so innocent, you know that I know who you are, next time don't order from me, wo bu xi han~!
And yes, I don't like serving retarded people, face it, no one likes it, and I know I have to tahan it somehow, and I will, but not now during O levels,
I must set my priorities right, and I don't think its worth serving noisy bitches.
Ok la, most of them are nice, I made one super close friend whom I webcam with and another kpop fan :D!

Yawns. tired. gotta sleep

2010-01-09T00:46:00.000+08:00

OMYGAWDDD.

Firstly, F*CK THE SCHOOL FOR HAVING THOSE SHITTY RE-EXAMS SHYT.
walao eh retarded or what sia BLOODY IRRITATING LAAAAAAA.
KAOOOZZZZ holiday also got training like mad right? Cannot let us rest is it wtf?!
Bui ta han liao la WAAAALLLAAAOOOOOO~
Somemore chem paper so obvious same as EOY, purposely keep quiet.
NA BEI -.-

Secondly, ahschoir trip to Italy this year is likely to be cancelled.
OHHHMEEEGOSHHHHH.
I am disappointed but honestly, not THAT disappointed because I think on the financial aspect I do need lots of help, and I don't think even with my PROSPERING blogshop (those who said it'll fail can fark off haha :D!) and everyday saving of $4 will help...=X
HEY, but I AM devastated ok? Hais, I can't be roommates with eugenia anymore T.T
I do understand the reasons behind this whole catastrophe and I think that although we may grumble and stuff,
it's no one's fault, if someone has to blamed then it will be the US,
like, thanks for crippling the world's economy last year LOL -.-

Oh, mrs.lim, our new form teacher, is really nice o.o!
At first I didn't believe what my seniors said but, she really is nice! Not as disciplinary as I once perceived her to be...
She didn't even catch my obviously golden hair :D (Yes, I know its not golden but stfu, I like to say that it's golden -.-)
Ok la, almost kena caught be csj but I chionged into 4E and hid there for awhile lol,
Then Mr.Zheng was like "WAH!~ you colour your hair ah?"
Thanks ah Mr.Zheng ^^!

LOL I totally forgotten how to do amaths? As in SERIOUSLY forgotten every single detail?
I was trying my hardest to do the amath revision paper (omg screw that HW T.T) and I can't even complete the first 5 questions LOL DAMN IT HAHAS XD!
But its ok, one call to dexter should be able to solve everything LOL.

WHY DO PEOPLE HAVE TUITIONS DURING HOLIDAYS? like WTF ONLY? LOL!
Damn, these people have sad lives.
Come on, HOLIDAYSSSSS LEH! Still need study?
Ok la, if parents force or is the tuition policies then is bo pian,
but for those who actually REQUESTED IT...
Do you have a life??? -.- Don't you need to rest or sth?
Is like as if studying is the only purpose in your life and your only motivation to keep surviving,
but if that's the case, then GOOD LUCK WITH IT AH. Lol.
The more I think the more I want to laugh LOL HAHA.

Hais, today is friday and I'm gonna REST.
Someone actually ordered 16 items in my blogshop and altogether it costs over $200+ LOL.
I'm earning babe, I'm earning :D

2009-12-31T02:02:00.001+08:00

It's 31st Dec 2009, last day of the year 2009...
So many things happened this year...hais...
So I would like to uhh, have some sort of closure or sth, not that anyone would bother reading it -.-
But it's a nice ending to everything~ nice ending for 2009
And now its night time, its a very emo period so I have no chance to get kaopei and throw temper lol.

First of all, I am grateful for 3D :D
Though there's alot of incidences and such, it was a joy having you guys, all of you guys.
I felt very relaxed and accepted whenever I'm with 3D, and they're always supportive of each other no matter what,
And I kinda liked 3D's outspoken attitude and bravery and such...
And thank you yeeying and genevieve especially for being such good mates,
you guys are always there for me no matter what and helped me solve all my probs and tahan all my childishness and temperness,
Thank you so much for everything and sorry for the times when we became kp to each other LOL.
I couldn't ask for more :)
I hope next yr we will be able to stick together as one, 4D`09 ftw! :D

And then I'm grateful for AHSChoir,
who is together with me for the past 3 yrs, going on 4,
It's the only way to relieve our stress from studies and such, through singing with your mates,
And I miss that feeling hahas.
Although I had many run-ins with some people,
I've learnt that things cannot be the way one expects it,
And you guys have trained me to be more patient and to be more responsible for my actions,
And even though there are many ups and downs and tumblings and such...
We learn to get up and always put the choir as our priority,
I'm sorry for all the wrong things I've done and my childishness, temper...
And I thank you all for being able to bear with me and guide me the right way...
I love you all :)!

Damn I wanna cry -.-
You may think I'm an idiot la, but if you really do truly think about the past memories and feel it emotionally,
you'll understand...esp at 1.47 am -.- you'll definitely feel it.

The great depression this yr has affected alot of families, including mine.
My dad lost his job this yr and my sis got some kind of weird growth in her stomach....
At first I thought everything was really serious and I felt like the whole world is crashing on me,
Because it was halfway through exams and stuff,
And I got trouble with the school, and then I regretted coming to anglican high because it has such screwed up education system, and YES I did say that I regret and the system is screwed, SUCK ON THAT, I've no idea why I put this as my first choice but now I'm encouraging all my pri sch juniors not to make the same mistake SO anyway,
Then thank god the storm's over.
But halfway through my dad's incident my mom sent me an sms,
telling me not to worry and stuff because she can still provide for us even if dad has lost its job,
and even if it was just a simple sms, I teared up and really wanted to cry but I can't cuz I was with my friends I think...
But anyways, I did it when one of them start to kp me for nth. -.-
And then somehow people got the impression that I'm rich which makes me want to punch them because I'm obviously not,
And I didn't bother explaining myself and was like "ya ya i'm rich"
Those bitches. I hope you will end up with the same situation as I am and maybe you'll shut your farking mouth.
That's when I realise how useless I can be at times like this,
Because I really want to help but there's nothing I can do...with sch and stuff, it's impossible to find jobs esp when I'm under 16.

And I can't really continue so I shall just stop here,
but yeah, I'm glad everything's over,
And I'm just grateful for people who have made me pull through those difficult moments,
always by my side and giving me comfort and advice, helping me move on,
And I think I did grow up, at least a little,
And I'll continue to learn and grow as time passes.

Happy new year's eve everyone :)
May everyone have a great 2010 :)

2009-12-24T01:10:00.002+08:00

Lol, anyone feeling emo? :D
Ok I'm not emo anymore, but emo songs are always nice, only if they have good singers...
I was having like, diarrhea and vomited once ytd night WTF AGAIN??!!!!
Farking annoying, and then thanks to it I MISSED OUR LAST CHOIR COMM MEETING OF 2009...
WTF sia, hilary was like, "manjing where are you?"
and I'm like "huh @.@??? What thing?"
"THERE'S COMM MEETING RMB O.O??!!"
"OH SHYTTTTTT!!!!!"
FARK THE STOMACH MAN, I swear I literally punched the bloody stomach.
And then my ahma wanted me to see doctor but the farking clinic is closed cause they wanna eat lunch -.-, so in the end we abandoned the idea. Hais.
I felt better afterwards anyway -.- so,

I GOT A ZAI SONG TO SHARE O.O
But it's very emo...The song name is called "Today I broke up"
So you can imagine -.- how emo it'll be~
It is sung by YOUNHA, if you don't know who she is, she sang the song HOUKI BOSHI in BLEACH,
Ok I thought she's not good-looking in the houki boshi MV at ALL, she looks horribly cute.
But she's now like, bloody chio to the MAXXXX!!! Ok, maybe that's how I perceived girls to be chio, her beauty is the kind I like lol. I know you all don't care, but STFU once you see her face you'll agree with me she's farking chio LOL.

*video removed, because its way too big damn it*

Ok other than her physical appearance is zai, her voice is WOW LA!!!!
She can hit those high high notes, where she sounds as if she's like at the climax,
you know normally zai songs got one climax where the singer will "AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!" that kind?
She sounds like that but she doesn't need to use much strength or effort like most singers do,
you know, they get tired and will be panting after screaming their lungs out,
SHE IS FREAKING ZAI I TELL YOU.
There's one performance when she sang this song and SHE CRIED WHILE SINGING because the lyrics were so overwhelming,
THAT'S WHAT MAKES A GOOD SINGER MAN!!
Now I'm officially a big big big big big fan of younha :D!
YOUNHA ROCKS.

Oh early merry christmas to everyone :D
And FINALLY taggingmonkey replied to my email,
cuz I spammed like many emails, and it ended up in his/her SPAM INBOX -.-
BUT I DON'T CARE, I'M SO HAPPY NOW!!! :D
Taggingmonkey is like, the most ZAI tagging service I've ever seen, I'm DYING to get its service since I promoted my blogshop lol.
With it, I truly believe it will boost customer flow :D

Tomorrow gonna go out with mango to go buy school stuffs...
Yes I didn't even buy my new chinese books, heck I even lost the damn booklist so,
WHO CARES :D
Gonna go to suntec's bookfest. SIAN that time go with him reach there 8+ pm then they close liao -.-
I WILL CHIONG THERE AND BUY EVERYTHINGGGGGGGG!!! :D
I've no plans to dye back my hair, although it's kinda obvious its brown....
Anyone got other alternatives? I die also dont dye it back la, I rather get green forms than to risk my hair falling off T.T
Ok that's not true, but honestly la I hope csj and cwy will have a happy christmas and let me off T.T
my black roots are growing anyways, they can wait till it fully grows out :D
HAHA, CATCH ME IF YOU CAN :D

2009-12-19T02:27:00.000+08:00

Hais...
Don't know what to do now...
Very confused about everything...
Don't know who to believe or what to do now... Or how I'm feeling.
Just want to shut the world outside and stay isolated for the moment...
Need to consider some things seriously.

Today is farewell, should be something happy...
Ok happy's not the right word, bittersweet?
But now my mood is very unstable like I'm gonna do something stupid soon,
which I obviously wouldnt. Retarded ppl never admit they're retarded, same principal, people who's about to do sth stupid wouldnt admit that they're gonna do sth stupid.
Lol sometimes when I'm feeling super kaobei and I see people who kept saying they will do something stupid but never actually does it, I'll be like "DAMN WOULD YOU JUST DO IT -.-?!" HAHAHAHAS, super mean but HONESTLY, its so annoying. Like, won't do then keep quiet la, so chao for what -.-?

Hais, and I thought everything would turn out well eventually...
Me and my own naive thinking of a happy ending like fairytales do...
Ha, but I chose to be naive. My bad.

Eyes gonna be farking puffy the next day I swear. Don't even feel like sleeping, just wanna stay up the whole night and think.
It trains the brain cells too, not that I want to.
Whatever. Don't wanna think about it.

2009-12-13T18:16:00.000+08:00

xiia0manman is tearing up again.

Damn, feel like vomiting now. Great. Stomachache + vomit is the best combo.

2009-12-07T23:07:00.000+08:00

Hello :D
It's been centuries since I posted pictures.
So I'm gonna post pictures -.- yeah you've guessed it~
There's like quite alot of pic from long long time ago -.- so yeah~
Enjoy :D

LOL, we paid like, $5 each to get this bloody photo in which I totally regret now cuz I could have snapped it on my hp. But whatever, BODYWORLD 3D TEAM LOL -.-

The centre's mascot, the T-rex. Dunno where that balls-flying around thing went to.

HAHAHAS camwhoring lol. Everyone looks happy :D i guess.

PRINCE EDWARD ROAD!!! SINCE when did SG have such charming road :D?

Me and YY's sushi buffet after chinese O level :D LURVEEE SUSHI OMG T.T

UDON :D but i was like BLOODY full so I can't finish it =( sorry, totally regretted it now!

Our dessert :D LYCHEE MOCHI :D they don't have ichigo bliss, sad =(

Guess what I saw while walking up to school by the simpang way :D?

CHIO WHITE MUSHROOMS OUT OF NOWHERE? like COOL ONLY??!!

How the hell did it ended up on like the grass -.-? There's a whole lots of it LOLS. Hope its edible :D

Choir camwhore wif yy + nia :D HAHAHAS NIA ACT CUTE XD!

BLOODY ADORABLE OR WHAT MAN! I sewed the two snowflake ears myself :D Hehes! Mr. Toh's bday present!

My IKEA lunch with choir ppl from out IKEA outing :D ONLY $10, NOT BAD OK?! too bad I cant finish the bloody bread, i'm sorry ONCE AGAIN T.T

Nia's bday cake from me and clarice :D! I know its small but the quality and taste DAMN ZAI OK HAHAHAS! Happy birthday dear nia!

I fried salmon + babytomatoes today, mad nice!

And hey, I CAN COOK LOR, got do research one ok LOL!

Ok la honestly, the tomatoes taste better when eaten raw. Sian, watched too much cooking shows, now trying act pro LOL. FAILED T.T~

I'm going to TRY and do my chinese hw.

You have NO IDEA, how much courage and determination and strength I need just to pick up the pen and write a darn sentence.

Currently in siansation right now. Pushing myself le T.T

In the meantime...for those who are free, please visit www.missytaobao.blogspot.com for CHEAP CHEAP CHEAP stuffs ty :D (I know, I'm mass+mad advertising!)

2009-12-07T01:13:00.004+08:00

Miracles sometimes do happen, once in a while.
I never thought that it would ever change at all. That screwed up character is so embedded in my mind then.
But I guess it came back.
And it's making up to me more than ever.
Although the risk is very high,
but I'm willing to take it.
Because I have nothing to lose,
only fond memories to gain,
and the feeling of being an immense importance to it,
is really wonderful and surreal.

But what a sad love this is.
One that is doomed to end.
Life is truly a masquerade - even in love.
Because behind all that happiness, we are tearing inside.
Because we know it won't last very long.
But it's not something we wanted, it's a dead end. There will be no other options except goodbye.

At least for others, there's a future to look towards to, even if chances are mild.
But ours are near zero. The future is bleak.
Most importantly, it's something we can't choose.
At the end of these 2 years,
our chapter is closed. maybe forever.
I don't want to face such reality. It's way too harsh.

To be frank, I am running away from it now.
And I don't wanna face it.
For now I just want to cherish every moment I have and be grateful to everything that has happened so far.
The heart is healing right now. And that's what matters.
Maybe it'll shatter again in the future.
But that's for us to worry later on.

I don't want to think ahead at all. I just wanna embrace the present.

2009-12-03T03:06:00.000+08:00

Bloody hell, its like gonna be 3 am and I'm here blogging wtf.
Ok that's not the point.
Today was a super uber fun day with CLARICE and EUGENIA!!! :D
And me and clarice gave a surprise to nia with a cake :D Hope you love it babe!
Hmm....my "货" for today are one elastic band + slippers from RUBI and a nicer looking face lols.

Nicer looking face eh...I finally went for eyebrow trimming -.-
Like for how many years I've been complaining and whining...thank goodness it is finally THINNER and obviously it looked more decent right.
I pity myself for tolerating damn long with huge horribly formed eyebrows LOL, finally its GONE.
But the entire plucking process was kinda torturous...
When the auntie first pulled that damn hair out...I felt as though the whole world ended -.-
FARKING PAIN OMG~
And the worse thing is that I have to tahan it for quite long because of excessive hair.
So for those who are planning on having your eyebrows trimmed...
don't say I didn't warn you. Just pinch yourself as hard as possible as the person plucks it ^^

We went to eat MANHATTEN FISH MARKET for lunch and went ORCHARD ION to shop :)
The food was not bad...just a teeny weeny bit too similar to fish and co. so...-.- ah heck it, it tastes great.
But I SERIOUSLY do not believe that they actually went all the way to manhatten just to get the bloody fish lol.
I mean fishmarket just downstairs SO EASY TO GET, following human nature/instincts, one will surely just go right down to get the damn fish lol so...ok nvm, as long as the food is good, everything can be overlooked :)
RUBI is having a big sale. Ok maybe not, but somehow, it is jammed packed with loads of women trying on the shoes. So, having like super little shoes, (seriously very little), I bought a pair of nice looking slippers for $17 :D (don't complain money-face freaks, it's bloody cheap already)
And then we shop shop shop...SEPHORA has many nice nice nice cosmetics items and products, which are super mesmerizing and just makes women go crazy somehow.
But thanks to the pricetags, it kinda stopped me from spending a single cent there lol. Nia got a lovely OPI shiny pink nail polish though, it's bloody chio :D

Ah well. Gonna sleep now. Super duper tired.

2009-11-30T00:15:00.000+08:00

Some people just don't know how to differentiate between ANGRY and DISAPPOINTMENT.
Ok, including myself -.-
But it's really very annoying when someone keeps saying others that you are being angry for something when you are actually disappointed.
It's actually a major difference when you use it in a sentence you know, these two words...
For example, perhaps, "I accidentally say her secret out then she angry liao leh"
GO DIE LA. MAKE PEOPLE SOUND LIKE SHE XIAO QI LIKE THAT LA WALAO EH LOL.

I will NEVER be angry, only disappointed. The only indication to show I am angry is when I am screaming the F word at everyone's faces.
And please don't make such a big fuss out of it when I do that. Don't act as if you've never said it before -.-

As in, it is even MORE disappointing to know that people misunderstood your disappointment as anger and make you sound like some bitch who has temper problems.
Like honestly, can you be more MATURE and UNDERSTANDING -.- it is VERY frustrating ARGH!!!
Ok ba, I think honestly, exposing one's secret is the worst crime I can think of. Or maybe that's for me.
As in, those secrets which are like, DIE DIE CANNOT TELL.
I mean, when someone trusts you enough to tell you, can't you just keep it.
IF you know saying it out will cause MAYHEM, then can't you have peace -.-
Is like, purposely zhao ma fan leh. Somemore drag like other people into it.
But once you've abused someone's trust, that person WILL remember it forever.
Ok maybe not everyone -.- but MOST. Its confirm de. Esp if that person genuinely thought you would actually keep quiet.

There was once an old man, who had a son who was a total bustard. The son likes to abuse people's trust and use it against others, and break any peace. One day, the old man took out a plank of wood and told the son, "whenever you have abused a person's trust, drive a nail into this wood", and so many nails were soon embedded into it. After a few days, the old man once again, told the son, "Now, remove a nail from this wood whenever you have apologised to a person" and soon, all the nails were removed. Then the old man said to the son, "see all these dents and holes? although you've apologised, but whatever you've committed is something you can never change and it will always be remembered, even if you're forgiven already"

It's not like I'm encouraging people to not FORGIVE and FORGET you know?
Honestly speaking, can you actually FORGET it? You can forgive, it's a wonderful thing to do,
but forgetting it? especially when it HURTS you alot? I don't think so. Unless you suffer from memory loss or something like this -.-
It will be there, for sure, and it will not fade so easily.
Not everyone is a saint, but sometimes I've no idea WHY people would just expose one's secret just SO EASILY. My goodness. HOW THE HELL YOU FIND THE CONSCIENCE AND CHEEK TO DO IT?
Is like, I'm overwhelmed by shock FIRST then disappointment because I don't even get why you can do it LOL. SERIOUSLY -.-

Ah anyway, whats done is done. Best solution to solve the problem for both parties is to JUST MOVE ON.
For the exposer, you should just go and die. You're horrible.
Ok joking, just move on lor. If you're forgiven, just be happy with it and don't keep being sad and bring it up in a bid to try and make the person forget what you've done. It wouldn't happen.
For the one being hurt, just move on also. You will remember it for sure, but it's okay and it doesn't matter anymore, so just look towards a BRIGHTER FUTURE :D

HAIS HAIS HAIS. BEST THING IS NOT TO HAVE ANY SECRETS LA WTF. JUST DA SHENG SHUO CHU LAI LA, NO BIG DEAL -.-

2009-11-24T20:34:00.000+08:00

LOL walao eh when I saw these I laughed my ass off la HAHAHAHAs.
ITS LIKE, BLOODY FUNNY LAH WALAO EH~
Like you've finally realised how bored people can be and the stupidity of mankind LOLS.
You guys probably don't get what I mean -.- ok~

LOL what the shyt man!!! "WHY DID THE CHICKEN CROSS THE ROAD" WTF!! and this one more zai, "WHY DO MEN HAVE NIPPLES" HAHAHHAHAHASS!

LOL WHY DOES THE SUN GO ON SHINING??!!!

"WHY MUST PEOPLE DIE?!"

I can just go on you know -.-

LOL again the nipples question. Whats wrong with people nowadays -.-

LOL the last two is like f-ing funny LOL.

You just go google.com, type one word den wait for 1 sec and some options will show up just like the above pictures.

And then, you can all laugh ur asses off cuz I bet got some is like bloody hilarious and damn funny LOLLL!!!!

JUST FOR LAUGHS :D

If you guys didnt laugh, den too bad.

2009-11-22T20:46:00.000+08:00

WHY IS EVERY SINGLE PAST/CURRENT/UPCOMING MOVIES NC-16?
IT'S DAMN IRRITATING AND FRUSTRATING MY GOODNESSSSSS!!!
ARGHHHH~~~~!!!
EVERY SINGLE DAMN GOOD MOVIE IS NC-16!!!!!!
PARANORMAL ACTIVITY, NINJA ASSASSIN, SAW (I know its R21), EVERYTHING ALSO NC16 damnnnn bloody annoying!
What will putting the bloody ratings help la? I mean seriously can't they use their BRAINS?
We so called "KIDS" still can watch it online or buy DVDs so whats the freaking point?!
This measure is only encouraging more people to make fake ICs -.- and it is SO not effective,
I mean come on, I've watched all the SAW movies in youtube already -.- if I could watch it, then it means that 10 million underage people out there could watch it too -.-
Now, I can only anticipate for ONE damned movie to come out, and that's new moon zzz.
SIAN SIAN SIAN SIAN SIAN ALL THE WAY MAN ZZZ~

Finally, the long choir camp is overrrr :D and we had lotsa great memories :D :D :D~~~!!!
Ahh~ I've decided to let bygones be bygones and embrace new future~
Ah well, its not how good or bad life is, its how we live it, so I've decided to live it HAPPILY XD
And bond with the rest of my choir mates~
AHSCHOIR RULES THE WORLD BABE!
Hopefully the intensive practices do help and I believe everyone had put in their best effort yep?
LETS ANTICIPATE FOR ITALY 2010! During MARCH and miss one week of school HAHAHAHA!
SOOOO excited, but I seriously need money because it's bloody expensive and I've no idea how to raise the money in time,
SO ONCE AGAIN, MANJING WANTS TO HAVE A JOB -.-

2009-11-15T23:19:00.000+08:00

IGNORANCE IS BLISS

I don't even feel angry that I'm being ostracized and made fun of lol.
In fact, I find it rather hilarious that people are actually WILLING to spend time to talk about me.
I'm so diao-ded LOL like seriously, don't people have other stuffs to do or talk about -.-
But oh well, if it does bring pleasure to them, so be it -.- I seriously don't really care.
IGNORANCE IS BLISS PEOPLE. There are definitely other stuffs more worth our attention.

I DYED MY HAIR :D :D :D :D :D :D
HAHAHAHAHAS. Ok actually I'm quite sad =( cause I was trying to tahan till sec4 before I tried dye-ing it.
Must preserve my virgin hair AHAHA :D and natural hair color!
BUT HOW CAN ONE RESIST THE URGE OF A NEW HAIR COLOR T.T
Oh, mine's the "beauteen" brand from japan, colour is COCOA BEIGE.
Kinda like, browny-golden. It is not very obvious, but also not not-so-obvious.
But I expected a more obvious colour though. I mean, my opinion is that dye hair is to have an obvious change in ur hair color ma. Like, if it has very little difference or same colour THEN DYE FOR WHAT LOL.
Ah oh well, at least its still a different colour :D HAHAHAS.
Yes I kinda went dramatic n freaky over the new hair colour. AIYA can't help it la -.- really super cool, go try it :D

Gonna have CCA for everyday in the next week :D
It's gonna be very exhausting, but we're not having any during december so we're gonna CHIONG and give our best :D
I'm still considering if I should go China for this december holidays LOL.
Like 3 years never go visit my maternal family LOL. IM SO UNFILIAL T.T (is there such a word o.o)
Kinda miss my 14 yr old 170+ cm tall de cousin. SIAOOOOO AHHHHHHHHHH.
Seriously when im in China i just transformed into a dwarf cuz everyone is so bloody tall there T.T OHMYGAWDDDD.
ANY IDEA HOW DEMORALISING AND DEPRESSING IT IS LOL???
I WAN A BEANIE XD! But I need a reason to buy it and an opportunity to wear it -.-
which is only a trip to china will remove my guilt of buying a beanie for nothing LOLLLs.
CONSIDERING :D~~

I NEED A JOB TOO!!!
I have no monayeeee~~~~
Ok I do -.- but that's secured for my future so I NEED MONAYEEEE~~~~
Have been blogshopping recently LOL, like the things are SO CHEAP, REALLY DAMNNNNN CHEAP.
NO WONDER PEOPLE GO CRAZY, like who wouldnt LOL XD
Not only clothes, like cosmetics and facial products are super cheap ahahas :D
AND I FINALLY LEARN HOW TO FULLY UTILISE THE POWER OF THE POSB BANK CARD.
AHAHAHA.
But that card has my WHOLE LIFE savings in it -.- so it's super dangerous. Guess I'm gonna become fully independent on myself soon :D
Which will totally open another chapter in my life.

and I'M LOVIN IT :D

2009-10-30T23:09:00.000+08:00

THE FOLLOWING POST IS PURELY BASED ON MY OPINION AND ANY SIMILARITIES IS PURELY COINCIDENTAL AND PLS DON'T BE A PETTY DOG AND BE OFFENDED. BE GRACIOUS OK?

Oh here comes my report slip -.- And I'm like focusing on the remarks part lol.
Shall not furthur comment on it. Wasn't what I expected. Lol.
Well, maybe I'm just an immature kid. Shall wait till I grow up then :D
I'm losing my passion in everything. Don't even feel like coming to school.
Singapore's education is screwed. Or maybe only our school.
I mean seriously take a look around, all we produce are muggers, including myself,
and I don't see how THAT can bring us far in the future.
Look at CCHS, most of their students are not very muggish, in fact they look kinda ahlian ahbeng to me,
but yet they scored BETTER than us, and they even got band 1.
I'm obviously sending myself to hell posting this post but whatever.
Other students scold teachers scold schools on their blogs.
I'm just stating an opinion, or rather, a FACT.
Seriously. muggers after muggers after muggers. When will this end?
I think all of us will die in JC la.
In America, students are encouraged to speak up their opinions and voice their views as much as possible.
In Singapore, students who voiced their opinions are condemned by the school and their tone is viewed as RUDE.
WOW. Seriously man. That's probably the reason why americans are usually far more successful than Singaporeans.
Hey, I'm not stereotyping, there are smart people out there of course.
Ya la, like one in a million. LKY is probably the smartest and outwitting guy in Singapore.
And there's one guy in our class that is wickedly smart too.
Why is this school like this one ah...
Really frustrating to the max you know my goodness.
If it wasn't for SOME teachers here or my friends,
I will be home-schooling now.
DAMN I WANT TO STUDY OVERSEAS LOL.
EVERY MIN I STAY IN THIS SCREWED UP SYSTEM THE MORE MUGGISH I BECOME.
and then my brain goes mushy and my head shall become dead.
Sian. No money no money but CHIU *clap clap, clap*
Here is so screwed. Staying here another minute is TORTUROUS (if it is purely based on education)
NOOOOOOO mugging is not the WAYYYY.
Even for special courses like gifted programmes and stuff,
MUGGERS ARE CHOSEN over those like, really genius people.
One example start with I one, in our class.
I can bet with you with my LIFE, he is gonna be very successful in the future.
Definitely more successful than muggers. It scares me to see how many people in our school wore specs.
This is a mugger regime. Die.

2009-10-25T03:01:00.000+08:00

OK I just watched this U.S gameshow called "The moment of Truth" and it was WOW.
It is like this show in which a person is invited and he/she is being asked questions and he/she must answer truthfully in order to get money,
But one false answer will cause the person to lose all the money he/she has been working towards.
And before the show, the person is put on a lie detector and answer the same questions without knowing the results of the detector,
Then on the show, he/she will be asked the same questions and the answer will be revealed then with like 4 or 5 of their close or loved ones present,
which may include their family, their husbands/wives, best friends.
AND THE QUESTIONS IS NOT SO EASY OK?
It is like "Have you ever had sexual relations with anyone after getting married with your husband?"
and the person REALLY admitted it -.- wah siao liao la. You see the husband face is like chua tio you know lol. Like seriously WTF.
Then is like "Have you ever had sexual fantasy involving your best friend?"
"Have you ever blamed your father for ruining your childhood?"
Is like, if you were being asked that question HOW WILL YOU ANSWER IT LOL?
The worse thing is that that person is RIGHT THERE WATCHING YOU and you gotta admit it. Zai leh.
It ruins like, how many families and marriages zzz. But at least the truth is out.
Oh ya there is one which asked "Have you ever had sex with over 100 women?" to a guy, and guess what that guy answered when his girlfriend was present there -.-
I KNOW YOU'RE INTERESTED LAH. It's not a fake one la, cuz after the episodes some magazines are interested in those really screwed up lives of some contestants and they went to kazhao them la, and it came out on newspapers and magazines and stuffs.
I think Singapore should have it lor, in fact I think schools should have it.
Then everyone would reveal every damn truth out. Then every teacher would reveal everything MUAHAHAHA.
It destroys relationships la but then, ah well. It's always good to know the truth. Whether it sucks or not.
But Singaporeans so humji confirm won't do it one lol. Sian.
Anyway, those interested can go youtube and type the show name. My personal favourite episode is Lauren Cleri's one, and the media announced that she became like, the most hated woman in the U.S.
Which is kinda ironic considering that actually many people IS as screwed as she was then, which makes it kinda normal and should-be-forgiven kinda case.
Lol, the highlight was when the show invited her ex-boyfriend to ask her questions infront of her husband.
Wah imba I tell you. Not that I enjoy watching the show -.- if you were watching it I DARE YOU CLOSE THE INTERNET EXPLORER LA. You wouldn't lor.
The best thing to do is NOT TO JOIN THE SHOW AT ALL.
Lol, this is seriously one screwed up world. We're all doomed -.-

2009-10-21T23:24:00.000+08:00

This is not home. Not my home.

I'm just asking to live on my own. I can do it. Why won't you guys let me?
When will you all finally let me go? She cannot take care of me forever.
In fact she's doing more harm than good.
Now the relationships I've painstakingly built is damaged.
I'm sorry I can't see her goodwill and intentions towards me
Because it's biasness and I hate it.
I don't mind loneliness because there's no difference when I'm in here.
The difference will be perhaps no more shouting screaming or crying.
Life is just getting more difficult day by day and wouldn't it be better for everyone if I just leave?
No need to cook for me no need to wash for me everything I'll be doing on my own.
No I don't wan you all to come back all of a sudden and disrupt the stability we've obtained.
I prefer my life like this. I don't know why but I just like it. And I want to continue this way, at least till I complete my education.
I can make my own decisions. Even if u want me to get my own money I am very sure I can do it.
But life sucks now and it doesn't need to suck even more.
This is terrible. This conflict will never be resolve.
So don't ask me to help both of them or whatever cause YOU KNOW IT CANNOT WORK.
THE HATRED IS ALREADY THERE IN THE FIRST PLACE.
What can I do? And I don't want to do ANYTHING. Just demolish the bloody heater.
I shall shower without warm water from now on then. Nothing too big about it. I'm not going to touch that bloody thing again.
She blew it up at her. And there is NO CHANCE the harmony we once had will return.
Oh, we are not even living in harmony in the first place. It's just a mask. AGAIN.
Why you guys pretend like its not there? Aren't you escaping from reality?
What hopes can you all harbour? Can't you see the situation now? ITS OVER. Don't bother.
Why make life difficult? Put a separation between us, I don't mind at all.

Cause I'm sick and tired of all these conflicts and I want it all to end.

2009-10-17T14:27:00.001+08:00

Spent the entire night out with a friend yesterday night.
As in, literally the ENTIRE night from 11pm - 7 am in the morning LOL.
WHY? BECUZ IM CRAZY THAT'S WHY.
I'm stressed and pressured till my brain can't function anymore.
Ok, back to the topic -.- anyway life's so short so just try whatever I can.
ITS LIKE, DAMN COOL CUZ AT 7AM when you're about to go home and sleep, it feels like NIGHT time but actually its morning and the MRT is like, packed with PEOPLE and u'll be like "hey what's everyone doing here LOL" so cool~ XD
We watched 2 movies at one go, My sister's keeper and The deadly tsunami
BOTH ARE SUPER SUPER TEARY-EYED MOVIE LOL OMG!!
I HAD TO CONTROL MY TEARS SOOOOOOO HARD FOR BOTH MOVIE LOL XD

I'm sure u all know the My sister's keeper story right o.o?
IF you don't, you suck.
Anyways pls check out the movie, it's really well done :D
The deadly Tsunami is a korean movie...
Ya it's something like The sinking of japan.
A natural disaster is about to happen to the country,
then there's like love stories LOL. i think like, 4 different type for that movie.
Then is like, at first before the tsunami the couple in these 4 stories are quarelling and stuff LOL
Then when tsunami come they CRY CRY CRY AND HUG EACH OTHER SAY BYEBYE -.-
Eh, but got 1 couple survive, then some is both die some is one die.
AIYA u get it la, i luo suo so long lol.
But it's VERY touching too, you WILL cry. Super touching.
Just that the tsunami de waves ha...velli de fake leh -.-
But anyway there's alot of water so yeah :)

Youtubing. BYEBYE :D

2009-10-16T17:58:00.000+08:00

Life is just like a masquerade - Just that you can never take off that mask nor show any of your feelings. You can only pretend that you're dancing happily in the grandiose ball but beneath that blissful demeanor lies the melancholy and sorrows.

Why must we be called weaklings each time we tear?
Why does apologies always go unaccepted?
Why do people treat you in a way you would never treat them?
Why do people just don't care about the good things but keeps probing on the bad ones?

The end of a terror state gives rise to another one.
But for this state, you can never EVER show your feelings out.
You'll have to pretend that you're always happy even if you're not.
And you'll find it hard to trust people.

No one will ever appreciate your efforts
No one will ever appreciate your intentions.
You can only just live in fear and hope that all goes well
And this sucks.

"Grit you teeth and sustained through the torture" says society.
But why can't we just take off that mask and let our feelings go where they want to?

2009-09-20T03:55:00.000+08:00

Just watched finish a millionaire's first love.
Harna I super lag la, 3 yrs ago de movie -.-
But I feel very emo n feel like crying BUT I CANT
so just watch emo movie.
OK i didn't know it will be THIS emo but,
ah anyway. eyes r puffy.
changed blogsong, obviously cuz i feel emo now.
Its by my faved band DBSK anyways, (shocked n surprised :D)
enjoy emo-ing :)

2009-09-15T21:00:00.001+08:00

Today was in like, a super emo mood and bad mood so I just on the com ANYWAY -.-
and as EXPECTED, I was glued to it for so damn long i didnt even study any damn thing la.
Aiya i bloody screwed up la with like f-ing screwed up grades I DONT EVEN BOTHER MINDING MY LANGUAGE.
Its a wonder that I dont even write out the whole damn word zzz.
WAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH THIS BLOODY WORLD LA I STUDIED SO BLOODY HARD STILL GET BLOODY LOW WTF WTF.
ok im obviously in a pms mood.

Hais. gonna be on hiatus soon la. Call me mugger la but seriously i will regret if i dont mug now so, whatever.
One thing zai about muggers r that, they can be stereotyped and criticized and stuff,
but when eventually they still secured a better future than us, got better grades,
we are the ones that end up being laughed at.
Anyway its not as if we have no life. We have loads, just that we don't say.
LOL. Act so mysterious for simi sai.

lol. I wan someone to GET OUT OF MY LIFE LOL.
You are spoilt and annoying and rude and selfish.
Your mother teach you how to complain but never teach you how to shut up.
Always scold vulgarities and hurl the F word, den when i say vulgarities u ask me keep quiet.
Keep calling me annoying somemore. Wtf la, without me can u still be like, HERE??????
Walao eh, bloody immature person. Other than LOVING the women u love right, the most important thing in the future is still, TO PROVE THAT YOU CAN PROVIDE A GOOD LIFE FOR HER RIGHT?
And how u do that? u bloody work ur ass off and always think for others not urself.
Is like, in the future if there should be a fire, u would throw ur child inside and run away first. IM NOT EVEN F-ING JOKING, UR SO SELFISH UR LIKE THE MOST SELFISH PERSON IN THE WORLD OMG.
Can't believe your older than me. Age really doesn't matter when it comes to relationship.
I'm confident I CAN MAKE WISER AND BETTER CHOICES THAN YOU.
Just because you r older, doesn't give u the DAMN RIGHT to comment on me.
And what r ur comments? "You f-ing stupid leh, you very annoying leh, walao why you liddat one?"
SHUT THE HELL UP MAN WHO YOU THINK YOU ARE? I am still a human no matter what, I dont care if anyone is older than me, if u dont respect me I FIND NO REASON TO RESPECT YOU.
Each time u insulted me I WILL REMEMBER it.
and I swear I WILL CREATE TROUBLE FOR YOU IN THE FUTURE. Better watch your f-ing mouth before I go to the extreme and end everything for you.
And by the time u read this I bet u'll be showing off ur hokkien vulgarities all the way and come sms me scold me.
YA BUT THATS PROBABLY THE ONLY THING U CAN DO, never use logic always scold the F word.
Whatever, life's too short to talk to failures.
go reflect on yourself pls. Horrible horrible person.

Aiya, not our lvl de la so relax la dont guess who, not important de,
AND THE PERSON IS NOT MY PREVIOUS BF OR MY CURRENT BF OR ANYTHING LIKE THIS NO NO NO NO NO lol, that will make me seem like bloody A.A and despo NONONONO LOL impossible zzz.
I'm really doing this out of risk of being killed and for fun purposes cuz im obviously in a bad mood and i was bored and i think that he shud be taught a lesson since his parents dont seem to teach him the right values :D
Only important to him la, but i doubt he will ever reflect and understand so why bother?
I'm obviously just irritating him and making him angry,
who knows the next day he's gonna take a knife and kill me?
I'm like f-ing serious la, he's so bad tempered and violent, I WORRY FOR MY LIFE MAN.

Sian. WHY MUST I TALK ABT HIM AH omg now i so pissed LOL.
Ok some happy stuffs :D SUPERJUNIOR M CAME OUT A NEW SONG CALLED SUPER GIRL!!!
:D BLOODY NICE AHWEEE~~~~~~
For thos living under the rocks -.- superjunior M is a sub group made up of Han kyung (ldr), siwon, ryeowook, kyunhyun, donghae and 2 non-super junior members. They sing chinese songs and focused on china market.
The song listen at first quite sian and repetitive, but as you hear it more frequently you'll begin to love it LIKE ME :DD :D :D :D
Oh here's the video :D

I THINK kyunhyun is SO SO SO SO GORGEOUS AND HANDSOME IN THIS VIDEO, short hairstyles ROCKS for him ok.
siwon just looks so much older. hais.
Han kyung is quite handsome for china guys :D
And that chio girl you see in the video is SNSD's jessica, shes really very beautiful and hot in the video hahas.
OH LET'S ALL BECOME ANTI-KANYEWEST :D
he's screwed up, i think his company should just sack him cuz no one would buy his music.
For those living under the rocks AGAIN -.-
Taylor swift, which by far i Think shes a great singer and songwriter, received the award for best femalde video at the VMA awards :D HOORAY.
and then, this black guy called K.Ww went up to the stage, stole her mic, and told the whole damn world that beyonce shud receive the award, which is like WTF-ARE-YOU-OUT-Of-YOUR-MIND kind of thing.
Then in the end, beyonce got video of the year which is like :O LOL.
So what K.W was like, only caused disadvantages cuz beyonce is not even touched or anything.
Wah damn screwed up man this guy. He's so notorious I seriously think 1000 apologies wouldn't be enough.
So just pack home and leave :D
WEEE.

HIATUS TILL END OF EOYs BYEBYE :D

2009-09-02T18:32:00.000+08:00

LOL blog revamped.
I kinda like it actually. Sweet n simple, image-free,
ah well, only have images of ME and ME FRIENDS :D
Hais, I'm like failing in almost every single f-ing thing.
My bio is like WTF? Is bloody lousy until I cannot believe it.
Sian la. Life always sucks as usual. Work so bloody hard den in the end you get nothing.
The Ls rocks lor. Louis, Lindy, all zai kia one.
Hais. Maybe my english name should start with L (yes i'm allowed to make one myself AHAHA :D)
LOL.

Hais I bored until buitahan. Ok la, I have alot of things, but seriously no mood.
WTH have i done wrong. Sian sian sian.

What comfort food am I?

You Are Apple Pie

When you're stressed out, you crave the company of those you love.
Your comfort food is likely to be something you cook and share with others.

In fact, stress often causes you to cook like crazy... even when you're not hungry.
Taking care of people often wears you down, but it's also the thing that energizes you.

LOLS cool. Okay here's another one :D

What flavour pocky am I?

You Are Flan Pocky

Your attitude: modern and offbeat
You are East meets West. Sweet meets salty.
You are fond of contradictions. You are a contradiction.
You're a pro at bringing unusual combos together!

Can someone tell me WTS is flan -.-?

okok last one :D

What flavour icecream am I?

You Are Vanilla Ice Cream

Your personality is anything but "vanilla"
You're a risk taker, who's up for anything new.
You go well with anyone and fit into any situation.

You are most compatible with rocky road ice cream

Ok I'm obviously hungry la. Go eat dinner liao :D BYEBYE!

2009-08-23T22:37:00.000+08:00

If there is something I've been longing to tell you...it'll be,

I'm sorry for not voicing out my honest opinions.
I'm sorry for not appreciating ur efforts.
I'm sorry for not understanding you enough.
I'm sorry for not being able to be someone you can rely on.
I'm sorry for not caring you enough.
I'm sorry for neglecting your feelings.
I'm sorry for not being true to myself and to you.

I'm sorry for being able to make you happy.

If i could rewrite my past, there would be so many incidents and happenings in which I can change for the better.
But because I couldn't, sorry is the only word I can say.

I envy those who have the ability to make people laugh and smile...because it's such a precious and wonderful gift...
but I don't think I have it, and it's probably my biggest regret...
I'm sorry to all my loved ones...for not having this ability. Please forgive me.

Even thought it seems like our lives never change, the slowly do. And just like how we never notice, the changing of the seasons...the same goes for our hearts.

If only there is such thing as eternity.

2009-08-21T23:42:00.000+08:00

Ah. What a day. Just ate with 3D at east coast steamboat to celebrate mandy's bday :D
AHAHAHAHAHA super super super fun fun fun fun fun :D
The icecream there is like, surprisingly delicious, n me and yanyan kope alot :D
den what happen ah. Aiya just keep eating non-stop you mei you...
The bills is like sibei WTH. $17.30 leh, 10% service charge zzz, like THEY GIVE SIMI SERVICE LOL.
Den one can of green tea = $1.80 -.- is like so WTFFFFFFF.
Money gone liao lor. Xin xin ku ku save like siao all gone liao lor lol.
But anyway, at least i ate lotsa food and icecream :D
Hais, I can't express how much I love 3D :D
Though I not very significant char but i still think its really dam fun and dam bonded class ahaha :D
MORE 3D outings pls pls pls!!! ahahaha.

Sian what did I want to blog about -.-?
Right, I got no pictures so cannot post anything ahaha.
I reached home at like, 11.15 pm STILL IN MY UNIFORM.
LOL WTH WTH WTH. Then took a shower and gonna die now, seriously dammmm tired.
Sian I super super super scaredddd of EOY.
Every subject has like a dammmmmn big number of subjects to study. damn sai.
Then the school keep on giving us tests which is what we are currently focusing on zzz.
Wan us study den STOP GIVING US TESTS LA ALAMAK.

Aiya dunno what to blog, today dam fun jiu shi la :D
3D`09 is LOVED :D

2009-08-10T12:44:00.000+08:00

I'm still sick, and this feeling is terrible to the max.
I wonder how this throat infection plague is going to attack me -.- So far the sickness I've been getting this year is all thanks to this ONE PROBLEM - THROAT INFECTION OMG.
It's really horrible terrible horrible terrible disgusting terrifying horrifying blah blah blah...
First you wake up with a SIBEI PAIN de sore throat,
Then as you stay in class and listen to teachers blabber YOUR HEAD STARTS TO FEEL OOZY and DIZZY,
Then you started telling your friends you think you might get a fever,
Then you pop the thermometer in your mouth,
and it reads 37.5,
And you have to call your dentist to cancel the appointment,
Then when you finally get home and rest,
the fever shot up to 38.5
And when you walk to see the doctor,
You have to bend everyone 1 min cause the headache is gonna make you faint,
And then you complain at the clinic BECAUSE EVERYONE TOOK SO BLOODY LONG IN THE ROOM, like 25 mins per person, dammmmmnnnn irritating I tell you, really bloody pissed.
And when you only took like, 10 mins,
You walk out and stare at those people, as if asking them "WHY CAN'T YOU BE LIKE ME?"
And the weird thing is, they look fine to me, no coughing no headache NO NOTHING.
ARGH!

Ok la, now just minor coughing, should recover by tmr ahaha.
Oh, ytd's NDP was WEIRDLY short, as in really super damn damn short,
I still wanted to sing more den it suddenly said BYEBYE -.-
Den my dad sms-ed me saying "Financial crisis la, no money to make a longer NDP"
Then I was like TRUE lol. It's quite unique leh, this year's one, I wonder who the director lol.
Although I feel that the puppet statue, esp the sang nila utama one, is really very....UGLY.
Ok I'm sorry, I know I cannot do I nicer one or so, but really abit too -.- wad.
Anyways I still enjoyed it ahaha :D

Ohohohoh, I recently joined a faction in granado espada, faction is something like a guild ahaha,
Because I felt bloody boring when I playing G.E without a single friend, very very sian I tell you.
Ok la, faction people quite nice. Only like, 4 people willing to talk -.- which is damn diao la.
But I've made very very good friends :D
Got one raffles girls sec4 playing leh, ok la i dunno if she's REALLY from raffles girls -.-
But I don't think she likes me LOL, cuz I zi high alottttttttt in G.E ahaha :D
Then when NDP start I was like screaming to everyone to be patriotic and WATCH NDP AND SAY THE PLEDGE AT 8.22pm!!
Everyone dao, as usual -.- suan le.
Sian sian sian, gonna play keyboard liao. byebye.

2009-08-06T13:08:00.000+08:00

You must be kidding me lah omg -.-
Ok now its 1.08 pm and I know that I'm crazy to be BLOGGING now when im supposed to be IN SCHOOL.
I didnt go this morning cuz when i woke up I FELT LIKE DYING.
yeah, i got throat infection and fever of a god damn 38.??? when I went to see the doctor two days ago.
DEN I TOT AFTER RECESS CAN COME RIGHT???!!!
den when I go to school...
THEY SEND ME BACK HOME OMFGG!!!!

WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!
no.1) OMG SUPER SUPER PAISEH
no.2) OMG WASTE MY TIME COME
no.3) OMG MR.YOW AND MR.TANMENGTONG (DUNNO HOW TO SPELL) GONNA TALK TO MEE
wth -.-
the ppl in the G.O was like saying "YOU'RE LATE YOU'RE LATE!"
and im like "NOOOOOOO I'M SICK. in the MORNING"
anyways they still counted me somewhat late -.-
they say got school rule say after 8 am cannot come school liao or else immediately send back,
den i was like "O.O HUH?!!!"
ok I wouldnt say anyone's name here in case I sabo-ed them,
but how do ***** and **** come to school -.-?
One come in the middle of class,
den one is everytime after school come for CCA,
is SERIOUSLY I DONT EVEN KNOW GOT THIS RULE BECUZ EVERYONE AROUND ME IS DOING THE SAME THING!!!!
den dey send me back. zai lor.

aiya as in I don't really care too much about them sending me back but its like, abit wtf.
it is quite a SERIOUS offence leh. as in they recorded my name so many BLOODY MILLION TIMES.
den they wan call my ahma (before that wan call my parents, but i pwned them XD)
den they wan call mr.yow to come down -.- WTFFFFF
at first they say need ask dr.boon and ms.cheong to talk to me -.- WHICH IS LIKE, OMFG WTH WHERE GOT SO SERIOUS ONE ZZZ
den HENG AH, somehow they jus not there, so call year head, which is mr.yow zzz
DEN MR.YOW OSO DUNNO WHERE :D SO CALL MRS YIP AHAHA.
ok la, i was still quite scared and blur diao. like, HUH??? really need make it so serious meh -.- i don't get it leh.
anyway I think the G.O know my name liao la -.- I did so many things liao, they confirm blacklist me ZZZZ WTH.
then they insist that I WASN'T FEELING WELL IN THE MORNING BECUZ I SLEPT LATE YTD NIGHT.
10 pm. 10 PM LEH.
then they say i lying o.o
WTFFFF???!!!!!
omg -.- bui ta han bui ta han.
I know i usually sleep 3 am and stuff, but ytd I 100% confirm GUARANTEE PLUS CHOP 10 PM
aiya sui bian la, I NEVER sleep at all. best.

Now still abit stun tio. but nvm la.
slack at home lor. aheehee.
just ppl, next time dont follow my steps can le.
sian sian sian. tmr two high authority people gonna talk to me. die die die.
why doesnt ANYONE believe I'm a super super guai girl who is very obedient. X)
sian. now handphone oso cannot sms cannot call cuz starhub CUT MY LINE.
cuz i never pay bills for 4 or 5 months le LOLLSS!!
is abit WTH la -.- its under my dad's name den he never tell me anything, they sent bill letters my sis also didnt give it to me.
.......life sucks.
seriously.

2009-08-02T22:09:00.000+08:00

Hello people, its pictures time -.- AND IM REALLY LAZY TO REARRANGE IT, SO WHATEVER LAH OK. ahaha.

Pic 4-8 = small snack at tampines mac wif zhensheng and reynold :D

NDP rehearsal at hall, ALTO+TENORS AHWEE :D say cheese :D

MY HOUSE DOWNSTAIRS GOT BOTAK JONES AHAHAHA!!!!

LOUIS LA! -.- broke 2 chairs thanks to excessive rocking.

Zhensheng and reynold argueing (they pretending to be a broken-up couple)

Zhensheng being a lame zhensheng.

Reynold. Blurred reynold -.- (COMM KEEP QUIET!!)

Zhensheng. blurred zhensheng.

STUPID ZHENSHENG LOL, SO THIRSTY UNTIL SPAMMED 8 CUPS OF WATER AHAHA :D

This is terence.

And this is what he did. After a while, the whole block came off actually. Laughed like no mother, seriously -.-

Making french toasts at home: SOAKING BREAD IN EGGS :D

EH MY FRENCH TOASTS SO CHIO AHAHAHA :D its delicious ok!!!

Failed: Spammed indicator and acid. It's bloody red. Literally.

TITRATION. Sian. Have to change this chio pink colour into grey ahaha =(

THIS HOTDOG IS ONLY FOR LIKE, $1.00 (I THINK) IN IKEA AND ITS DAMN NICE.

2009-08-01T02:36:00.000+08:00

It's like 2.38 am now, and I'm not even like, sleepy.
Ok maybe a little fatigue -.- but ah oh well.

Today's a long, tiring, pissing off day in morning and night.
Actually I don't even remember what I was gonna post? -.- lol
Other than this year's NDP song sucks to the max and it was horrible terrible and so not-patriotic.
I hope thats like, the bare minimum NDP songs will reach -.- or else... LOL.

like, you know MY ISLAND HOME and WE WILL GET THERE is so nice -.-? and then comes this "WHAT DO YOU SEE?" -.- omg la.
Anyways, did anyone watched Mr.Brown's parody of WHAT DO YOU SEE?? XD
It's super funny and hilarious LOLSSSSSSS :D :D
cuz he renamed the song as " LE KUA SIMI"
den the album title was like " LIDDAT ALSO CALL SONG"
super super funny.

Ok I gotta wake up like, 6.30 am tmr.
I must be out of my mind.

2009-07-27T16:46:00.000+08:00

The following article is just for my own personal interest and curiosity. I have no intention of kp-ing anyone and is merely just for more general knowledge. :) NO ACCUSATIONS, ASSUMPTIONS OR POINTING OF FINGERS. TY and ENJOY!

Depression or mental stress is a psyche condition that inhibits personal happiness and productivity during pregnancy. Even during pregnancy, many women who have had depression may be continuing antidepressants to prevent symptoms. However the first trimester (12 weeks) of pregnancy is a crucial time when medication can cause malformations of the fetus. So experts may advice discontinuing medications over this period unless a woman has had multiple episodes of severe stress and depression. After three months, there is not the concern about medication causing malformation of organs. However, there are still questions about whether medication might cause a miscarriage or subtle changes in the early development of the future child.
Following are some of common symptoms that indicate 'Emotional Imbalance' during pregnancy:

	Persistent longings.(aww)
	Unreasonable longing desires.
	Delusions or hallucinations.
	Noticeably depressed mood however if this depression persists without any interval between subsequent periods then it is more likely that she has another kind of mood problem.(ahh, who knows)
	Blank depression.
	Irritability.
	Get depressed over trivial issues.(such as a skirt)
	Sadness.
	Aversion.
	Disgust or gross feeling.
	Fear of miscarriage.
	Resentful behavior.(VERY resentful)
	Swinging moods.
	Marked anxiety
	Feeling tensed.
	Feeling twitchy.
	Marked shifts in mood (suddenly tearful, overly sensitive)(TRUE)
	Persistent, marked anger or irritability, increased conflicts.
	Loss of interest in usual activities (e.g., work, hobbies)(only interested catching and scolding)
	Difficulty concentrating and focusing attention
	Marked lack of energy, feeling very easily exhausted.
	Noticeable change in appetite, overeating, food cravings or aversion to food.(only interested catching and scolding)
	Sleeping too much or having a hard time sleeping.(whole day practicing how to scold) Aiya! no wonder she so bushuang la, ok la forgive her la, got baby mah, bo pian ma :) For correcting "emotional imbalance" we offer personalized consultation. Through this online consultation, we thoroughly analyze your overall nature, your general attitude towards life with the help of our specially-designed simple online survey and then recommend a proprietary plan of Bach flower essences -a course of natural homeopathic remedies- customized to your unique health needs. This prescription-like essence plan consists of a list of selective Bach remedies (-available worldwide) along with their efficacious combinations, especially tailored to your unique personality. We send you this simple course via email. This consultation program is specially developed and designed for Internet users! It contains a list of personalized essences, recommended efficacious combinations, dosage schedule and some simple norms along with basic instructions, suggestions, guidelines and expertise; means everything that you need to know to get started, run and maintain the essence program. This novel concept is highly acclaimed by our worldwide clients. I think we should promote this in to the whole Singapore, especially in SCHOOLS to help those who are pregnant cope with emotional stress they might face and this may actually help them out in their attitude towards the school, work and STUDENTS :)

2009-07-26T07:20:00.000+08:00

Is there no one who believes me?

Is there no one who trusts me?

Why is everyone doubting me?

I just wanted to be treated with the same respect as anyone else.

I'm reaching my limit. I can't do this anymore.

2009-07-23T15:18:00.001+08:00

This school is encouraging me to become a rebellious teenager. Hooray.

Just a few more assumptions, accusations and scolding from them and I will become a full-fledged rebellion.

Quite impossible la. maybe half-fledged hahas.

They like to assume things alot, without knowing the real truth.

Ok why am i so pissed, i got caught by cwy. ah u all probably know who I'm talking abt.
SO if any teachers happen to read this, you all shall not accuse me of anything BECAUSE I DIDN'T SPEAK ANYTHING. You all have NO PROOF. HA.
and y m i caught? my skirt is too short and i folded my sleeves. typical.

Then she demanded my class la, my name la, and i said i didn't have money to buy a new skirt and she was like "U UNDER FINANCIAL ASSISTANCE AH?"
Do i need to be under financial assistance to not have any money? Stupid logic.
My grandma takes care of me and I don't like asking her for money.
Do you have any idea how i feel each time i took money from her?
So yeah, I'm not under any financial assistance but as long as the skirt is wearable I will wear it till the day I die.
If you don't know my family problems, stfu. And don't even think of using my parents as a threaten.
Using them to threaten students is like treating them like a piece of shyt and saying that u will force it down their throats if they don't obey.

No.1) They are not in singapore. I strongly advise anyone to call them, like GO AHEAD. (i'm not challenging anyone or any teacher ah, dont anyhow assume and accuse), cause it will make your phone bill bao. And yeah no, they will not call you, because no point wasting their hard-earned money to hear a dog barking. (once again, im not pointing any fingers, no assumptions ty)

No.2) As long as it doesn't concerns my future, they wont care. They are not like typical parents who only wants to curry flavour with teachers for the sake of good reputation blah blah blah. It's not gonna work.

No.3) They will own you in whatever argument, i 100% guarantee + chop, dont bother competing, esp those who have lousy languages and cannot speak fluently.

No.4) They've been letting me live on my own for 12 years and trusted me in taking care of myself. And did I turn rebellious in these 12 years? NOT A SINGLE RECORD. So it somehow proves a little that I'm still a FENGGONGSHOUFA de HAOGONGMIN and HAOXUESHENG. ASSUMING that I'm a bad kid from my looks and blacklisting me from one min of communication, I feel retarded that people (not accusing anyone ah, dont anyhow assume) wants to use it to blackmail me. VSing against 12 years of foundation, very smart.

No.5) I take charge of the house. Fine, maybe it seemed as though my grandma is ruling it but the truth is, this responsibility also lies in my hands. We both are working hand in hand, like things can only be operated if both of us agree. If one of us disagree, its not gonna work. So when I say that I don't care, she will not care also.

Assuming things. They always like to assume people.
Because I looked messy and unkempt while other guai ppl's hair are all pushed back with long skirts and long socks. Wah, i become bad person lor.
Do you know that in the working world, ppl with fully pushed back hair with long skirts and long socks look like an idiot?
Just by looks, they assume that one is a bad person.
Just by classes, they think some students are stupid and have no hope.
Just by one post on the acp, they can immediately conclude my characteristics.
ZAI, SUPER ZAI. *claps claps*
and I didn't say who the "THEY" are so NO ASSUMPTIONS.
and why do i keep repeating NO ASSUMPTIONS?
BECAUSE THAT'S WHAT THEY DO BEST RIGHT?!! KEEP ASSUMING. corrupted.
ASSUME ASSUME ASSUME. I'M FRIGGIN TIRED OF IT.

You dont know ANYTHING abt the students or me.
So why assume?
I swear, if you had TRUSTED me that I'll change my skirt and not threaten me by saying that you'll tell my teacher, I would have changed and ur impression on me will be good.
But because i looked quite sai on that day, tucked out shirt messy hair and you assumed,
You come and kp me. (didnt say wad kp means, DONT ASSUME AH)
You know why there are rebellious students? because of situations like this, ppl dont trust them.
The more you threaten me, the more i wanted to rebel. That's the feeling I got today.
But I'm not gonna change YET, because I think i still can tahan. but not for long.
Just a few more, and I'm gonna explode.
I know who I am and pls dont think im a f-ing immature kid who doesn't know responsibility. (I'm not saying anyone ah, DONT ASSUME OR ACCUSE TY)
I know very well when I'm wrong and right or if I'm changing or not. Better than anyone else.
Typical law-by-law singaporeans, yawns.

Ah. end of blabbering. For ultra-sensitive people, please dont assume or accuse me of anything AND COME FIND ME AND TALK TO ME OR WHATSOEVER, I DONT LIKE DOING THESE KINDS OF STUFFS. I KNOW WHAT I AM DOING. as you can see it urself, I've made every precaution not to get myself in trouble. No room for pointing fingers, HA.

2009-07-22T23:11:00.000+08:00

TRUST.

What the hell do you know about it?

What exactly is trust to u?

In P5 i think, I was quite self-conscious.
So when any teachers had bad impression of me, I was quite upset.
Because I know I'm not whatever they though I was and I'm definitely better than that.
But hey, which child likes to be misunderstood and wrongly accused?
and LAST YEAR, I just got enough KP-ed by my own form teacher.
the fact that the welfare has to stay back for noticeboard competitions even though theres a common test tmr,
and the fact that the teacher is not helping in assigning ppl to help. No, i'm not nagging about PEOPLE NOT HELPING OUT like I KNOW YOU ALL R CONCERN ABT TEST so PLEASE STOP SAYING THAT I M UPSET THAT PPL DIDNT HELP AT ALL AND STFU BEFORE I LASH AT U. since when the f did i ever say that? NO PROOF THEN KEEP QUIET! At least WE DID OUR JOB. and thats what truly matters.
I rmbered, cuz we won the noticeboard competition we had a free packet of weird choco sticks, den after psycho-ing everyone in the class to get one, I left it on the teacher's table for my teacher to indulge the rest of it.
Ah. She come in, ask "who put this packet here?" then I raised my hand la. Den she ask "why never eat finish" den im like "teacher, the rest are for you to eat"
Guess what she said.
"WAH, NEVER REMOVE IT AWAY, STILL ASK ME HELP YOU EAT THE REST?"
and the great thing was that THIS CONVERSATION WAS IN CHINESE :D
NB. KNN.*(I didnt say what that means, so pls dont accuse ty ^.^)

Hais.
It's so hard living ur life to please other people. People who don't trust you.
Which is precisely the reason why I'm gonna stop pleasing other people liao.
There are enough "i-dont-trust-anyone" ppl in the world. Why don't people start trusting one another?
To me, To be trusted is a greater compliment than to be loved.
The glue that holds all relationships together - including the relationship between; the leader and the led is trust.
So ytd, I called my mom or my mom called me (OMFG I MISS MY FAMILY), I was like, "妈妈, 有老师不喜欢我啊"
Den my mom was like "啊，那你伤心吗?"
If i was still my old-self, I'll be like YES I AM, but I replied...
"哎呀, 谁管她。去她妈的。她不喜欢就不喜欢，对我没什么影响."
I feel so good saying it. ahaha :D and the best thing was that my mom supported me and said,
对! 就是要有这种态度! 她要说就让她说吧! 管她喜不喜欢.'

Usually mothers would like their child to become teacher's pets because they wanna curry flavour with them to enable their child to get into whatever school they want.
But that fact it, i rather be disliked and have bad reputation because I stood up for something I was wrongly accused of than to be liked because I'm being a teacher's pet.
U know what? people who already has a definite impression of you in their minds JUST from a few experiences with you are immature to me.
It's sad because there was no trust. It takes a long time to understand someone.
How can one just judge based on a few pessimistic moments?
Don't TALK TO ME ABOUT FIRST IMPRESSION. If first impression is so important, why bother thinking abt the future? SO WHAT if one has a good first impression when in the future that person is gonna SUCK anyway? So ironic.
What I think is the most attractive part of my mother is her headstrong attitude.
And I think more people should be like her instead of bowing their heads to so called the higher authority people.

Pls do not misunderstand, im not stereotyping.
I can name some fine and wonderful teachers and name some "teachers".
And recently, I posted a new inquiry into "YOUR VOICE MATTERS".
As what all the students say, your voice matters is never gonna matter abt ur voices.
And face it, all the students in every school has something to complain about their school.
And they usually wouldn't like it in their first 3 years.
ITS A GENERAL THING, SO I DONT SEE THE REASON WHY ADULTS ARE REPROACHING TO US ABT HOW GOOD THE SCHOOL IS AND HOW WE MUST TREASURE IT.
ITS NOT THAT WE DONT KNOW. ITS JUST A MATTER OF TIME.
and when we are sec4 and realising our demise, we WILL UNDERSTAND and DEVELOP FEELINGS.
YOU DARE SAY YOU DIDNT COMPLAIN ABT UR SCHOOL WHEN U WERE YOUNG?!
no right? SO WHATS THE PROB. juvenile delinquency. FACE IT omg.

And the inquiry i posted was abt "WHY STUDENTS ARE NOT ALLOWED TO WEAR SLIPPERS IN SCHOOL"
and I dunno why r people STILL MAKING A FUSS OUT OF IT. OMG JUST FORGET IT, ITS ALREADY SETTLED.
I'M DOING A GOOD DEED BY ADDRESSING ABT SOMETHING THE ENTIRE STUDENT BODY WANTS TO ADDRESS. WHAT IS UR PROB, SCHOOL?!!
I DIDNT DO ANYTHING WRONG. IN FACT I THINK I'VE DONE A GODDAMN RIGHT THING. IM PROUD OF IT.
Mr.yeow is kind enough to explain it to me in msn. SO MEANS ITS SETTLED.
SO I DONT WAN TO HEAR ANYTHING ABT IT. because im not gonna say i was extra or made a mistake. dont even think of me saying such stuffs. i wont. im not such a retard.
it is not our responsibility to know and understand abt the world ur living in.
but it is URS to guide us along and help us understand and fit in into society.
But what makes someone more inspiring than the others is that they emphasized on the importance trust and understanding of children and retaining the innocence ANY HUMAN HAS ONCE THEY CAME OUT FROM THEIR MOTHER'S WOMB.

Its not our fault that we have lost your trust,
but Its yours for not trusting us,
its YOUR loss, not ours.

2009-07-15T23:15:00.001+08:00

ZZZ actually i was like writing one whole essay abt teachers and stuff, but then its abit wrong LOL so i deleted the whole thing.

My new emaths teacher dont like me and kp me lol.
Got another teacher i think also starting to kp me and is angry i think o.o

Not like i do care alot, but it just doesnt feel good when teachers kp u -.-
like u keep kena scolded den u oso buaysong one right?

but seriously, now i kinda dont care whatever they think abt me LOL
cuz i know what im capable of and i will prove it -.-
it just so happens that at that few moments of blunderness.
at least other teachers who r closer to me knows the real me ahaha.
THATS WHY I THINK TEACHERS AND STUDENTS SHUD HAVE ABIT OF FRIENDSHIP MA.
then the nus high professor was like "I dont like students when they try to be informal to me and dont use proper english"
i think is the THE ARENA that gay guy la,
like, WHATEVER LA, nus big ah -.-
at least the teachers n students in other school will have a piece of memory of each other and a friendship that he will never ever have.
why must we be so freaking formal?
as in i do understand there has to be a certain degree of respect,
but must we be so formal like, when chatting in msn or talking in school?
Man, i pity these kind of ppl de children. Confirm will feel lonely one lor.
Ok la, ahs de teachers quite nice la, can scream HI CHER and they wont mind :)

sian, now i dont like NUS lor after hearing what that professor say.
like, he doesnt wan to be close to his students.
how to be approachable if he's like this -.-?
Like i WONT find a teacher for help if he/she is not approachable,
i will just find another one that is more openly and outgoing.
sian. growing into adulthood is such a saddening stage.
u lose all the vibe and energy and youthfulness u once had.
PETER PAN SYNDROME WEE :D
i hope no one will become like that nus high professor, must be a respectable and friendly and patient and caring adult ok XD?

2009-07-05T23:30:00.000+08:00

People always mistaken sadness to be a form of anger...
CANT Y'ALL GET IT IN UR HEAD THAT ITS BOTH FORM???
How to say ah, I'm already HURT by her/his actions, and he/she is now telling people that I AM ANGRY WITH HER/HIM -.-
Doesn't this like, deepens the hurt?
It's interesting to see how incomprehensive and unsensitive (screw my language) people sometimes can be.
And how hurt one can become.
I am THROUGH with it -.- seriously, its not worth my time and effort.

Ok HERE ARE PICS AND PHOTOS :D of AHSChoir concert and our performance at the SYF CHORAL PRESENTATION :D :D.
Performance at world choral festival was...slightly better...
at least it's a step forward than deproving :) I'm glad.

Pic 1 - 8: ESPLANADE AHSCHOIR CONCERT :D
Pic 9 - 10: SUPPER AT SIMPANG :D
Pic 11 - 26: SYF CHORAL PRESENTATION :D

A sea of blue :D

Eugenia's wallet SPARKLES under the light ok o.o

I LOVE YOU REBECCA :D THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR SUPPORTING T.T

HI KEITH :D smileysss XD

THEY CAME T.T I'm super super super touched ahaha :D stupid sam purposely bend down to accomodate to my height -.-

LOUIS SHORTEST :D

LOLS :D Louis trying to look tall and wang+sam kena strangled @.@

My dear sis danica wif me :D

HI ZHENSHENG :D crazy boi ahaha

HI JESSE :D you look dead o.o

Kunmei mei :D:D:D

Charis, our ever-pro makeup artist :D

JOYCEEE :D we took like 3 photos :o!

Shijiaaa :DD :D D:D

Sec3 batch female singerellas :D

Emmaus's hair - stylo milo sia o.o

niania :D this pic is glam de ok ahaha :D

me n reynold :D (ex-co keep quiet hor -.-)

TWO AHSCHOIR PRES :D (with one monster called rachkoh behind -.-)

Dwayne is being LAME o.o

general situation - crowded, stuffy, sweaty, u get it -.-

FEDORA KEEPS MOVING ARND :D pic is BLURRED o.o

ying-rach-fedora-eugenia LOLSSS :D u guys r funnayeee~~

Christopher shouted at me when I took this photo ._.

TINGWEIII :D :D :D D:D HIHIHIHI XD

Eugenia being funnaye and unglammmmmm o.o

Read the second competitor's name from hongkong ._.

for a moment, I thought I saw my name and got a friggin shock of my life ZZZZ -.-
MY FULL NAME WAS ALMOST THERE o.o just 3 letters difference omg =.=
KONG MAN YI LOLSSS. this is damn cool ok XD
ahh people, if you see ur faces up there, pls dont scold me -.-
I put pics that showed both glam and unglam wise, including myself, so yeah,
but my aim is to show everyone that we're a happy and united choir :D

LONG LIVE AHSCHOIR MUAHAHA :D I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!
boowahlamokong!!!!

2009-07-03T00:57:00.000+08:00

2 Days ago, it was AHSchoir concert.
I will put pictures another day I promised.
Preparing this concert and fulfilling my jobscope, was tough and painful.
But, I'm happy to do so, and I'm willing to do anything for AHSchoir.
Because I know, it's the only family that will never ever forsake or abandon me. Never.

The concert. Ah. Painful but yet memorable.
I would say that this concert is single-handedly (screw the spelling) done by committee 09-10.
Yes, honestly, I do feel angry and sad for some seniors who didnt join us.
And for those who didnt even watch us,
I dunno what to say. Yes I'll rmb u guys definitely, but ur not part of this memory for the concert. No, ur definitely out. Because u guys dont deserve to be in it, simple.
No, I'm not violating anything, its the plain truth. Face the music.
The reason the comm is working so hard, partly because that we want you guys to end ur journey in AHSChoir on a high note.
It would be a beautiful piece of memory, belonged to you guys forever.
Still...ah forget it u know? FORGET IT.
For those who still spared time to practice with us, Thank you all so much.
Especially YingTing and Godwin (never expected myself to say this -.-)

YingTing, u've willingly gave up ur time and energy just to help Eugenia and Hilary with altos, and without you, altos might've crashed. Despite having O levels soon, you still sacrificed everything for us. Thank you so much, ur one of my most respected seniors of all.
Godwin same for you, but its WEIRD saying it so im NOT GONNA SAY IT, its similar with what I said about Yingting. You know, you can say anything about him but one thing you cannot doubt is that he actually cares about AHSchoir. Ah, what can i say? Its godwin -.-

After the concert, which I know it wasn't our best but I naively thought it was still relatively alright,
I went around zi-highing, almost-crying and hugging almost every damned human there,
until Mr.Toh told us that it wasn't good and its quite a badly done concert.
Every song went out of tune.
Ok, the audience doesn't know anything -.-
But I believe its not something we should take for granted.

I'm really guilty and sorry for not realising the harsh fact, I really am
but EVERYBODY. shall LEARN from this. Be a true musician.
What is a musician, truly?
Someone who strives for excellance. Someone who always tries to connect with the music. Someone who will find ways to improve oneself.
By excellance, I do not mean perfection.
As long as you put in ur best, you DID stay focus, and you DID revise your scores well,
Then I do respect you as a musician.
But if you didnt?
Did you revise your scores well to make sure you understand everything?
Did you record what Mr.Toh taught to remember it well?
Did you emphasis on dynamics, tone, and improve your singing?
INITIATIVE. Where is it?

It takes time to truly understand, and I know that, but even paying abit of attention during practices a little too much to ask for? REFLECT.
But honestly, I have little regrets for this concert. Or maybe even none.
Because I gave in all my best, I swore that I WAS focused and I tried. Really hard. Though the outcome wasn't good, this is just SO much i can do. Because if history were to repeat itself, everything of me would still be the same. OK maybe some will disagree but, this is what I've done. 200%.

Me myself, as P.O and as a comm member,
This concert being my first test,
I think for publicizing and ticketing stuffs I've reached the bare minimum expections from everyone, and thank you for all the comments, I will definitely improve myself to be a better P.O.

But discipline wise, I'm sorry that sometimes the word FOCUS and FIRM slipped my mind and I just zi-high alot. But, I CAN and WILL be more focused and firm in the choir and I hope everyone will show me basic respect as a comm member, I'll prove to you that I'm worthy of the position :)
For alto, our section is one of the most disciplined in choir and I'm very proud of you :)
Though musicality wise, we have faltered abit but, you'll improve. Its not a will, its a NEED.
And I'll be with you guys, through thick and thin :) Ah. I've lost and gained trust in so many people through preparing this concert.
I've bonded much with the comm members and the choir itself, and I'm realising that I trust more people now.
It feels good to have such a family always with you :)

But it sucks to know that I've lost trust in some of my friends.
I just wanted you guys to share my moment with me and enjoy our songs which we worked so hard for all of you.
I'm not forcing you guys to come. Begging? maybe abit. I sponsored some money for 5 ppl.
But a few people disappointed me. Alot.
Many people didnt came because their friends didnt come -.- typical reasons. I understand, if i were you i'd consider.
But still, I'm sad la. Ya frankly I'm sad. Really sad. Cause I've got lots of thoughts on my mind, like maybe u would like whatever song, what seats to give you guys blah blah.
And the bubble just burst. Yes I was depressed.
A few lied to me. Abit stupid LOL, like, its so obvious you're lying to me and I can see that -.-
But whatever la. You lied cuz of the previous reasons which I'm not gonna care.

Ya, but something hurt me like no mother.
It's so f-ing painful and hurtful.
Can you imagine friends who've you've known only for half a year can actually be more 'loyal' than friends for 3 yrs?
LOYAL sounds wrong but theres no other words so SCREW IT.
When you said "don't feel like going", do you have any idea how much you've hurt me?
When you actually PROMISED me in the first place?
It's so wtf. I'm f-ing hurt to the core.
I wan to share my moment with people whom I loved. It's only one damn hour. Is it too hard?
I feel betrayed. Seriously.
I've lost trust and respect from you, and I'm very emo. What are friends for?
I would do ANYTHING for you. Would you do the same for me?
Even just coming for one f-ing concert. You wouldn't.
I wanted to say "So forget about me coming to whatever performances ur gonna have."
But because ur my good friend, so I'm pretty sure I'll support you if u have any.
But now theres a big hole in my heart. And you caused it.
Ur forever my good friend, but for now, shyt u. Because u've hurt me way too much.
U shud go reflect before u hurt someone else.

Friends forever? Yeah that's likely -.-

I love AHSChoir forever :)

2009-06-29T01:25:00.000+08:00

Have you seen my Childhood?

I'm searching for the world that I come from

'Cause I've been looking around

In the lost and found of my heart...

No one understands me

They view it as such strange eccentricities...

'Cause I keep kidding around

Like a child, but pardon me...

People say I'm not okay

'Cause I love such elementary things...

It's been my fate to compensate,

for the Childhood

I've never known...

Have you seen my Childhood?

I'm searching for that wonder in my youth

Like pirates in adventurous dreams,

Of conquest and kings on the throne...

Before you judge me,

try hard to love me,

Look within your heart then ask,

Have you seen my Childhood?

People say I'm strange that way

'Cause I love such elementary things,

It's been my fate to compensate,

for the Childhood I've never known...

Have you seen my Childhood?

I'm searching for that wonder in my youth

Like fantastical stories to share

The dreams I would dare, watch me fly...

Before you judge me, try hard to love me.

The painful youth I've had

Have you seen my Childhood...

Yes, I do miss Michael Jackson. Alot. I think other than our similar initials, we do seem to have something similar :D
We both ask - have you seen our childhood?
I guess not. Hahas.

This is the one of the deepest times in which, I truly felt desolate and cold
Lonely.

2009-06-21T00:46:00.000+08:00

I don't know who to trust. I don't know who to believe in anymore.

I may be dumb and look really retarded but...

I find it sad and disappointing to know that,

Hardly anyone would ever know what's happening to my scrwed up life.

I don't think my family deserves any of this...ridiculous problems.

I don't think any of my family member deserves to be a victim of this problem.

They've worked so f-ing hard for everything and just when everything seemed alright.

I know I can be independent. I definitely can.

I just need to find a way to remove this tugging feeling in my heart.

Of loneliness, of worrysome, of scare...

It is weird to realise how much feelings I have for the people around me. Feelings I didn't even notice before.

I just want to believe in someone. I just want to draw strength from someone.

I really want to overcome this alone. And I'm gonna try. I did it before and I can do it again.

God, please help my family. Please help me.

2009-06-17T21:18:00.000+08:00

AHAHA i promised u guys pictures eh XD?
Pic 1-3: RANDOM
Pic 4-14: 3D`09 CHALET
Pic 15: RANDOM

HEY REYNOLD o.o!!! U PRODUCED FOIL WTF o.o

YEEYING AND ME. ME AND YEEYING. WEE.

Jojo meditating o.o

3 crazy orange monkeys. All chiong to the top =.=

One blue lonely monkey o.o staring into a distance wee.

AHAHA DONT THINK SICK XD This jelly icecream IS THE BEST OK XD!!

3D`09 I LOVE YOU :D

WE LOVE MARILYN, MANJING and YEEYING :D

Cannot make star, so make triangle lor =.=

EATING YUM YUMYUM :D

Random lol. Dave is diaoded.

TAITI. BRIDGE. STRESS. BLACKJACK. YAYS.

3D`09 CHALET woots :D

Swimming pool looks shuang hor o.o AHAHA. dipped our feet inside :D

TELL YOU, this kind of BBQ fire is the most ZAI i've ever seen in my LIFE. done by my sis de bf de papa. NO ONE CAN WIN ONE. is zai until wtf lols. THE CHARCOAL'S GLOWING WITH HEAT LA, which is 1000 more hot than just wild flame. We suck man, we suck =.=

Aiya lazy tag la. go facebook can see more pic lols.

byebye :D tmr got choir wee.

2009-06-14T19:33:00.000+08:00

I woke up at 3 pm today wtf lols.
Cuz right after chalet on the next day, i got CCA zzz.
DAMN TIRED I TELL YOU, i warm up halfway going to sleep LOLSS~~~
finally get back all my lost sleep today T.T sooooo tired ahhhhh =.=
BBQ was quite fun :D the food is abit over-ordered =.= sooo much until we cant finish lols.
Den chalet throughout is just mahjong-ing and taiti-ing and stress-ing and bridge-ing and blackjack-ing and .....
frankly, it was abit sian, but still fun :D
I'M SHOCKED TO KNOW THAT I CAN DON'T SLEEP FOR THE WHOLE NIGHT LOLS.
ok la i got sleep, for 3 mins =.=
in fact, i stayed awake for 1and3/4 days :D
wahehehehehehe :D

We watched midnight movies at around 12 midnight lols,
Isaac, samuel, jacq, val, marilyn and danielle watched Ghosts of girlfriend pasts while me, keith, george, yonghong, annabella and johnlee watched DRAG ME TO HELL AHHEHEHEHEH XD!!
Louis and dave stayed in the chalet cuz they sleeping LOLS
DRAG ME TO HELL IS MORE OF A COMEDY THAN HORROR LA LOLS~~~~
was laughing throughout the whole cinema, like super wth cuz THE WOMAN KEEP VOMITING ON THAT GIRL LEH =.=
ok first time vomit i was super horrified and disgusted, den suddenly the scene keep repeating, just that the vomits changes colour =.=
and im like -.- okay. right.
then the old woman keep appear randomly and RAWR!!!
den i was like WTF LOLSSSS!!!!!
wah this scene the funniest, when the demon went into that guy who is supposed to kill the goat, (for ppl who dont understand, den go watch it)
he floated up and started dancing weirdly with that chikopek face,
SUPER FUNNY SIA, im like "WTH R U DOING LOLSSSS"
wah best sia LOLLLSSLSLSS AHAHAHAHAHHA XD

practically everyone were a little bit scared except for me and keith o.o
yes i know, GEORGE IS SCARED LOLS!!!
he keep covering his eyes with his hat and hugged valerie's lollipop toy LOLS.
then got one ah beng beside me oso DAMN SCARED lols.
LOLS EH i didnt know singaporeans so scared of ghost movies sia =.=
esp those ah lians and ah bengs, SUPPOSE TO BE VERY BRAVE ONE RIGHT? MACHO RIGHT?
wakao, go inside cinema scared like no mother liddat LOLSSS!!
At first he act cool, den when movie start, wah the little mouse inside him just came out =.=
was keep turning away from the scene and covering his eyes lols.
i was like O.O shocked =.= seriously, abit diaoded.
AHBENG MUST HAVE A LITTLE BIT OF KICK RIGHT??!!
hum like dunno wad =.= boooooo!!!!!~~~

then after chalet we went to val's house (me jacq val isaac samuel marilyn n yh)
play taiti, picking sticks (dunno whats the game called) and MONOPOLY :D
wah samuel is friggin ZAI at monopoly ok, somehow we just KEEP landing on his property and he earned alot of money =.=
den when we ally with one another, and samuel left on his own, he is MORE ZAI THAN EVER LOL.
we all lost our money to him =.= hais damn sad ahahaa.
den afterwards when everyone left, i need chiong to darren's(sister's bf) house for ANOTHER BBQ =.=
WTF I KNOW AHAHA.
his house is WOW. his room got 2 computers (imba one, everything new), one TV got aircon, got PSP and XBox.
Den we played the latest version of grand theft auto lol, M18 VERSION WAHAHA!
damn sick, got stripper club la, den can pay money to have *ahem* with the ppl there =.=
can swim in the ocean, can kill police den oso can rob police car LOL, last time de versions all dont have one lor.
very imba one, but cuz i super tired den i just slept on his bed AHAHAHA.

den we went for BBQ again with my sis and his family. seriously, their BBQ is high class one ok,
GOT STEAK GOT MUSHROOM GOT GERMAN SAUSAGE GOT VEGGIE GOT CORN GOT OLIVE OIL GOT PEPPER GOT EVERYTHING LA!!!
did i forget to tell u that he's rich o.o LOLS.
i eat until shuang you mei you XD
and his father make charcoal is the best. no one can win him one XD i dunno how he did and I DUNNO HOW TO EXPLAIN TO U BUT,
just very very pro ahaha.

IM DYING TO WATCH THE HAUNTING IN CONNECTICUT :D
it is a horror movie la, the trailer is like so-so only, den when they flash "based on a TRUE story"
im like, "OK SET, MUST WATCH LIAO"
WAHAHAHAHAH i wan see how many ahbengs will scared XD
i think i will be scared myself too =.= cuz quite frightening to know that it DID happened lols.
in fact, i think it'll be NC16 =(
so, i went to dig up a website and i found it, so im watching it online now :D
if ur scared n still dying to watch, dont sweat it cuz just watch it on the internet =.=
internet one not scary at all compared to cinema lols.
SCARED DEN JUST QUICKLY LOWER DOWN THE VOLUME LA LOLS XD
got cinema u have the PRAY for it to end LOLS.
the SAW franchise rocks. anyone digging for final destination 4 XD?
3D somemore WEEEEEE :D all the blood splatter infront of u :D
IM SADISTIC o.o

pictures another day, promise :D

2009-06-07T23:25:00.000+08:00

walao eh, i slept at like, 4 am ytd wtf...

cuz was busy searching for info about the songs ahschoir is preparing for the concert and compiling them, cuz my english isn't say very fantastic, considering the fact that i TOTALLY FAILED PAPER 2 WTF WTF WTF!!!!

walao eh, if i like didnt fail i would have gotten A2 =.= its like 64. SOMETHING SOMETHING.

Life sucks man.

anyways, everyone was like lamenting on how screwed the template in the choir blog is =.= BUT IT LOOKS KINDA OK TO ME.

and christopher was like saying maybe i using microsoft internet 7 so yeah....

i can't download microsoft internet 8 cuz of uhh...*ahem ahem* don't wanna kena sabo-ed lol

so i downloaded mozilla, safari, wadever sai internet u can think of,

U KNOW, I ALWAYS HAD THE MINDSET THE WHOLE WORLD IS USING ONLY MICROSOFT INTERNET EXPLORER.

only recently then i realise, "OH, GOT MORE THAN ONE AH?"

=.= wth. since when sia.

AHAHAHAH BILL GATES, GOT PPL GOING TO OWN U LOLS.

Have been busy with publicizing the choir in facebook, please dont complain of me spamming ur wall, its my job =.= face it.

OR JUST BUY THE TICKETS MUAHAHAH :D

umm, u all can contact me and i'll order for u guys, best if u go plan with ya friends so i can buy all at one time :)

have also been catching up on my dear piano WAHAHHAa. Never touch it for very long le XD

ok its a keyboard. sorry -,- currently learning magician from d-gray man.

YES I KNOW, EVERYONE'S DYING TO PLAY IT -.- my gosh this piano craze.

At first it was the crazy of RIVER FLOWS IN U BY YIRUMA RIGHT???

can people STOP PLAYING IT??!!! DO U KNOW HOW SIAN IT IS TO BE HEARING EVERYONE PLAYING THE SAME DAMN THING HA??!!! HAVE SOME CREATIVITY AND GO LEARN OTHER YIRUMA'S SONG TYS!!!

magician's a lovely song, cuz terence has been playing it like siao =.=

but the reason why everyone is playing it is cuz ITS SO EASY TO LEARN OMFG.

so i kinda dug up another song, the name of life in the VERY LONG AGO JAP CARTOON MOVIE - SPIRITED AWAY...

And I'm watching d-gray man now LOLS. because i heard the song in the anime and wah, that anime guy so shuai LOLS XD ALLEN RIGHT ahahs.

Hmm...well ASEAN + summit is over.

Honestly, im glad its over. SORRY FOR THE DAMN N2 PPL BUT,

i dont like the idea of forsaking my cca, my time with my friends n families for it.

considering the fact that:

1) I'm not as smart as the people there

2) I only sleep and slack there

3) My efforts I HAVE PUT IN seemed to be of no use

4) sometimes i feel UPSET and OUTCASTED because of different mindsets n mentalities.

Point 4 is the main thing that deters me from going to the closing dinner ceremony.

No, the people there are great i swear, and i do appreciate dunman high for creating such an enriching experience.

Enriching, but not exactly pleasant for me. Ahahas.

Look la, im missing in some photos and no one includes my name it and stuffs =.=

Call me childish, u've no idea.

I don't mind trying to FIT IN and stuff but, as of now i'm facing with much difficulties with my families and friends, and i wan to handle my post in my CCA the best i possibly could.

I'm actually a damn siao and crazy girl who can zi-high alots aheheheh :D

But i don't think ppl will really understand the reason of me zi-highing.

Will i be like them when i grow up? I think its kinda cool but...saddening in another way.

i don't think its worthwhile wasting much of my efforts, esp when they will go down in vain, at least for now.

Yeah i feel bad for thinking this way and bursting all of ur bubbles, most of u probably hate me now but, i felt much worse feeling outcasted. At least i don't feel that way when im with my cca or class =)

Really sorry. ahahas.

At least i made one close friend :D JOYANNNN FROM NANYANG GIRLS WAHAHHAA :D

she's really a damnnnn nice person i tell u, one of the nicest i've ever met :D

I LOVE U JOYAN :D

pictures perhaps :D?

Ah yes, the ASEAN people :D ATCSC WAHAHA.

We were screaming "CRIME" i think lols.

ELLO ELLO ELLO XDD AHSCHOIR WOOOTS. Not bad ah the editing o.o

Guess who is this guy XD???!!! HANDSOME RIGHT????!!

P.S when billow meets BILLOW, there soft by thy PILLOW :DDD

I know the choir now will definitely put in their utmost effort in singing the songs well liao WAHAHAHA XD

There's choir tmr. Wee.

Gonna meet my sister danica in tm for morning breakfast :D HIPHIP HOORAYS. long time never eat with her le lols.

cheers to homework ppl =(

2009-06-03T22:27:00.001+08:00

Ok, I'm damn traumatised by the ASEAN summit thingy.
REALLY REALLY TRAUMATISED.
I DONT WANT TO GO BACK AGAIN OMFG.
It's like, freaking stressful and pressurizing there u know?
Everyone is just SOOOO good till they actually INSPIRE you =.=
I'm serious, they are GOOD.
They dont even LOOK at their notes and read directly, they just use their damn cheem vocab and express their rather expressive views =.=
Ok, for example, "The delegate of India agrees with what the delegate of France has said, as india herself has experienced domestic success in using the policy and firmly believes that it can be applied to other ASEAN countries and that it will be beneficial."
JUST like, *click* and she said it like, so qing song zzz.
WTF IS THAT LA MY GOSH.

I tell you, unless you're REALLY good, or a haolian person or someone who is not vulnerable to these stuffs, DONT GO.
I'm not saying that its not good, its just TOO GOOD for me.
SO GOOD until I lose my confidence and morale. Right from the first day.
Serious, I REALLY REALLY REGRET JOINING IT. YOU'VE NO IDEA.
Its like, others were so good that if you dont talk, u can just go die.
WALAO LAHHHHH. I mean like, hello???
Suddenly, CHINESE BECAME MY FAVOURITE SUBJECT.
It's probably the ONLY thing anglican high students can OWN in.
im serious, chinese is our forte in that organization. I LOVE JIANG LAO SHI SIA.

And i'm forsaking choir for this thingy. That already turns me off.
And i dunno, not all of them very friendly leh. I think some of them think I'm too dumb to be bothered.
Ok la, i may not be as pro in debating or knowing abt asean la but,
at least im TRYING my best, better than not trying.
and somemore, [paiseh jojo copy u], I MAY NOT BE AS BOOK SMART AS U ALL ARE, but im definitely EVERY BIT AS STREET SMART AS U ALL, perhaps even MORE.
AHAHAHA XD yay. thats a good feeling lols.
and the other two secondary school teams, nanyang girls and raffles girls =.=
BU OWN WO CAI GUAI LA.
One debate team somemore. AHS dont even have one debate team lols. everytime only know how to use isaac.
sian. jus found out that OTHER PPL IN MY COUNCIL ARE DOING WORK PAPERS.
Don't ask me what is it. U'll know that i wont know.
THIS IS VERY VERY PRESSURIZING U KNOW.
are my holidays even holidays now? WTF?!
how u all be so enthu omgosh =.= now my mind is all about choir and ONLY choir.
and it will be about choir the whole entire day too tmr =.=
i seriously, DONT WAN CARE ABT THIS THING ANYMORE. SO STRESSFUL.
DEMORALISING. BLEAH.

2009-06-02T23:34:00.000+08:00

Hais....
I love my friends. Alot. Especially my close ones...
But why are they drifting away from me? Ok, not all, but some...
It hurts soooooo much...
Mr.Toh once told me, sometimes if we feel too much for someone, we get hurt too easily.
Because love is sensitivity...
Ok I'm not referring to the lovey dovey ones, but love of friendship lols.

I don't think I'm like, a very important person in most people's lives,
but I think everyone plays an important role to me,
because if they didn't exist, many things would change...
You all must be thinking im crazy to think such stuff...
Hais....xin tong si le.
Seriously so xin tong and so hurt now...
I thought I was your closest friend ah...
You were so nice last time...what happened?

Hais. So much things to say. But so little words to express.
Just feel like finding my other good friend and pour out my woes. LOLS.
Another emo post so dont bother reading.
Why is that only CCA can make me feel happy?
And wtf sia tmr got ASEAN DELEGATE summit thingy at 7.30 am dunman high,
Umm, no offense but, hello ASEAN SUMMIT ORGANISATION, I DON'T THINK EVEN MINISTERS WILL MEET AT LIKE 7.30 AM?
WHO THE HELL DOES THAT? and we're not so lucky to have BUSES to ZAI us ok?
we go there by ourselves through taxi lor.
Honestly, i very sian of it. not interested. i tell u now, NOT INTERESTED.
but i'll still put in my best no matter how i hate this organisation. That's my principle.
The only good thing about it is to meet new people.
and that's my only hope. AHAHA.

My heart has a wound.

2009-05-31T11:03:00.000+08:00

I AM PUBLICITY OFFICER OF AHSCHOIR 2009 - 2010!!!!!
omgosh...someone tell me that the above statement for me is true o.o
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!
I can't believe I got it o.o i've been dreaming for this like, since last year LOLS!
YAY. YAY. YAY. YAY. YAY.
eh, pub oso velli important ok XD? need to make choir as ATTRACTIVE as POSSIBLE XD
THANK YOU AHSCHOIR, FOR BELIEVING IN MY ABILITIES AND TRUSTING ME TO BE YOUR PUBLICITY OFFICER. I WON'T LET YOU DOWN :D
I'm so glad that ppl DO see some qualities in me that allows me to handle this job :D
SO I'M NOT SO BAD AS I SOUND LIKE WHAT SOME PEOPLE CLAIMED =.=
I will prove to you all that it is RIGHT to have voted for me, and I will learn about the job as much as possible and serve ahschoir the best possible i ever could :D
TOGETHER CHOIR, WE CAN ROCK OUR CONCERT BABE!!! JIAYOU!!!!
I'm so pumped up ytd after hearing the news that i went to edit the choir blog XD
ok la, got many loopholes here and there but i thought it was better overall o.o
will change the entire blogskin soon peeps :D!

I was so happy ytd until i did many stuffs in maple which is not very nice LOLS.
I went to ks somebody and guai lan somebody in maple, they deserved it anyways =.=
and i guai lan everyone la basically AHAHAHAAHA.
SORRAYESSSS :D :D :D
I think I should like, announce the rest of the executive committee ba, though you can actually read it in the choir blog :D
PRESIDENTS: CHRISTOPHER LEE AND JOLIN CHEN :D
SECRETARY: LEE PIYING :D
TREASURER: TAN SHI JIA :D
WARDROBE MANAGER: CHONG YEEYING :D
LOGISTICS: AUSTIN :D
DISCIPLINE ICS: DANICA CHAN AND GEMONN WAH :D
wahahahaaaaaaaaaaa gemonn the only sec2 sia, JIAYOU AH GEMONN, work with ahma DANICA heeeeeee :D
GRATS TO EVERYONE IN THE EX CO, ESP CHRISTOPHER AND JOJOJOJOJOJO :D
dont cry le hor, MUST BE HAPPY, cuz this ex-co will rock the WHOLE WORLD :D

for the music committee...the TALENTED and PROFESSIONAL PEOPLE who have been HANDPICKED by our conductor :D I TELL U, they confirm OWNED u one ok XD?
lets welcome,
SOPRANO SECTION LEADERS: LENG TIAN JIAO, RACHEL KOH, FEDORA TAN :D
ALTO SECTION LEADERS: EUGENIA KOH, HILARY TOH :D
TENOR SECION LEADERS: MAX LAM, ASHLEY ONG :D
BASS SECTION LEADER: REYNOLD MOK (yes, solo :D)
you guys will ROCK and ROCK and ROCKKKKK the whole world :D
grats to everyoneeee :D FOR BEING ABLE TO MAKE IT TO SL WOOOOTS :D :D :D jiayou for teaching us the songs for the upcoming concert ok??

OKayes. enough bragging :D. christopher called ytd and told me lots of stuff i have to do =.=
choir noticeboard, choir forum, and choir blog.
when nearing the concert everything will triple la T.T AHHHH.
but i love doing it :D

2009-05-23T19:19:00.000+08:00

OKAY today is pictures day :D
i'm very very lazy to upload pics in blogger though i take it EVERY SINGLE DAY, so i'll probably have a picture post every week or sth. aiya dunno la.
today jus feel like posting pics ranging from like, right after MYE that day lor.
First 3: VJC CHOIR CONCERT WITH FELLOW AHSCHOIR MEMBERS :D
Next 4: MRS.LAW'S PIZZA FEAST WITH 3D but i didnt put it in, becuz in case we kena scolded...so yeah =( SORRY!!!
Last 4: ME N RACHKOH' S OUTING TODAY WEEE :D

ME AND CHONGYEEYING IN THE CONCERT HEE HEE :D (her hair damn nice ok)

GUESS who's shoe is this =.= (clue: I SEE U PEE :D)

starrrrrrr :D finger stars hehehehes :D

my 2/3 eaten pizza, i chose the one with chunks of chicken and got corn one lols o.o

once again, NO LITTERING IN CLASS, esp mentrual tablet box ty =.=

Don't u find the guy beside the red X look like chen yi qing =.=?

HOKKAIDO ICECREAM WITH RACHKOH :D (mine's the dark choco, hers is milktea)

Obviously we're bored. The lift seems nice anyways.

Actually took quite alot of pics o.o but post one la, post too many abit over liao HEHE XD

RACHKOH pinning her collar :D look spastic ahehehehee XD

aiya, today is fun+sad day.

This morning was freaking terrible i think. But i think alto is....acceptable ba, their progress. At least we kinda get the tune :D

I'm shocked to know that many sec4s are not participating the concert. really really, omgosh.

No, im not being frustrated or angry. If i were a sec4, i would probably back out the concert too.

but....hais....

I jus feel so sad n hurt seeing him in pain,

like, i truly believe that THIS MAY BE HIS LAST CONCERT WITH US.

and i dunno...its just...not a good way to end this.

i would wanna end this in a high note, but i dunno....its so threatening now.

i'm afraid of the concert, very afraid.

that we will not live up to our standard and disappoint everyone.

the stress is....i dunno...

i jus feel so devastated.

Den afterwards, we went to eat with rach, danica, eugenia and joyce at longjohnsilver tampines mall~

Den i followed rach around takashimaya :D cuz nothing to do lols

TOTALLY MISSED MAPLE 2X exp event, but whatever, im a hardcore gamer =.=

HEHEHEHEHEHS kinda got lost in kinokuniya but, TAKA ROCKS HAHAHAS XD

went down to the food mall and buy LOTSA LOTSA FOOD AND FRUIT JUICE HEEEEE :D

lols :D I LOVE RACHKOH HEEHEEE

her bro damnnnn cute oso :D

aiya feel like mapling leh. i know maple is so wtf, but still =.=

u must admit, its quite hard to be good in it.

im a dummy in the freemarket tradings n stuff =.= so need help.

gonna chiong to lvl 100 :D

probably wouldnt make it but, aiya :D

will be cool if i succeed :D

aiya so weird la today. mixed emotions. dunno what to do.

Confused.

2009-05-18T18:40:00.000+08:00

Watching gossip girl now :D
I KNOW SOME OF YOU ARE JEALOUS MUAHAHAHAHAS XD
but sorry, gotta wait till i finish my first season will i then lend u guys :D
i only have seasons 1 n 2.
YA I KNOW, GOOD ENOUGH LE RIGHT XD?

Sian, jus now take bathe, then wound become soft like shyt, den take off shirt the wound kena scraped.
YA LA, FRIGGIN BLEEDING NOW ZZZ.
ok today, rachkoh yeeying joyce and danica came over to my house for movie marathon :D
but we only watched like, 2 movies =( bride wars and the uninvited :D
bride wars was nice n funny hahas :D BUT ANNE HATHAWAY DIDNT GET MARRIED MANNNN~
the uninvited was plain boring. At least for me. The rest were screaming and hiding their heads whenever the scary parts come.
and im like "what the =.="
It's not even close to shutter. The movie probably failed.
But ok, im kinda immune to all these gory and horror stuff. watched too much of them.
the Saw franchise, exorcism movies, shutter 4bia and coming soon, u name it =.=
We should have more of these movie marathons u know :D
and im calling more people for movie marathon next time :D

theres much things for me to crap, but i don't think i will. becuz.......
anyways, im hungry, im gonna eat now. so yeah, good day =.=

2009-05-18T02:03:00.000+08:00

I always thought that we have to fight for one's happiness...with out own efforts, with our own determination...

I know that there is a power called fate and destiny, but I thought that our determination transcends everything...

But they don't, they work hand in hand. Our determination applies and our fight is established once fate and destiny approves it...

Maybe its fate, you know.
Maybe, destiny says that it wasn't meant for us.

Because if one's happiness depends on our own efforts and strengths...
What's there left for fate and destiny?

I've been lying to myself all along, and I knew it.
I had to pretend I was okay. I was alright.
I had to say that he was a jerk, he sucks, he don't mean anything to me.
I knew this was not the case.
He meant everything to me, I guess.
And I can't let go, at least not as much as I think I did.

But I know that from today onwards, I've let go, once and for all.
I'm going to be honest with myself and face reality as it is.
Yes, I was crying like crazy and shutting myself in the toilet, emo-ing and looking mentally unstable for god knows how long.
But, I guess that's what I needed to be able to face the truth.
To cry it out loud and scream at the whole world.
No pain no gain.

What is keeping me from moving on, its not time, its not him.
Its me. I wasn't listening. I wasn't paying attention. I wasn't in the right mind.
Because I thought there was still hope.
But there's nothing left in the first place, nothing at all.
Because (quoted from rebecca) when one's mind takes over one's heart, one have to acknowledge that the love has died out.
I think it did for him.
But it wasn't for me.
But it will be. It has already, in fact, right at this moment when I'm finally coming out of my own illusional world of hope.
I think only a very few no. of people will understand how I feel. There's far too much mugger in this school to understand anything, HA! XD
Because the pain from this incident, has already proven that I have life inside me.
Too much life.

I don't think memories are to be forgotten. Memories are to be treasured.
Nobody says we can forget it. We shall treasure it.
Yeah, sure I'm not the most important person in his life.
But I think I'm a friend irreplaceable in his life I'm sure.
At least now I've more freedom and personality hahas.
I'm not burdened by anything and stuff. Yeah, its kinda cool.

I should'nt be like, "oh he's such a jerk" whenever anyone asked about him.
I should be "oh yeah, he's a good guy, but I don't think we're for each other"
I'm actually happy, to know that I'm no longer someone important in his life.
Because I don't think it breaks me down, it just helps me to let go and make me stronger.
I knew I had to do something to allow me to let go, I just didn't what is it.
Voila! He just solved it for me :) Yeah, I'm pretty sure I'm carefree now :D.
Hahas, I don't think she'll allow him to read my blog, so, JUST SAYING U KNOW.
Guess that some people will be shocked with this crap I'm saying right now.
I'm multi-sided, just to let you guys know :D

At least there's no regrets.
At least he's with someone who can give him happiness and let him be himself.
At least I'm able to let go and move on :)
The pluses definitely outweigh the minuses.
Besides, my eyes are dry, it needs some moisture. Salty ones.
LOLS, come on people, tears of joy :D
I sincerely wish the best for him. Have your everlasting happiness :D
I will get to meet mine someday ahaha. There's definitely someone better and will be meant for me somewhere, it's just a matter of time.
I think, time is needed not to get over him, but to find that special someone of mine :)

Besides, the wounds I need to heal now is not only my heart, but my elbow, hip and feet too =.=
DAMN IT LAH, until now still damn pain like shyt ok. Wat the hell is going on, the elbow one in particular is getting worse and worse. Idiot shoes.
Lols that was so random.
I've to thank so many people today, who has been giving me the support and strength I need to move on.
Even if you've just listened, you listened with your heart, and I'm really grateful for it. Now you guys no longer need to worry for me, because I've already set myself free and unchained my heart :D
Thank you, my sister aijia, darren, genevieve, yeeying, rachelkoh, danica, rebecca and to all my friends who are giving me the encouragement I need :)
Because of fear of rumours and finger-pointings (WHICH IT ALWAYS HAPPENS FOR I DUNNO WHY =.=), I won't name the boys, but you all know who you are anyways =.= so thank you!

On 18th May, 2.30 am, xiia0manman has officially let go and starting anew :)
Oh btw, I CUT MY HAIR AHAHAHA :D what a good way to start afresh eh :D

2009-05-15T22:32:00.000+08:00

lols.
LOLS.
LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLS.
ahahah today is a velli velli velli fun day :DDDDDD
ok basically, alot of us went to mandy's house and play today...
ok i name the people =.= sorry if i miss u out, NOT ON PURPOSE ONEE AHAHAHAHA XD
cheryl mandy jacqueline danielle valerie samuel junyang keith yonghong louis
ok i think thats it o.o so including me it's like...11 people :D

i tell u hor....
MANDY IS BY FAR, THE RICHEST PERSON I'VE EVER SEEN IN MY WHOLE LIFE.
when i was entering her house im like, "omgosh im in mandy chng house. ohmyohmyohmyogosh"
supeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr sheek and chio ok
like victorian woody style kind one
then not only 2 storeys leh, THREE STOREYS LOR
from outside look like snow white live that kind of palace
the balcony like abit rounded, u know the part where snow white always comes out and sing to the animals =.=?
wah, then got mini garden with a bridge...
*faints*
den her room got one television.
ONE DAMN CHIO TELEVISION. and one computer. and one bed. and alot of weird weird stuffs but, OMGOSH!!!!
AND SHE GOT LIKE 3 PERFUMES =.= including one anna sui one~~~
WAAAAALAOAOAOAOAOOAOAOAOAOAOA U MUST BE KIDDING MEEE SIAAA. mr khoo's house also cannot compare to them lor LOLSSS
so many tunnels and rooms. i think u can create like, amazing race there or something o.o

watched housebunny first, while the guys are in her room zi-highing about maple and ks-ing ppl (lame) =.=
and lols, the housebunny quality damn bad T.T
halfway the audio change to foreign one, den the pictures oso damn lousy, will lag and stagger halfway~
AHAHAHHA, shhhh, its my CD LOLS~~~ from china ahahahaha.
aiya sorry laaaaa XDDXDXD PAISEH, next time will go test test before bringing it lolls.
Then watched skeleton key and 4bia. skeleton key is kinda like a creepy adventure of witchcraft, which i feel is DAMN nice but abit wtf~~
4bia is plain stupid boring n not scary at all. ya i know i shrieked alot, but when i saw the ghost, im like WTF LIDDAT ONLY =.=? got too many lame parts lols.

and then all of us retreat back to mandy's room, played abit of maple and found out how ugly my avater looks now,
im gonna download it and buy cash heheheh XD
and then got half play mahjong half play taiti~
ok la, i dunno how play mahjong =( SORRY LINYING, FORGOTTEN EVERYTHING U TEACH ME HEHEHEHEHEHHS XD
den got play bridge, in which its a game I WILL NEVER EVEN GET TO UNDERSTAND LOLS~~~
and then play blackjack WITH MONEYYY XD XD XD
ok la, everyone at first bet like, 10 cents 20 cents,
den as it goes on, they bet 50 cents and more LOLS~~
i still stick to my 15 cents HEH XD aiyaa, money velli important ma XD
den LOUIS LA. ACT RICH LA. wah, bet 2 dollars plus sia. siao kia.
i think he lost o.o

anyways, den later danielle valerie jacqueline and cheryl left, then the remaining us went to have dinner at KFC o.o
den afterwards mandy went back home while we walking to bus stop take bus12.
OK THIS IS WHEN THE STUPID DUMB INCIDENT HAPPENED.
DISCLAIMER: manjing is not a blind person.
anyways, the bus 12 came and we were like, still quite a distance away from the bus stop, so we chionged,
and while chiong-ing, I FELL DOWNNNNNNNNN.
OMGOSHHHH. that was so unglam lols.
and seriously, i wasnt even thinking abt the pain and being sad, i was like going to laugh,
like LOLSSSSS. I MUST HAVE LOOKED DAMN FUNNY LOLSSSSS
so paiseh larrrrrrrhhhhhsssss. got one women was like, staring at me and giving me the WTF LOOK
LOLSSS. super paiseh and super unglam. i must have looked very terrible then o.o
AHAHAHAH SO FUNNYYYYY, im laughing like shyt now XDDDD
kinda reminds me jojo's fall in choir room, dam drama XD
ok la, my elbow kena abrasion until bleeding (wtf, havent stop yet), then hips down dere jus discovered one big red patch and some scratches n bleedings, and my feet there oso bruise n cuts n now bleeding.
wtf sia, everything is bleeeding. damn pain n scary but,
i dunno, i think the incident is jus so funny, i dont really care abt the pain :D

and i wan to personally thank the people who were there jus now and helping me in cleaning my wound :D
im really really, super super super touched, as in seriously.
cuz, i tell u honestly RIGHT NOW, no one has really cared so much since like for a long long long long time. not even in pri school.
ok, maybe perhaps the injury wasnt so serious and stuff but, i dunno, its just really caring and its something i dont think i experience before ba o.o
i dunno, maybe u'll think its jus nothing but, its definitely something i'll remember for the rest of my lives. really, im super super grateful to have such good friends like u guys :D

This is by far, the year n class i enjoyed most in my ahs life.
and im happy it'll continue for another one n a half years =)
aiya pictures another time la, now damn sian, jus missed jamie oliver's show i freaking angry =.=
CHEERS. and hahas, im alright now :D DONT WORRY KAYSSS :D

2009-05-14T23:40:00.000+08:00

my dear friends from all around the entire universe....

I GOT AN ANNOUNCEMENT TO MAKE....

MID-YEARS ARE OVER BABEHHHHHHHH!!!!~~~ WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS~~!!!

Okayes I know I should be zi-highing, but,
frankly, i dont feel much jubilation of excitement n stuff, like currently...
I dunno, usually i will zi-high alot, but not exactly this time....
maybe because i know i screwed everything up, and my grades r slipping like shyt =.=
i dunno. more of a relief actually. a relief that i no longer need to endure like, hours of mugging,
it was so terrible. my head was like, "OMGOSH STOP GIVING ME INFO CANNOT STORE LIAO LE LA"
and my brain cells was like, "WAN HUMTAM US ISSIT??!!"

aiya. bo pian ah. mscheong and her crazy mind la.
i tell u truthfully right now, this midyear is screwed.
i wont be surprise to see my position drop by 100+. im serious.
and im very depressed. u've no idea, i've broken down like, tonnes of times ZZZ
i dont like to disappoint people.
and i probably disappointed like, many by now.
my parents, my teachers, my seniors,
i dont know whats wrong with me this year.
Maybe i was very stupid in the first place. so all along, my grades r just an imagination.

mr.khoo told me that every yr the trip sci geog classes top the entire level.
mr.tan told me that every yr o lvls the trip sci geog classes score better.
is this some kind of curse =.=?
WAT THE SHYT IS THIS LA!
im serious ok, HAVENT THE SCHOOL BOARD TAKE INITIATIVES N FIND OUT WHY.
YA FINE, WE NOT AS MUGGY AS THEM BUT
HELLO, THERES DEFINITELY OTHER SIGNIFICANT FACTORS.
i dunno. i m having alot of regrets now. ALOT.
although i shouldn't have, and i couldn't have, im having. im having ALOT ALOT ALOT OF REGRETS
why didnt i choose trip sci geog in the first place.
what the hell WAS I THINKING.
theres one time when me and cheryl were eating icecream (YUMMY) and we're sitting down together, discussing why we didnt choose geog.
everything is just so screwed up. dont even say im a mugger now u know, like, look at the freaking situation.
like, u all know it urselfs that the situation's pretty f-ed up
what is going on. damn it, the last thing i'll ever gonna do in life is to regret what i've done.
and i just did. great.
what a fantastic mid year i had u know.

i dunno la. got alot of stuffs to post today actually.
like going watch angels and demons with annabella valerie mandy samuel isaac yonghong keith junyang louis.
den went bowling with mandy valerie annabella keith junyang
really damn fun, like really really fun.
but my emotions kinda screwed up now. cant act happy when im not.
ya, i know alot of ppl will say i mugger or i siao and stuff.
whatever dudes, u have no idea what im feeling or going through now.

dont even be surprised if i dropped 100+ positions.
im not even joking now.

2009-04-23T22:49:00.000+08:00

OK firstly, i think i need to include some disclaimers before anyone started commenting on my blog =.=

this is MYYYY blog. not YOURS.
GET IT?
i didnt FORCE u to read it. neither did i scold anyone on this blog (maybe a few posts :D?)
i have many alter egos. u wan me zi-high and act immature fine, but u wan me be calm n act mature ALSO CAN. how i wanna write my posts here depends on MY mood.
blogs r created for our own purposes. a platform for our own feelings. i've no idea why it can be made public, but, there's NOTHING WRONG with it.
You will definitely NOT LIKE some ppl's blog, but keep ur comments to URSELF, becuz if they had done NOTHING WRONG, u've no right to criticize. even if u wan give comments, give CONSTRUCTIVE ones. or not, keep it to urself, no one likes hearing negative stuff =.=
maybe u've never had an experience of extreme jubilation or what, but since i did, i have the AUTHORITY to BLOG ABOUT IT and post ALOTTTTT of zi-lian pics.
ITS NOT EVEN ZI-LIAN IN THE FIRST PLACE LA, IM TAKING IT WITH FRIENDS LEH.
even if ppl DO ZI-LIAN, theres nothing wrong. its just abt whether u like it or not.
and if ur standard of living is oh-so-mighty-high, den DONT EVEN READ OUR BLOGS. sorry i'm not as rich as u (whatever kiddo).
i like my life to COLOURFUL and RAINBOW-ISH, and i respect ur life n ur character, even if its dull n grey, becuz u r who u r and i ACCEPT THAT.
but if ur comments have OFFENDED me, den please reflect.
I'm trying VERY HARD not to have a bad impression of u ok. it is VERY VERY VERY FRUSTRATING n STRESSFUL. becuz apparently, EVERYONE is having the same opinion as me. YOU COMPLAIN TOO MUCH.
I can guarantee RIGHT NOW, ur life is DEFINITELY much more blissful den others. that's why ur standard of living is so high =.=
U've got to accept that there r ppl who r very different than u.
I've never seen u ONCE admit that u r wrong. cuz u always give reasons.
why r u so afriad to say "sorry" or admit that "im wrong"? Wah, ur pride and ego is so friggin big hor?
Apologising to someone doesn't mean its BU YAO LIAN or embarassing, it only means that u have courage to admit ur mistakes.
It's ok to be different, but be DIFFERENT IN A GOOD WAY. be UNIQUE, not ODD.

Today, you officially made me pissed till I just wanna scream in the class and throw my water bottle at u. You have totally shown disrespect to someone in the class.

But i'll try to view u as my friend and HOPEFULLY U WILL TRY TO CHANGE WHATEVER ATTITUDE EVERYONE IS HAVING WITH U.

No one is perfect, so stop giving excuses and say it proudly that u suck in some way. CUZ ITS THE TRUTH, LIKE DUHH =.=?

OK ENOUGH FOR THE CRAPPY POST. its either u know who im talking abt, or u don't. and don't view it as backstabbing or anything, i didnt scold or spread any rumours =.=
the ASEAN delegate thingy is driving me crazy. like, i know i shud have done it earlier, but its so sian, like, WHY THE HELL MUST WE DO THE FRIGGIN PAPER.
I swear right now, im never gonna be someone who will have relations to the politics, becuz i dont give a heck about politics. sorry, i jus dont like it, blame it on my antibodies or sth =.= as u can see LOLS, i loveeeeee science. n only science.
the only thing im excited abt the asean thing is THE CLOTHING WAHAHAHAHAH XD they say must wear FORMAL clothing, so im gonna have like, a gathering for all the ppl attending the asean thingy to GO OUT SHOPPING N BUY FORMAL CLOTHINGSSS :D D:D D: D:D :D
aiya, wont waste money one la, bugis 10 dollars can also kena one liao lor XD~~!
wah sian, tmr need hand in the stupid position paper, until now not even ONE done lor.
like "MALAYSIA TERRORISM" WTF =.=?
if we are meant to die, WE DIE. accept it governments =.=
sian, zhen de regret accepting it. hais. sian sian sian sian sian sian.

wooots. napfa i got position 46. GOT IMPROVE OK XDD?? by 30+ positions lehhh~
becuz i cheated n stand very infront =.= so will chiong faster.
and the champions for females are:
1) JACQUELINE :D
2) VALERIAGOH :D
3) CAROLYN :D
4) SERENE :D
5) HAZEL TAN :D
3 ppl from our class sia o.o wah, really damn proooooo T.T
i was like, keeeeep stopping for many many manyyyyy times. sian.
nvm la, A very happy le :D GOLD FTW~~!!
for guys, isaac fastest in our class o.o i heard zhenju kena 4th, which is like DAMN PRO ok =.=
oh, and happy birthday QINGYING and happy birthday ISAAC in 47 mins heh :D

I'm loving 3D more and more and more and moreeeee :D

2009-04-19T21:27:00.000+08:00

Ok, im still very high about the goldwithhonours THINGY AHAHAHAHA~~~!!
not only me lor, go see every AHSChoir member the msn, all put our achievement there ok =.=
except for reynold though o.o lol
no, dont come "goldwithhonours NIA"
U NIA US SOMEMORE, u try getting it first la =.=
lols EUGENIA XD no, its not that we r getting COMPLACENT or HAOLIAN.
its becuz, at that moment it was either we MAKE IT or we BREAK IT.
and seriously, i felt like killin myself when i tot we failed but, HEY HEY HEY XDDDD
WE DID IT. IT was definitely the magic the judges felt.
it was the magic of our true sincerity to the music we want to convey.
our message wasnt "HEY JUDGES, WE R A VERY PRO CHOIR, GIVE US A GOLD WITH HONOURS"
but our message was, "HEY judges, this is what we've done to the music and this is how we appreciate it. We hoped you felt our feelings for the songs too"
And that is the most significant n fruitful lesson we've gained.
The goldwithhonours is an ACHIEVEMENT.
but what we've learnt is an AHIEVEMENT for LIFE.
and ok, i know we didn't like, practiced as hard as some other CCAs do but, we DID worked hard u know =.=
and as my first and my last SYF, i'm so relieved that it ended well. Like totally no regrets.
Juniors, jiayou bah, got pressure liao, WAHAHAHAHAHAH XD!!~~
and yeah, i know i've been screaming alot in class abt this GwH thingy, i'll keep quiet (i think o.o)
JIAYOU FOR OTHER PERFORMING ARTS WHOSE SYF IS COMING SOON :D
(must make dr.boon and ms.cheong happy. hehs =.=)
and for the other CCAs who didn't get what they wanted, pls don't fret or be very depressed ok?
i know u'll be like "ya la, u get GwH what"
NOOOO =.= didnt i tell u in the previous post that we were most likely getting a gold??
and that MC who stopped for 3 seconds which seemed like 3 centuries =.=?
I ALMOST HAD A HEART ATTACK OK GOD DAMN U =.= i was preparing to jump off the building, literally.
so yeah, i did feel that "OMGOSH" moment. But SYF is subjecting and i guess, there is just SO MUCH we can do.
even if the whole competition repeats itself, whatever happens before will happen again.
and we've all seen the hard work u guys have put in, like, WOW O.O
and to know that u all had tried ur best, it's already a great achievement :) cheer up guys~
yeah, i admit, if i were u, i would definitely sulk at this post now and u guys must be hating me =.=
but, we're all in this together, u know.

OK ENOUGH WITH THE MUSHY MUSHY =.=
gosh, i've liked so much unnecessary stuffs to do,
like this STUPID JIANBAO which just suddenly pops up in my mind, and im like "OH GOD -.-"
wat the helll laaaaa~ I DONT ORDER ZAO BAO and NONE OF MY FAMILY MEMBER DOES.
and by the time i come back from school, the ZAO BAO ALL SELL FINISH LIAO~
how u expect me to buy it larrrrhshshshshhsshs~
and my family members doesnt read chinese AT ALLL~~~!!!
it is REALLLY frustrating u know. like, ARGHHHHH JIANG LAO SHIIII!!!!
and then got this ASEAN plus thingy, in which i might have regret agreeing to join it =.=
becuz apparently, im kinda losing interest now =.= come on, MALAYSIA?? get george to do it la =.=
but whatever, i have to do it anyways =.= NO REGRETS MANJINGGGG~~
and i was like complaining to mr.yeow i actually like, half-regretted choosing history =.=
no, not because of the class. its the subject itself starts to bore me.
I'm not like some others who's totally in to that EUROPEAN STUFF. and definitely not MILITARY.
WHICH IS WHAT THE WHOLE DAMN TOPIC IS ABOUT. SCREW CHAPT 2.
i prefer like, how the people suffered under the rule n how they overcame it blah blah blah,
like world war II in SG LOR. exactly the reason y i chose history when i was a sec 2.
NO, not that i like to see suffering =.= but i want to know how the experience was and their feelings. i want to see determination from ppl trying to overcome stupid fat ass yamashita.
Cannibalism is cool though o.o HEHS i see the gruesome pics i quite interested sia.
but come ONNNNN =.= INDUSTRIALISATION. BORE. YAWNS.
not like geog would be interesting but =.= ok y does humanities even exists.
I KNOW WHY, cuz now got siow miew yew (dunno how to spell) fund thingy, which gives like, 100 dollars O.O
and u'll be asking "WHY ONLY HUMANITIES??!!"
HA! i've no IDEA TOOO =.= i expect many ppl to chiong for humanities for that 100 bucks hehs.

Watched 17 AGAIN. and dont mind watching it AGAIN :D
so funny, so so sooooooooo funny u'll laugh ur ass off lah.
HANDSOME SUIT is nice too :D oso quite funny.
wow. so many comedy movies nowadays. hmm.
like, ZAC EFRON is always so GORGEOUS O.O
but my heart's forever with EDWARD CULLEN MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHA~~!
AND HEY!!!~~ they're filming new moon like, right now, nearing to ITALY BWAKEKEKEKEKEK XDDD
EDWARDDDD~~~ here i COMEEEEE :DDDDDD

2009-04-18T01:11:00.000+08:00

Yo yo people...
I KNOW NOW IS LIKE, 1.12 am WTF =.= but im so excited to post all my pics during SYF :D
hehes, sorry ah, only took it like, after SYF, before SYF very little one o.o
i think i koping some from ppl's blog lehhs o.o sorraye to JOJO AND RACHKOH~~~!!!
THERES HELL ALOT OF PICS :D hehs take so long to load leh =.=

Group photo with our dearest drboon and mscheong =.=

personwifbackfacing: CHARIS, and that is YEEYING :D

I know im being lame =.=

Taken jus after we sang :D wif costumes hehs

more fun at mac with a no. of sec3 batch :D

me and rach loves icecream :D

rach and eugenia being spastic XD!!

Max throwing zhensheng into water o.o

crowds gathering after RESULTS OF GwH!!!

more crowds :D

hehs, zhensheng kena dumped into water by max :D

sec3 batch pic wif mr toh :D YAYAYAYAYAY!!

choir in a circle, singing UBICARITAS LOVESSSSS~

some sec3s taking pic wif jesse :D:D:D:D:D:D

Ok below pics are ZILIANS with many many choir ppl :DDDDD

QIANYUU~ YINGJUNN~~ JESSEE~~

ALVINAA~~ CORNELIUS~~~ ZHENSHENGG~~

CHRISTOPHERR~~ EMMAUSS~~ CHARMAINEEE~~

POHYII~~ Jesse in rachkoh's specs hehs :D

nice scenery HEHSSS???? :D

I absolutely love love love love loveeee AHSCHOIR like siaooooo~~~~
AHSCHOIR WE ROCKED AND WE JUST MADE OURSELVES PROUD!!!
JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU!!~~~

*ABOVE POST UPDATED AT 1:57AM*

2009-04-17T21:21:00.000+08:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!~~~~~~~~~~~~~
AHSCHOIR GOTTEN GOLD WITH HONOURS BABEHHH~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
my goshy goshy goshy goshy!!! the MC was like, choir no. 25, ANGLICAN HIGH CHOIR
btw i was sitting with miss yeeying :D den me n her hold our breaths and squeezed each other hands...
GOLD.........(PAUSES FOR 3 FRIGGIN LONG SECS. DAMN THE MC)
for a moment, my heart totally crashed, was about to cry actually, but still got a teeny weeny bit of hope in my heart so.....
WITH HONOURS........
then the next thing is....
*AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! YAYAYAYAYAYAAYAYAY~~~~!!! WAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH SETHJTRRGDRUYJHEFFXSGTYJHGFR SO HAPPYYYY!!!!!
wakao i tell u, this is like one of the most happiest day of my LIFE MAN~~~~!!!!
is like MY GOSHHHHHHHHHHHHH AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH GOLD WITH HONOURSSSSSSSSS BABEHHH~~~!!!!

before that our conductor was like telling us, "don't put ur hopes up too high ok? I'm very very proud of you, but it just wasn't there. So no crying later on ok?"
i tell u, that instant right, im like "O.O WTH"~~~
i tot we didnt do as well, but at least still got abit of hope of getting GwH...
though everyone commented as though it was terrible, but hey, i did feel goosebumps during ave o.o a little, mr toh was like, ABOUT TO CRY (not joking! trust first row de :D)
basically we went sharp, white horses starting rhythm was wrong, miao jia got one tenor solo came in wrong (or is it we were slow o.o?) kinda draggy,
but, i really like, focused until my eyeballs wan pop out and gave in my super super superrrr best,
so i really hoped it paid off =.= like COME ON??????!!!!
jemimah was crying though o.o becuz she was touched after yingjun sang the first sop solo~

HOWEVER, our hopes got back up again after cornelius was like saying, theres this guy who posts on a live blog after every choir performance, and that particular guy was like commenting "Clearly a goldwithhonours!"
wow.
den afterwards a VS friend, clement, smsed rachkoh and told her that we rocked and totally trashed VS and anderson...=.=
WOW.
den really lor. we got goldwithhonours.
WOWOWOWWOWOWOWWOWOWOWWOWOWOWWOWOWOWOWW.
was it like, really THAT good =.=?
i think we could've done better, THERES ALWAYS ROOM FOR IMPROVEMENT :D
but for now, i really want to enjoy the fruits of our labour for just this period. i desperately need some happiness to boost myself up after the dropping of my grades and some emo probs =.=
me n yy was like "now even if we fail chinese oso will dont care one lor"
im serious ok. choir is more important than academics, at least for this period.

then we were outside VCH screaming/hugging/shouting/crying/wailing/cheering/shakinghands/takingpics/morescreamings!!!
i really wanted to cry =.= (honestly) but couldn't =.= sorry, i really tried u know~
but cant stop smiling =) is like smiling with my mouth damn wide, showing teeth for like the entire day XD!!!
den hugged almost everyone~~~!!!
danica n jojo were crying T.T DONT CRY BABEHSS~~~ GOLDWITHHONOURSS!!!
den we all wanted to taupok mr toh, but failed, so taupoh corn instead :D
den max threw zhensheng into the pond hehehehehs~~~
den we hold hands in a circle singing "UBICARITAS"
its our so called TRADITIONAL choir song, we sang it like, almost after every successive competition ;)
to show how much we love our seniors, we love mrtoh&teachers, how much we love AHSCHOIRRR~~!!!
den we zi-high alot, everyone was staring at us like WTF =.=
BUT WE DONT CARE HEHEEHEHEHEH XD!~~~~!!!!
btw, today many ppl ponned school =.= cuz too tired ahahaa~~
I STILL COME LEH, SEE I SO GUAI :DDDDD
ya la, flunk physics lor, ta ma de.
all the questions i dunno, becuz ON THURS I WASNT PRESENT!
asshole la, whatever la, now my mind full of ahschoir, i dont even bother abt physics (unlike muggers)

We've put in so much effort for this SYF,
esp 3 weeks ago, when we almost breakdown becuz we're not moving on in ANY WAY and burdening our conductor and the entire choir,
but we finally break through the goddamn barrier, and WE MADE IT XD
NO REGRETS PPL.
becuz what we've gained most importantly is not the goldwithhononours (aiya dr.boon super happy one la),
but that we've grown and matured, and overcame our weakness through this SYF,
and not to show that we're better than the rest of the choirs,
BUT TO SHOW WHAT WE'VE DONE AND HOW WE APPRECIATE AND TREASURE MUSIC,
and to show what WE'RE MADE OF.
to be an inspiration to other choirs, to say proudly, "WHAT WE CAN DO, SO CAN YOU"

I LOVE YOU AHSCHOIR!
THANKS FOR EVERYTHING YOU ALL HAD DONE TO MAKE THIS SUCCESSIVE.
WE WILL CONTINUE TO STRIVE OUR LEGACY AND HARDWORK AND NEVER EVER EVER FALL AND SURRENDER TO FAILURE!
I LOVE YOU MR.TOH!!! I LOVE YOU SENIORS!!!! I LOVE YOU TEACHERS!!! I LOVE YOU AHSCHOIR!!!!
U R JUST LIKE MY 2ND FAMILY AND UR PLACE IN MY HEART WILL NEVER EVER FADE AWAY!!
AHSCHOIR KICK ASS MAN!!!

(just gotten news cat high kena gold. mr.kwei must be feeling like, T.T zzz. dont fret cat high ppl!)

sorry ah, pictures next post la ok ^^?

2009-04-06T20:08:00.000+08:00

I'm not going to Chiang Rai.
Final decision.
1) Parents. They are opposing me for the right reasons, and I respect them.
2) The people going. I will only go there and never return because I'll be pissed to my grave. Trust me, go and you will know what I mean. Crows who only know how to complain. HA.
3) The below reason.

I've never felt so selfish of myself this way before. Ever.
What have I done. What have we done. What the heck has gotten us into this place.
I knew we could have been more hardworking. We should have been.
But to suffer in the place of someone I love...is...I don't even know how to express [don't think too far thanks)
It's not like, a mild thing. It's a freaking damnass huge problem. It can kill.
Why suffer it all alone? WHY?
I hate myself for not trying even harder. I hate myself for not remembering all his words during those precious moments he gave up for us.
Where's that diligent and hardworking spirit we once had?
WHERE IS IT?
Where's that ever-determination to work and work and work TILL WE BLEED?
I feel bad for thinking this way but, desperate times calls for desperate thinkings (I know the word is measures)
Because it had driven me to the fact that I'm now thinking alot of weird things.
We only knew today, the hidden things that he has been devoting it to us,
to the fact that we may even cost him his life.
All for who? ALL FOR WHO?
Maybe sacrificing the trip is only a little something I could do.
It's not even sacrificing in the first place.
Love is about sacrifices.
It is ever so tedious and delicate.
Always humble and never boastful.
Today, I finally realised the love I've been receiving for a long, long time.
And tomorrow, I'll make sure I give it back.

Jiayou AHSChoir.

2009-03-18T17:18:00.000+08:00

I kinda did this personality test from vanessa's friend's blog :D VANESSA GOT BF o.o THEY LOOK SO FRIGGIN CUTE TOGETHER WAHAHAHAHA XD XD

i bet many ppl will disagree with the below conclusion (esp abt the MATURITY ONE), but come on la, the qtns in the quiz asked like, so ridiculous qtns that u will only answer what comes into ur mind first. personally, i kinda agree with what it says XD there's always a different part of us inside and im definitely not what i m inside when im shown outside. So, for a certain someone, (pardon me for my vulgarity everyone T.T), F*** OFF! talking to me abt maturity MY ASS!

Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them. (i think many ppl will disagree with this. sighs.)

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. (So true. I dont believe in looks at all :D)

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship. (uhh...really meh o.o)

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love. (aiya half half la)

Your views on education:

You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job. (SEE WHAT I MEAN WHEN I M ANGRY THAT SOME LOSERS JUST DOESNT GIVE ME RESPECT?!)

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life. (I follow passion, not mugger =.=)

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous. (ya true, sometimes quite kiasu =.= scared of everything)

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel. (but no one ever knows how i really felt =.= so whatever)

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve. (HA bet some of u laughing liao =.=, but true, got too many heart probs heee :D)

ya true, cannot just judge myself based on this personality test =.= but, at least for NOW, this is like, the real ME i guess o.o and no im not haolian-ing, anyone who does this test will get a positive conclusion =.= even ms.cheong do oso will kena good remarks de, so yeah, gimme some face la hor XD

aiya i know u all dying to do it right =.= harna here the link XD http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx
ENJOY PEOPLE :DDD
who are you?
r u still who u r before u came here?
what is most important to u now?
looks? smell? clothings?
i dont even recognise u anymore.
why did u come to this state?

what is there to believe in u now?

2009-03-17T23:06:00.000+08:00

im now currently addicted to HANAYORIDANGO KOREAN VERSIONNNN~
for those ppl who dunno wth is hana yori dango =.= its liu xing hua yuan
YES YES I KNOW, LONG AGO OLD ANCIENT DRAMA =.=
didnt liked it at all. i tink it sucks terribly.
the story originated from a manga, den dey make to TV series lor...
got taiwan, japanese and korean version :D
a china one coming up soon =.= im like WTF CHINAAA????!!!
no offence la, cannot imagine them using cheena cheena accent to act =.= like "HUH??? =O"
korean version one is damn nice ok, the guys so hot like anything you mei you =.=
as in seriously HOT DAO BU XING BWAHEHHEHEHEHEHE~~~
the girl oso damn chio n dammmmnnnn white T.T
*jealous jealous* :D
they just aired it like recently lor o.o altogether 25 episodes, not korea only until no. 16 or no.17 only lorh XD
den youtube got ppl upload BWAHAHAHAHHA XD i watched until episode 10 nia...
and AMERICA'S NEXT TOP MODEL CYCLE 12 IS ON AIR BABE~
only 3 episodes la lols. waiting for next one o.o

tmr theres choir :D
im excited cuz there MAY be a movie outing :D
on monday (which was ytd) IT WAS CHOIR GAMES DAY :D
and we ran all around singapore (literally) =.=
very tiring, but quite fun la my team o.o
JUNYAO AND ME LDR :D (LOVE U JUNYAO MUAHAHAHA!!)
den in my team is my SISTA DANICA, CHRISTINE (SOP DE), PINHAO and TERRENCE =.=
at first the comm was like saying, "christine foo in grp 2"
den everyone cheered, cuz no one wanted her to be in my team =.= im like WHATTT???!!!!!????? =O??!!!!
den suddenly they say TERRENCE IN MY GROUP OSO
almost fainted la wakaos, double damage leh,
direct kill seh, tmd almost have a heart attk,
den we found out they referring to the other christine and im like THANK U MANNNNN T.T
ehh overall quite fun la =D but then we only went to like 3 stations cuz it was hell long =.=
den met grp 6 on the way :D jiaye was like saying they went vivo eat fries XD PRO LOR, SHUD HAVE JOINED THEM ZZZZ~~

and at city hall mrt station GOT ONE AHLIAN BUAY SONG ME LEH,
TA MA DE, NO BRAIN BITCH~! shes in her 20s den put HELL LOADS OF MAKE UP and FAKE EYELASHES and giving me that STARE.
THINK U BIG ISSIT??!! BRAINLESS LEECH IN SOCIETY, dog-faced BITCH!
becuz i was standing behind her, den doing some weird actions, n she mistook it that i was kanchiong-ing her to go in =.=
even so right, must she be so !@#%$^&&!%!#$@!
walao eh i damn pissed lor you mei you, i how old nia u come buaysong me simi?!
u chio MY ASS LA, not even comparable to RU HUA OK??!!
den she came out, and laughed and STARED AT ME WITH HER FRIEND
zzz im like WTF?!!?!!?!?!!?!!?! chou ah lian~

is THIS PIECE OF CRAP ur definition of your TYPE of girls??
are u SERIOUS??!! are YOU LIKE, KIDDING ME??
wat in the world?!! man, GO AND HAVE AN EXPERIENCE OF THOSE BITCHES for all i care, im SO GONNA GIVE U MY BLESSINGS
u'll probably be FUMING and HATING ME TO THE CORE hearing me say these =.=
hate me for all i care. im not even gonna bother since i can already know what the outcome will be.
i'll bet with u man, im not even afraid of losing now.

sorry, wasted one (two) whole paragraphs on meaningless screaming :) just needed to shout :D
den went to eat dinner with sista danica :D
at first we wanted to go subway, but found out that the tenors (plus a few basses) were having dinner oso, n decided to join them o.o
we went to century food court, and emmaus showed some terrible hand tricks,
HIS HANDS LIKE WITCH CAN OR NOT? THE BONES CAN DISLOCATE AND RELOCATE ONE =.=
i see until gong toot le la @.@ den zhensheng was like laughing all the way and taking sick videos =.=
SADIST XD!
den jesse move veins one =.= he has the ability to allow veins to disappear or pop out =.=
danica was like "one move bones, one move veins, what's happening to the tenor SLs"
i was laughing like shyt lor XD den the whole entire food court ppl was like staring at us XD
but i didnt care la, was laughing too much that moment WAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
we seemed to have a singapore criss angel(s) XD

Hais, at least there's still laughter n peace someone :D
and this made me realise i still have friends always by my side :D
it makes it so much easier to think brightly and always be optimistic :D
tmr got choir :D weeeeeeeeeeeeee hope theres outingggggg o.o
all the best everyone :D STAY HAPPY OK???

Who's the one not in the right mind? who's the one changing?
ur a wonderful person, handsome n smart,
but now, ur losing ur face, ur losing ur senses, ur losing URSELF.
all to what? LOOKS? of whom? if its like someone talented n better, i can live with that.
U know what's becoming of urself. I don't even need to say it.
I dont need a change, instead ur the one changing.
U ended this for all the wrong reasons. but im glad u did. im thankful u did.
becuz ur turning into something i don't recognise anymore.
but i still wish u all the best and hope u will wake up to ur senses and find someone of a better taste, please.

2009-03-13T22:11:00.000+08:00

ZZZZ, im hell stressed out now =.=
SO SO SO SO SOOOOOO STRESSED OUT U'VE NO IDEA .=
ok im definitely exaggerating, watever =.=
like, if u know my CA1 term percentage and L1R5, u'll be like =O
I KNOW SOME OF U DYING TO KNOW. HARNA HARNA, less than 80% =.=
im like dam sad now ok,
n for those who now cursing me saying u all got lower than me, pls la, at least i m DEPROVING =.=
i rather improve than deprove right.
i tot 80%+ hard to get lor, den suddenly got someone from those mugger classes was like "we got 84, 85....%"
its like, i dropped hell alot leh
im so gonna disappoint everyone, especially myself =.=
im probably like, no.50 in the whole lvl =.=

its not becuz i DIDNT WIN ANYONE N STUFF =.= seriously for those shyt ppl out there STOP THINKING OF ME THIS WAY
when i said IM NOT LIKE THAT, MEANS IM NOT LIKE THAT
when u ACCUSE me, u r NOT RESPECTING me,
I HAVE MY OWN PERSONAL GOALS. IF U DONT BELIEVE ME, DEN DONT BOTHER TELLING MY WHAT THE HECK U THINK CUZ I DONT CARE.
just know that if u dont know a person well, just shut up n diam =.=
and as an "I" person, when someone says the wrong stuff, trust me, I WILL REMEMBER U FOREVER,
i wont exactly hate u, but u will be someone i'll rmb for the rest of my lives =.=
I NEVER EVER SAID I WAS PERFECT and I HAVE TO WIN EVERYONE,
ya i wont hate u, but be sure I'LL DEFINITELY RMB U FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE.
damn kuku leh walan eh =.= bui tahan

den choir SYF mr.toh come scare us again say got another audition,
like, i've been trying really hard to practice my singing n my songs,
n i really want to get in SYF. its so friggin important to me =.=
its been on for 2 months, this threaten from mr.toh =.=
yeah i kinda get his intentions of like, forcing us to practice n stuff,
but cant we train in our own SYF + probation groupings??
LIKE FREAKING GUO DONG IS SINGING ALL THE WRONG NOTES BUT HE'S BLASTING LIKE SIAO,
den will influence everyone,
dont go out of tune cai guai right =.=

but chill manjing, its march holidays, its meant for relaxing =.=
i rather make mistakes now in everything than to make it in the future...
DO NOT FEAR ANYTHINGGGGG AND HAVE COURAGEEEE MANJINGGGG :D
becuz courage is not the absence of fear, but it means that something else is more important than fear =D
becuz life is full or risks,
all the more we shudnt fear anything!
ok la i still scared lightning =.= really damn scared...

i just talked to myself. fantastic.
enjoy ur holidays peeps :D
AND MY BDAY AFTER MARCH HOLIDAYSSSS XD BUY ME PRESENTSSSSSS!!!

cheers.

hais....
it's been 2 weeks since we've contacted...
and every saturday is really, really depressing for me...
u dont even speak to me. i think u've forgotten who i am by now ba =.=
=.= i bet ur enjoying ur life now with all those...whatevers...
see ur msn name so positive and so many weird names...
at least ur happy...thats definitely a better way to spend ur time...
rang zi ji kuai le kuai le, zhe cai jiao zuo yi yi, dui ma?
its good to be able to forget me =) the pain is lesser, isn't it?
I'm still trying to make it through this obstacle everyday :)
and i know i'm gonna make it through...
so pls don't worry that i'm clinging on to u n i'm like a annoying-despo-immature girl who doesn't know how to let go...
i'm jus trying to go through this by myself...
becuz i know i'll become stronger =) right?
it's just a matter of time if i can forget u or not...
actually right now, i'll do anything to forget u...anything...
if there's this memory pill, i would have bought it =.=
lols, again, u left at the wrong time =.=
when i desperately needed someone the most...
but it's ok, xiia0manman can overcome anything =D
cuz she will continue to smile :) becuz she knows its worth it ^^
i wish u all the best, in finding ur special someone.
goodbye.

2009-03-11T18:32:00.001+08:00

Paiseh, i deleted my previous post.
for those who read it, ok congrats, got more stuffs to gossip =.=
for those who didnt read it, firstly, I REVIVED MY BLOG AGAINNNN =.=
and e reasons for dlting my previous posts,
no.1) too emo-ish
no.2) its stupid
no.3) omgosh i shudnt have let anyone read it =.=

basically, its stupid.
y even bother posting about HIM?
is HE even worth it?
NO =.=?
wth what was i thinking???
and this morning me n my friend were like talking,
and he suddenly said "i read ur blog"
and im like "WATTTTTTTTT =.=????!!!"

ok la quite happy la, cuz just revived blog den super ulu =.=
very sad leh, 3 days bo tag and im like WTF =.=
den my dear cousin tagged =) THANKS KOR~
ok, anyways, i will still wanna keep the first paragraph :D

DISCLAIMER: XIIA0MANMAN is currently going through a super tough time and very very emotionally unstable. She will always lose her siao-ness when alone and during at night and loves to dao ppl or walk unstably. She suddenly become very unwary of her surroundings and keep almost-banging into cars and get herself killed. HA. So DO NOT bother her during night time because she will end up screaming at ur face.

i seriously have no idea why i suddenly become liddat,
cuz today when i walked home with gen, i again, almost get knocked over by a damn car
and im like "FREAK U LA DAM CAR" (pms, omgosh)
apparently everyday kinda sucked =.= like, i so badly need sweets to boost my energy n siao-ness lvl up in class
and for the DISC personality test, i got I =D
so i can become a potential oprah WAHAHAHAHAA
val say i dont look like an I person leh o.o
personally, deep in my heart, i oso dont think i I person =.=
but they ask IN ANGLICAN HIGH ma, in AHS i am an I person =D
very very hyper like siao,
ok la depends la, now im currently not that high
but i soon will be =) IT WILL GET BETTER IN TIMEEEE~
becuz i DO have a sense of urgency,
and i dont really like procrastinating stuff,
but im quite talkative n make alot of silly comments during class time =.=
which SOME presumed it to be IMMATURE MUAHAHHAHA,
nvm, got ppl know who i am jiu ke yi le =.=

tmr got AMaths test, i still blogging o.o
*TEST TUBES ARE ANNOYING*
but i promise ppl make jiu make ba =D WE CAN DO IT DE TESTTUBE TEAMMMM
ok, i understand its my fault for not being able to make enough testtubes in time n stuff =.=
but uhh, its really, REALLY tough n difficult to make a test tube, and the orders r really complicated n kinda messed up so,
i hope everyone can understand, n give us our utmost support =.=
as u can see, my face is kinda black n emo-ish everytime during testtube-making-time
cuz im really under alot of pressure and worrying if i will be able to complete the orders in time =.= (seriously, im damn scared)
and got alot of rubbish probs coming out la, sister scold me somemore =(
i need to de-stress, realllll bad
ok, im going out with XUEYI on saturday anyways :D
saturdays r always emo-ish for me =.= hopefully this saturday is a hyper one

sorry everyone for not-being-myself and being very pms and kbkp n very ap at some times =(((
forgive me, i promise i will become xiia0manman in a short period of time :D

2008-12-30T20:27:00.000+08:00

today i wan blogged about something both happy and sad o.o
LOL WAHAHAHHAHAHAHA THIS SENTENCE SOUND DAMN WEIRD~
anyway, cuz my sister complete her A levels, and got like half a year holiday, (DAMN IT, I KNOW)
den she going china for 2 months =.=
I WAN CRY LE LA MY GOSH~
now i at home lonely like SHYTTTT, as in literally lonely to DEATH~!!!
only got my ahma uncle and cat lehhhhhhsss =.=
wah lan eh kill me laaaa!! I CANNOT TAHAN DE ZZZ~
ok i can but i will be very depressed i tink o.o LOLS

i wan cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry. no la jk LOLS~~
but then, because my sister leaving for 2 months, her boyfriend allow me to have the custody of his PSP for 2 months XD
WAHAHAHAHA~~!!! PSP LEH!!!
ok la, not PSP slim, but whats the diff la =.= the slim one oso not say very slim ma~
and i tink he actually like, went to the real PSP shop in JAPAN and went to buy it =.= in other words, original~
its in WHITEEE XD XD XD
whoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooots~~~~ never even have gameboy jiu kena PSP WAHAHAHHAAHA,
i will soon get bored of it anyways, 2 months good le good le ^^

sian, so fast start school le =(
3 more days T.T NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!~
wonder if anyone got any changes to themselves lol XD
3D ahh....3D....lols
i think i better like plan to meet up with ppl before entering the room ba o.o so scary zzz
enjoy the last 72 hours ba. jiayou.

2008-12-28T15:07:00.000+08:00

OHMYTIANS o.o
i didnt blog for one month o.o
aiya not that bad la XD

changed my blog song le =.= that JJ song abit lao liao~
SIAN LOR, i wanted to find fall out boy's new album, folie a deux de "Headfirst slide into cooperstown on a bad bet" or "american suitehearts" den dont have ZZZ~~
(dont ask me why they have such long n weird names, i have no idea oso)
BUT HEYYYY XD THE FRAY ROCKS TOO OK!!!~~
this song playing now, "You found me" got alot of meaning de. Slowly think ba.
Everyone song de lyrics got deep meanings de. It's sometimes quite interesting if we were to think abt it slowly XD

damn sian leh, i never blog so long, so many good memories never record hais =(
sad. so sad. so so so so sad.
did i tell you i watched TWILIGHT 3 times ^^?
COME ON, ITS EDWARD T.T ALL THE MORE WE HAVE TO WATCH LIKE CRAZY~~
got some fans watch twilight until 16 times lor zzz~ THAT IS really damn hiong ok o.O
anyone completed homework X)?
i havent complete yet ZZZ~~~ holidays must enjoy ma, den suddenly the homework pop out,
the chinese one is the most ma fan and jia lat la =.=
especially the san guo yan yi =.= wakao, every chapter like got ppl die lor =.=
im like "WTH ZZZ"
then everyone betray each other, den hate each other for nothing, den kill here kill there...wah buay tahan, so boring like what leh =.=
i cannot even bring myself to flip the pages lor, but i managed to finish it zzz~

SS PROJECT IS FUNNNNNN~~~~~ but creating questions is boring lols~
my team is : LINDY :D XUEYI :D HWEEFEN :D and WEIZHANGGGGG~~
ok i know u all laughing right zzz~ STOP LAUGHING =.=
we went to sentosa fort siloso XD HAHAHAH~~!! VELLI FUN U KNOW??!!
everyone go museums n stuff, we GO SENTOSA N PLAY XD XD XD
but then confirm our trail wont kena chosen la, go sentosa need $3, go inside fort siloso another $8, dr.boon wan spend so much money is miracle lor =.=
but hey, its not about the winning, its abt the process~ we all rather have fun den to be bored the entire day walking around unfascinating stuffs right?
P.S we actually wan cheat the auntie that we still below 12, can take the $5 ticket for children. Den cuz weizhang that day wear and look most like xiao boy boy right, we ask him go help us buy children tickets, den when he go there and said we're below 12 he started laughing and all of us laughed =.= PLAN FAILLLLLLLEDDD XD XD XD but nvm la, still quite fun~
Then the tour guide so kind lor, give us his email so we can ask him questions XD
and im like "rather give him the entire project den he do =.="
DEN SHYT LA, I FORGOTTEN HIS EMAIL!!!!
DAMN IT~~~~ DAMN DAMN DAMN DAMN IT~~~
nvm, we also finishing the project anyways ^^

uhh, very late liao, but still, MERRY CHRISTMAS =D
let's all countdown to new year hehe XD
i cant wait for chinese new year lor zzz~
i SERIOUSLY...SERIOUSLY NEED ANGBAOS, holiday splurge too much on movies n outings, bo money liao ~~~
this year i dont care how far my relatives live, I DIE DIE MUST GO ALLLLLL MY RELATIVES HOUSE AND GET ANGBAOS. THE MORE THE MERRIER.
choir sec2 batch outing on 29 dec =D HOORAY WE'RE GOING TO SENTOSAAAA!! (again)

and hey ppl, britney's circus rocks ok =.=
for chinese songs ah...luo zhi xiang, fei lun hai and wang li hong the new albums out liao, go check it out hor~
den jus now i heard luo zhi xiang's album...ok la, not as good as his previous one =.=
someone commented that "he sounds like a cat screaming"
LOL i laugh like shyt~
ahhh my dear DBSK bo new songs =( SAD.
and today's sunday. boring day.
cheers.

2008-11-29T17:42:00.000+08:00

WAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA I WATCHED TWILIGHT LIAO I WATCHED TWILIGHT LIAO WAHAHAHAHAHAHA~~~!!!
so funny so funny HEHHHH I WATCH LIAO LEH!!! U ALL HAVENT YET RIGHT??!!!!
AIYA SO SAD WAHAHAHA XDXDXDXDDXXDXDXDXDX
so cool lor, can watch before it even came out XD MUAHAHAHAH~~~
aiya cuz america there hor come out le ma, so internet they also upload,
SO I FOUND IT HEEEEEEEEE :D
soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo nice lor ~!!!
ok actually, its not as good as the book =.= of coz, no films are as good as they books,
becuz in some scenes in which the book described it soooo detail-ly and intricately hor, the film jus passes it off in a few seconds,
like u know the car stopping part? the book was saying what edward carry the car la, holding bella in another arm, swinging the car around,
den the movie is like "BOOM" he put out his hand and stop it,
and im like " =.= thats it?"
YA VERY STRONG VERYYYY STRONG =.=
but as long as can see the movie i shooooooo happy le HEEEEHEEEEEE
tell u hor, the kissing part right,
they never play any music lehs, so means they just continue kissing hor,
then the kissing sound can be heard =.=
so halfway kissing im like "uhhhhh =.= you yi dian...zzz"
cuz the disgusting squelching sound lor LOLLLSLSSS T.T
anyways, edward n bella ARE HOT HOT HOTHOT together,
althoughh i know i loveeee edward alot ^^
EDWARD CULLEN FTW!!

anyone who wans the link, it is http://movie6.net/movie-/
immediately front page is "BAM!" TWILIGHTTTTTT~~~
aaahahahahahahaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh~~!!
wo yao fa fong liaooooo!!! AAAAAAAAAAHHHH!!!
must watch must watch heehee XD
den movie come out watch again!!
I DONT CARE HOW MANY TIMES MUST WATCH, I WILL WATCH IT LIKE CRAZY!!
ni kan ba edward, wei le ni wo xi sheng LE ^.^
jkjk, sooooooo happy got watch it liaooooo~
i think jasper looks cool too, and alice is soooo alicey =D
and i tot victoria was much chio-er than rosalie =.= so much for being the most beautiful =X
james oso hot lols, too bad he die so early, den future films bo him lor =(
carlisle and esme looks sooooooo fatherly n motherly,
carlisle is cool too :D ESME LOOKS SOOOO SOFT N CARING!!
hmm still got who lehhs o.o
JACOB IS SHYT LA!!!
boo u la jacob, i really really dont like u =.=
IN REAL LIFE AND IN STORYBOOK =.=
the taylor lautner (acting as jacob) is younger than kristen stewart lorrrrrr T.T
PFFFFFFFT THEN THEY KISSING IN BOOK 3!!! AAAAHHH!!!
no no no NOOOOOO cannotttttttttt~~

im really very very tired D:
cuz ytd came back super late, was in harmony concert :D
not to watch the concert but to help out with the make-up =D
charis, alvina, yingjun, valerie, eugenia and me were helping out YAYYY~~!
at first i was helping one dance girl put glitter on her eye, den i overly put den like screw up =X
HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE I SOOOOO PAISEH N SO GUILTY T.T
im like "sorry sorry!!"
aahhh >< but then I SAW XUEYIII =D
DEN OF COZ I DRAG HER LOR ^^ HEEHEEEEEE~~
aiyo she so white still wan become more white, im like "WTH ni yi jing gou bai hai yao geng bai =.="
shes VELLI CHIO THAT NIGHT OKAYS -.-
of coz la, i make up one ma ^^ jkjk
i only do foundation and eye, rest she do le XD
in the end im walking around doing eyeliner for ppl,
i was holding the eyeliner pencil and was shouting all around, "WHO NEEDS EYELINER, WHO NEEDS EYELINER" lols
EHHH DONT XIAO KAN ME HOR, my eyelining technique good okay XD
basically thats the only thing i wont screw up lols XD
HEEEEE i was so happy that i helped =D I MET SO MANY NEW FRIENDS N NEW PPL I CAN SAY HI TO NEXT TIME =D
especially got one CD guy called eugene, sec 1, who acts as a flower swaying =.=
im like "you act as what?"
den he hung his head and said "flower. swaying flower"

LOLS!!
of coz i laugh like shyt la, come here to act as flower lols, SO CUTEEEEE T.T
den mrskoh was like "MUST HELP HIM PUT EYESHADOW AND BLUSHER RED RED, SO WILL LOOK LIKE FLOWER"
of coz i spammed =D LIKE ITS SOOOOOOO NAN DE GOT GUY I CAN MAKE UP ON LORHHHS!!! XD
im sorraye eugene XD
i oso make up another infocomm guy, sec3, name like sheng siong la hor,
den at first he oso loitering around like eugene, so i tot he oso CD and sec1, so im like "YOU, COME HERE"
den in the end he sec 3 =.=
im like =O uh oh~
lolllllllllSSS~~ den i was like "u act what leh?"
he oso hung head reply "A TREE"
den i laugh even louder =.= wth la how come all act these stuffs lol,
den i anyhow do his makeup, he look like ghost T.T i wan laugh liao lolllllsss SOOO FUNNY LOR,
look freaking scary,
but im like "ur a tree anyway LOLS"
den when we saw them on stage we all going to laugh our heads off =.=
especially me and valerie LOLS, CUZ THEY WERE LIKE SWAYING UNTIL SO CUTE LIDDAT!!
ya den keep laughing lols XD
my eyeshadow techniques is acceptable la :D bu yong pa bu yong~
i only scared glitter =.= wo bu yao zuo glitter liao lolss~~
but hey, EYELINER GIRL HERE XD
next time who need eyeliner find me hor lols!!

2008-11-27T23:08:00.000+08:00

Hais
saw another news lorh.
The mumbai terrorist blasts de lor lols.
seriously la, is there a need?

like, over 100+ ppl are dead there =.=
im like "O.O WHAT?!"
i know now i sad or anything hor is oso no use de,
but den...like..."YOU BI YAO MA?"
den hold ppl hostages la...
whats wrong with them, frankly =.=
if they hate the world so much, go jump down the window themselves la
like do they have any respect for human lives?
they make it so insignificant and kill them all just like ants =.=
if its u, u oso cannot stand it ah,
those ppl have futures n dreams n loved ones,
and some are even babies =.=
must they be so cruel n heartless?
is like, AIYA I DUNNO LA,
they have soooo much to complain, and expressed it in such a, mean cruel way of massacreing the entire country =.=
how much horror must the ppl there live through?

suddenly, i feel soooo relieved to know that im safe in singapore,
not really guarantee-ing that we're 100% safe, but at least for now we are.
and to think like, quite a number of us chose india as a place of destination to replace china for our fellow juniors next year,
LOLS DIE LIAO LA,
so dangerous, let them go there is sacrificing them le
NO NO NO, CHANGE TO INDONESIA LOLS, DONT WAN INDIA LIAO XD
sorry ah junior, bu shi gu yi choose india for u la LOL T.T

hais, when do all the bloodshed stop leh?
no such thing as world peace liao la =.=

2008-11-26T12:54:00.000+08:00

WAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAH!!1
i know la i know la velli velli long never post you mei you ^^

im recovering from a rEALLY REALLY SIAO SICKNESS~
last thursday hor, dunno why after choir n lunch i kena fever lor,
its just like, so sudden =.= i felt muscle aches over my body, den really severe headache,
den i got home i need to lie down and rest le =.=
and next day, i was bedridden T.T

eeeeeeeeeeeeeeee I HATE FEVER LARRHSSS~
soooo xin ku lor, really really hellllll xin ku =.=
and not only that, i vomited like shyt in the night T.T
VOMIT !! LIKE WTH RIGHT?!!
first time vomit right, at least got something come out la, cuz is a while after dinner (i didnt even eat much)
den second time vomit is like, ok,
den third time like nothing to vomit out already lor,
im like "WTH LA NOTHING TO VOMIT THE STOMACH SO STUBBORN WAN PUI SOMETHING OUT"
idiot la walao =.=

ah den next day go see doctor hor,
the people go inside damnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn friggin long,
like 30 mins leh zzz
i go there 8 mins nia, they go like, take forever
so serious de hua go take ambulance to hospital la =.=
seriously la, next time can take shorter time or not zzz
whole world waiting for them leh =.=

i need antibiotics lol XD
now, fever subsided le hor,
kena cough la =.=
doctor warned me already, saying the cough might come later,
eeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~~~~~~
JUST KILL ME U KNOW,
since when am i so easily like, succumbed to all these stupid illness???
HATE IT LA HATE IT LAAAAAAA
not strong liao, metabolism rate all slow down liao,
i need vitamin C pills lol =.= go buy~
last time i hardly fall sick lor you mei you?
den now come one whole bunch of, coughs n fevers zzz
yao si liao yao si liao...
heeeeee~

my sister jus went for her chalet T.T
IM ALONEEEEEEEEE!!! HEEEE!!!
so sad leh, really lonely lor,
nobody pei me go shopping oso, hais...
can anyone organise some outings =.= its really getting sooo boring that im almost dreading for school Zzz
oh ya, i shud go buy breaking dawn den indulge in it jiu shi lor ^^
long time never read the twilight saga book series leeee ><
MY EDWARDDDDD T.T
edwardsssss HOT HOTTTTT!!
im craving for pizzas =.= and plums =.=
LOL all the p's ahahahaha~
ok i go down buy plums le F3 pffffft~

2008-11-15T19:53:00.000+08:00

I just did something really bad.

I just bought a keyboard on my own without my parent's knowledge and with my grandma's help.

THIS IS SO AWESOMELY COOL MAN~~~~~!!!

and hey, at least its MY money right?

as in i saved all my angbaos n school de money den accumulate de OKAY???? =.=

ya i didnt earn it, but PPL GIVE ME DE WHAT i oso bo pian but to receive it ma XD

so its mine, and I WANT A DAMN KEYBOARD!

my parents dont allow me to buy a keyboard,

becuz when i was small, i had a piano, but i didnt wan to learn so they gave it away =.=

and im like "small that time u all force me to play leh"

and now is i ownself wan to play.

AND IM NOT SPOILT OK,

if u all remember hor, got one chinese comprehension on the piano thingy right?

that the woman small that time dont like play piano, in the end grow up become piano teacher,

same principal ma =.=

somemore is KEYBOARD NIA =.=

no big deal larhs -.-

u guess how much only la

150 only leh~

AT LEAST COMPARED TO YAMAHA NOW SELLING CHEAPEST 800+ DOLLARS~

so cheappppppppppppppppppp~

how the hell do u get a keyboard for 150 dollars lol~

FREAK U YAMAHA XD

of course is second hand la, from other ppl,

but they hardly use it ma, somemore good condition,

BUY LA =.=

somemore christmas sale now, everyone all bu guan liao le la all spend money =.=

i already begging for keyboard for 1 year liao =.= thats it, i wan to buy it liao if they not allow~

not i not xiao shun ta men la, i mean like,

come on la KEYBOARD LEHHHHHHH =.=

oso not say gigantic piano =.=

whats life without being rebellious once in a lifetime ?

shhhhhhhhhhhhhhh dont tell them XD heehee

i got think of excuse liao =D

i say ppl dont wan then gimme lor ^^

aiya come on, i feel bad doing this stuff =.=

but I REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY WANT IT ALOT.

it can work for years. just buy it =.=

can train vocal techniques somemore, lagi best XD

need meet that person at boon keng mrt leh =.= lols so far!!!

and im gonna carry the huge gigantic keyboard all around the bus =.= eeeeeeks~

and yeah, pictures =D i show u rihanna de hor XD

oh my freakin god.

the red arrow is pointing to rihanna lehhh XD

then the two angmoh guys infront is her "body guards"

and got another two women beside her is her girlfriends XD

yeah man, I SAW RIHANANAANANANANNA~~~

sorry cannot capture her face =.=

too small, n my hp dunno why cannot zoom =X

chalet that time me n linying gone abit crazy,

and we did some artistic stuffs with the mahjong =.=

LINYING STARTED IT XD

lazy to make in horizontal la, leave it liddat =.=

and as u can see, its my name =.=

HEEHEEEE~~~

when i finally got my keyboard i show u the pic lor~

ciao, got to go XD

2008-11-13T20:21:00.000+08:00

i saw rihanna today.

I SAW FREAKIN RIHANNA TODAY!!!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH@@@@@@@@@@!!!!1

do you have ANY IDEA how freaking crazy it is to me?
ya i know most of u think i am crazy,
of coz la, i saw RIHANNA, WHY WOULDNT I BE CRAZY??
and i didnt see her in her concert, i see her shopping IN THE MIDDLE OF THE STREETS OF BUGIS??????
WTH WTH WTH WTH AHHHH~~~~
siao liao le la!!! RIHANNA LEH PPL,
even bigger than cai yi lin or zhou jie lun, the INTERNATIONALLY known famous RnB queen RIHANNAAAAA!!!!
i wouldnt be as crazy if i saw any chinese stars la!
like, ppl in america or other american/european countries would be CRAZY to see rihanna,
AND SHES RIGHT HERE IN THE MIDDLE OF THE ASIAN ISLAND CALLED SINGAPORE!!!
dont say im siao, when U SAW HER URSELF i can bet u all would be as crazy as me~

me yeeying joyce n rachel went out today =D
to buy clothes for farewell =X i didnt lol, cuz i had one liao~
AND WE SAW FREAKING RIHANNA =D SHE SOOOOO CHIOOOO T.T
i know, i didnt even talk or shake hands with her =.=
BUT SEEING IS ENOUGH LE LA!
i never thought i would EVER see any like, those famous famous singers in my whole entire life lor~
at first i saw alot of ppl gathering at a shop in bugis...
den im like "someone died ah?"
den when we walk nearer, we saw this woman lor...
den im like "who is that?"
then yeeying say "OMGOSH IS TYRA BANKS"
im like =.= uhh~ LOL YEEYING XD
tyra banks now in amsterdam with the models from america's next top model cycle 11 for the filming =.=
(i know, im a BIG BIG BIG fan of ANTM, and i've been watching it in youtube every week)
den i go nearer, n im like "NO WAY"
"ITS RIHANNA~~~~~~ OMGOSH ITS RIHANNA!!!!!!"
den im like, of all places to go, why come to singapore =.=?
den i remember she got concert T.T WAHLAO EH I WAN GO LA!
DEN TICKET SO EX, DEN SOMEMORE SOLD OUT!
somemore tmr the concert liao heehee =D

crazy le la rihanna is shopping in bugis!!!
we were only like, less than 5 metres away from her,
den later we stop watching n continue shop hor,
den halfway walk we bump into rihanna,
not exactly into HER, shud be into her guards or sth =X
DEN I STOPPED BREATHING,
of course she continue walking la =.= she didnt see us =(
then yeeying was like "WE WERE JUST LESS THAN 1 METER AWAY FROM HER!"
n im like "OMGOSHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
im freaking crazy abt it ok?
never in my whole life have i even seen a celebrity on street la,
not even a chinese one lor =.=
and im like "AAAHAHHHHHH ITS RIHANNNAAAAAA~~~"

rihanna rocks la,
her singing is, straight on powerful like hell,
ok to put it simply, SHE IS DA QUEEN OF RnB MAN PPL,
nobody STANDS A CHANCE when she's around XD
btw, when i saw her, im like "why she so little bodyguards?"
i tot like shud be alot alot bodyguards,
heck it, they r not even bodyguards =.= some angmohs walking with her =X
n im like "wheres chrisbrown? shudnt he be protecting her XD?"
wah i tell u, i see chris brown n rihanna, double attack sia =.=
i will FAINT~~~~~`
ppl, jus think as if u saw ur favourite idol,
shes my favourite man, i love her =.=
AND I SAW HERRRRR!!!
i love today man =.= LOLSSSSSSSS~~~
aiya u all hav no idea la =.= im really really....
dont wan say le XD

sorry la lemme shout one more time =.= paiseh~

I SAW RIHANNAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!

i will edit this post n put some pics of her (yes, i took it =.=)
but my hp like, cannot zoom leh, den only can mildly see her body =X
SHES TALL N GLAMOROUS OK? i tot she quite....average height =.= man, she's tall lols~~~~~
YOU CAN BE MY CINDERELLA, ELLA ELLA EHH EHHH EHHH~~~

2008-11-10T19:34:00.000+08:00

umm...this post is gotta be like...weird o.O
anyways, for those reading my posts now...
THANK YOU SO MUCH~
i mean u might find it weird but,
seriously, i m so so so grateful to those who r actually willing to read my posts.
ok maybe u jus like shun bian shun bian glance,
but then, u know, the fact that u even CLICKED my link
omgosh, i love u all sooooo much
i didnt though anyone would read such crappy posts...
SERIOUS SERIOUS FROM THE GODDAMN BOTTOM OF MY HEART,
im sooooooo delighted n grateful to know tat there r ppl reading,
u guys actually spared time jus to read my crappy n shyt posts,
omgosh, thank u really alot !!
and i know i posted too much words =.=
im gonna try n post some pictures today XD

stomachache~
crap~
anyways, had choir today :D
TALKED GHOST STORIES LOL!!
den yeeying kena freaked out n screamed like hell XD
LOL YEEYING~~~
den becuz we screamed too much, den cornelius came down to remind us,
den he like, pop out his head from the wall,
den we saw it we kinda freaked out and i was like "AHHHH!!!!"
CORNELIUS =.=
lol lol lol so funny la XD
ppl, the clock tower ghost is true hor, beware orh ^^
WAHAHHAHAAH IT WAS SO FUNNY LA I CANNOT STOP LAUGHING XD

congrats to junwen n edbert for passing campus superstar audition first round ^^
WE HAVE AHS PPL SINGING DUDESSSS~~`
CHEER CHEER CHEERRRRR XD
anyways moving on,
someone is stealing someone very important from me o.O
first time experience de leh you mei you
as in that someone who is stealing is a stranger~
man i can be a bitch all i wan XDDDD
LIKE THIS IS THE TIME TO LET LOOSEEEEEE???!!!
no la no la,
i'll let fate or nature takes its courseeeee =D
aheehee~

im lazy to get my ipod fixed.
anyone wanna help =.=?
hey uhh, can i post the pics like, later on?
i dont feel like writing blog anymore o.o pffff
laterXD

2008-11-09T20:53:00.000+08:00

im going to china.
my final decision. with my sister.
i remembered how i was in tears on the phone hearing my him shouting n threatening me n stuffs.
and then her telling me that it was okay that i don't go.
they missed me. much more than i do.
and this made me feel really guilty~
one of my besties friend (not gonna tell ya XD) says that family is also important too.
of course. i do miss them, alot...
and even if im happy with myself being here, they r not...
how can i be so selfish?
man i m piece of sai =.=

n im not gonna let my sister sit alone in the aeroplane anymore =)
i wanna be on that flight with her and laugh, joke, n talk,
n be someone in who she can confided in...
this is like, so far, the bestest yr i've bonded with her...
u have no idea how distant we were all these yrs, n only recently i can feel that at least i had someone with me...
n i know that i cant stop stealing her stuffs =.= she got so many stuffs to steal ma~
its not like i had a choice in which both sides r good...
is like, very zuo you wei nan lor...
if only my life was as simple as everyone's, at least where aeroplanes n tickets need not be considered...
and overseas trip will be only one week~
my life around here, has so much meaning to me, becuz i lived here all my life?
too much meaning, that is so oblivious to me...
hais, im in such a dilemma~
of course i admit, the reason i wanna go is becuz i wanna go is also for future choir trips in june.
im very sure, my parents wouldnt allow me to go for any trips next year if i didnt join them this yr~ =.=
im not skipping any choir...
if there wasn't an upcoming performance, i swear to god that i would skip...
but there is, sadly,
like, i suck very badly liao, so i need more training =.=?

so seriously, to have like, them in somewhere else, not being with me daily,
its NOT COOL AT ALL~
like WHY THE EFFING HELL DOES EVERYONE SAYS THAT?
i mean i would really trade almost anything to exchange lives with u people~
im not saying that my life sucked as bad as other ppl~
but i dont think its cool at all, seriously. im sorry.

what's holding me back is what's preventing me from moving on...
but I can't hold on to it forever.
sometimes, we have to let go of it...
and letting it go may be the most beautiful thing one would have done on earth.

so im going on man,
cuz i know if i didnt go this time,
i wouldnt have any determination to go on next time...
anyways, u all would receive presents from me XD
BECUZ EVERYTHING IN CHINA IS GODDAMN CHEAP XD
come on, u can get a pair of earrings for 2 dollars instead of 10 dollars,
u all will be hell grateful to me, i promise =.=
anyone needs to buy any stuff =.=?
notebooks, pens? china got hell lots of it~
just say "ni bu gei wo na wo jiu zou le"
den dey'll be like "hao hao hao suan shi ni de ba, hui lai"

COOL RIGHT? i know XD
it'll be fun, but i dont think im seeing the dead emperor~
I DONT WISH TO SEE THE DEAD MAN =.=
i dont CAREEEEEE n cannot be BOTHERED to even seeee him
or rather, TO EVEN THINK ABT IT~
no more coffins n tombs, i had enough in the china trip wif the school =.=
time for some ShOpPiNg n loads of fun xD

crap.
im gonna take air china again =.=

2008-11-09T13:25:00.000+08:00

TO THINK IM LIVING IN LIKE HELL MISERY RIGHT NOW.
not really that bad actually, its just slightly better than the previous breakdown~

LIKE, if i do not go to china this year to see my parents, im not able to go for any trips overseas at all~
ANY TRIPS~~
there r many reasons why i do not wan to go~
like firstly, its friggin boring, like CHINA AGAIN =.=
i only see ppl spitting out saliva onto the ground n cheap stuffs to buy for all my friends~
even its in BEIJING, the olympic venue,
ITS STILL BORING IN A WAY THAT I CANT BE BOTHERED TO GO AGAIN =.= like i just went there earlier this year, n finally get to SEE the forbidden palace for the FIRST time in my life~
going with the school was even more boring. cant even get to go to red bridge (hongqiao) to buy those cheapskate jewellery or notebooks~
and this yr my dad wanted to bring us go to the terracota o.o?
aiya the qinshihuang tomb lor, and im like,
DO I CARE WHETHER ITS HIS TOMB OR NOT =.=?
if he's alive, den yeah i would LOVE to go there,
but HES A FRIGGIN DEAD MAN~ IM NOT GONNA SACRIFICE MYSELF!!!

and im being threatened~! effing threaten~
like, me parents accused me that i DO NOT WANT TO SEE THEM when i said i didnt wan to go, or rather, i COULDNT!
WHICH GODDAMN CHILD DOESNT MISS THEIR PARENTS?!
i stayed becuz i love choir too and i dont wan to miss any practices,
especially when we're having a performance in I-DONT-KNOW-WAT-IT-IS
when i know that i sucked enough already n i need more training~
of course, who doesnt wan to take a breather n escape from this stupid island?

this is so shitty~
and someone in choir is ANGRY or SAD or I DUNNO WHAT SHYT with me
for...i dont really wanna talk abt it
the whole world is angry with me for god's sake
like DO I HAVE A CHOICE~
im not gonna commit suicide now, im not that depressed~

like, i oso wan to go to china to escape from all this mess SO MUCH~
but thats meaning escaping from my problems ~
i really really hate myself...alot
im now in a terribleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee situation~
N SERIOUSLY, i dont wan my emotions get in my way of my friends n stuff
=.= im gonna be ok i think =.= argh

2008-11-08T18:05:00.000+08:00

Actually i have two super emo posts like 2 weeks or a week ago, but i deleted it because seriously i don't think anyone should see it =.=
i know it doesnt make sense.
i mean, i don't like to be seen as weak~
IM STRONG XD

today theres choir....
alright heck it, every week i have 3 choir practices...
well im 85% happy 15% unhappy~
DEFINITELY becuz i loveeeee choir sooooo much and loveeeee allllll the singerellas inside there and im glad to be able to spend the entire holidays with them,
unhappy becuz, in a way or another, its quite time consuming n tiring n pressurizing,
at least for me =.=
but today wasn't a good day for me~
ok la, half half XD
now my mood abit pissed~
no.1, MY IPOD IS SPOILED!
like FOR HEAVEN'S SAKE, DAMN THAT STUPID BUBBLE TEA~
becuz i went to the library, i hid my bubble tea in my bag hor, den it spilled all over...
I KNOW I CANT DEFY GRAVITY N ITS MY FAULT FOR PUTTING THAT DAMN TEA IN MY BAG~
but let me complain yi xia ma,
I CANNOT LIVE WITHOUT MY IPOD~~
its like, sooooo damn friggin important becuz all my songs r in there~
and listening to it really calms my emotions n let me enjoy peace~
im serious, its hell useful
thats why every morning i would hear it on my way to whatever destination cuz,
it lets me think alot of stuff~ reflect, whatsoever,
tats why if i dao u on my way to school, dont blame it on me becuz im having a one to one time with myself =.=
BUT NOW ITS GONEEEEEE~
i wanna cry T.T no la i jus go send to repair la hor~
kaoz, this will burn a hole in my pocket lor T.T

no.2, THE CLASS LIST THAT IS BEING PASSED AROUND IS REAL!!
like OMYGOSH WAT E HELL???!!!!!
ok, sorry for being so negative future 3D`09 people,
im oso, both happy n unhappy (how can anyone be fully happy, come on =.=)
happy cuz can meet some old 1B`07 friends, qingying ah, gary ah, and also my FUTURE 3D`09 BESTYBUDDY N BESTYFRIEND yeeying =D
we decided to stick together cuz none of our close friends are with us =.=
people, dont still her away XD SHES MINEEEE~
two cliques of 2C`08 r going together =) (i oso hate to say this, but yes its 2 cliques)
sad, we're not the most no. of students from an individual class in 3D, the winner is 2G.
and oso cuz there r many strangers =D not like im soooo excited, but its nice to make new friends =.=

UNHAPPY~~~~~~
becuz ok, im like 1% happy that im not gonna see some kind of 3D`09-seemed-as-if-its-eating-glass-n-very-ignorant-abt-whatever-actions (if you know what i mean) but 99% sad for those birdies that they r separated...
like hey, who doesnt feel the pain?
and, i think it will still last ba...(hopefully)
sad leh, quite little funny ppl in my class =(
skaeli 3D no life how?
we r 3 dimensional anyways =.= we got some kind of life (i guess)
of course, there r a few ppl (actually only one) that i dont really enjoy being with,
not that i dislike her, we jus have some probs...(oh no i just said the gender =.=)
ok, hopefully we can get along, but i doubt so...
ahh well, since when can a person get along with everyone else ^^?

im gonna miss 2C definitely...
though theres troubles here n there, overall it has to be memorable~
ok la, i preffered 2nd semester than to 1st semester XD
but if u wanna say the chalet, 2C IS ROCK ON MUCH MUCHHHHHH BETTER THAN 1B,
its 100 : 1, its friggin bad ass~
at least I GET TO SLEEP ON A BED~
like, I GET TO SLEEP ON A BED~
a BED ok? u know how friggin hard it is jus to LIE on a bed in the 1B chalet?
HECK i didnt even slept on the sofa chair at all, i slept on a effing dining chair~
im not gonna say what happened, the memory is indescribable~
and EVERYONE in the class get a say in the plannings of the chalet~
show me a single person in 2C who doesnt love 2C and the chalet n NO there is none ^^

hais...guess my job as welfare of 2C`08 is ending...
though how much i hate noticeboard competitions, its really fun working with you guys =)
becuz of all of us, we r able to get top 3 in all the competitions...
though its actually deproving downwards -.-
but im very sure that im not going to be welfare for 3D next yr,
its freaking time-consuming n troublesome =.= trust me
2C I LOVE YOU!
I WONT FORGET U ALL~

i done no homework.
damn it.
dont plan to anyways =.=
so in my boringness time, i made up a 3D`09 class list =D

WELCOME TO 3D`09~
we're dimensional :D

2A
CHEN LIWEN SERENE
CRYSTAL CHAN SHU ZHENG
GOH SHI RUI VALERIE
KWA YAN XIU JOSEPHINE
2B
CHIAN QING YING
CHONG YEE YING
HAZEL TAN XIN WEI

2C
GOH HUI MIN JACQUELINE
GOH SI YI CLARISSA
KONG MAN JING
LIM MEI TING CELINE
LINDY SIM HUI JING
GEORGE FONG JIA JUN
LEE KIAT SWEE ISAAC

2D
CHOW ZHI LI KELLY
DANIELLE CHAN XIN YUN
MARILYN SONG YILING
LANCE TAY JUN HONG
LOUIS LIM YING WEI

2E
CHONG YAN YAN
TAN RUI HAN
DEXTER THNG KAI HAO
MARCUS TAN JIAN HAO

2F
CHERYL ANG LI LING
NG WEN TI KEITH

2G
ANNABELLA TOCK LING LING
CHOO YU LING CLARICE
MANDY CHNG REN HUI
CHEE PING YI SAMUEL
FOO MAO REN
GARY KWEK RONG FU
JONATHAN DEXTER WANG JINGXUE
YEO WEN KANG DAVE

2H
DANIEL SZE ZHI YAO
GOH ZHONG JIN
TAN YONG HONG

2J
JONATHAN LEE RONG EN (aiya so kelian)

2K
GAN KAI LYNN GENEVIEVE
ERIC NG TENG SOON

2L
KAN JUN YANG (aiya so kelian)

Total = 40 students
Males = 19 students
Females - 21 students

be wowed.
THERES ACTUALLY MORE THAN 15 BOYS IN A SINGLE AHS CLASS.
WOW =.=
lets get along well together 3D :D

2008-10-20T21:16:00.000+08:00

WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH LAO EH
one talk with my cousin can kill me la,
he and his freaking attitude is like, WAT THE HELL~
i show u the conversation la hor

Babybluus.XYD™ :
kns.,

Babybluus.XYD™ :
as if

.:: [[*~xiia0manman~*]] .:: Can someone just help me with my Primary school? =.=
eh no vulgarities

Babybluus.XYD™ :
i am that ugly liddat

.:: [[*~xiia0manman~*]] .:: Can someone just help me with my Primary school? =.=
ah he look better than u jiu shi la XD

Babybluus.XYD™ :
u know

Babybluus.XYD™ :
i didnt want anything

Babybluus.XYD™ :
to happen until liddat

Babybluus.XYD™ :
but u hav to cut it across rite

.:: [[*~xiia0manman~*]] .:: Can someone just help me with my Primary school? =.=
(dont get watcha talking)
Babybluus.XYD™ :
it means

Babybluus.XYD™ :
"IHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOU"

.:: [[*~xiia0manman~*]] .:: Can someone just help me with my Primary school? =.=
zzz

Babybluus.XYD™ :
in a more formal tone

.:: [[*~xiia0manman~*]] .:: Can someone just help me with my Primary school? =.=
joking nia

.:: [[*~xiia0manman~*]] .:: Can someone just help me with my Primary school? =.=
u so easily tempered arhs

Babybluus.XYD™ :
cuz im fragile

Babybluus.XYD™ :
>.>

Babybluus.XYD™ :
someone said so

.:: [[*~xiia0manman~*]] .:: Can someone just help me with my Primary school? =.=
AHH TOO BAD, WELCOME TO THE WORLD

Babybluus.XYD™ :
for someone who dont even go out n accompany ppl when they're feeling down

.:: [[*~xiia0manman~*]] .:: Can someone just help me with my Primary school? =.=
AH LIKE YOU DO LIDDAT LA =.=

Babybluus.XYD™ :
i do

Babybluus.XYD™ :
i saved my friend who took a penknife, not to his wrist

.:: [[*~xiia0manman~*]] .:: Can someone just help me with my Primary school? =.=
yeah =.=

Babybluus.XYD™ :
thats good

.:: [[*~xiia0manman~*]] .:: Can someone just help me with my Primary school? =.=
i oso got save ppl before la

.:: [[*~xiia0manman~*]] .:: Can someone just help me with my Primary school? =.=
=.=

Babybluus.XYD™ :
u know what

Babybluus.XYD™ :
i dun rly care

Babybluus.XYD™ :
cuz u dun seem to realise

Babybluus.XYD™ :
u know

Babybluus.XYD™ :
whatever.

.:: [[*~xiia0manman~*]] .:: Can someone just help me with my Primary school? =.=
i oso dont care, den u come tell me abt these hand cut things

Babybluus.XYD™ :
u wanna do what shit oso, go ahead

.:: [[*~xiia0manman~*]] .:: Can someone just help me with my Primary school? =.=
u offended me first =.=

Babybluus.XYD™ :
i seriously have no time for things like this

Babybluus.XYD™ :
cuz

.:: [[*~xiia0manman~*]] .:: Can someone just help me with my Primary school? =.=
im not gonna care watcha say

.:: [[*~xiia0manman~*]] .:: Can someone just help me with my Primary school? =.=
go emo urself la hor

SIAO RIGHT?
i mean like, WAT THE HELL DID I DO LOR =.=
jus becuz i never call him handsome den he start to fa pi qi ah =.=
i oso not say he ugly wad, im just jk, DONT YOU JOKE WITH PEOPLE AND PUT THIS SIGN -> XD <-???
no la cuz his username got "I LOVE MJ"
den i m like "NOT ME RIGHT =.=?"
den he of course said no la =.=
den im like "HENG AH"
den he start to say "as if i m that ugly liddat"
and the boy i was talking abt to him was definitely MUCH HANDSOME than him,
so no.1, i replied a joking reply, with an XD, like HELLO?
and no.2, IM NOT GONNA LIE TO HIM OR MY OWN OPINION BY SAYING HE'S HANDSOME!!
I wont let him live in self-denial LOL~
den wah, suddenly out of nowhere, he come and like,
"u know, u dont seem to understand...u dont seem to realise.."
hello la, who wan to understand u? i oso got my own probs u dont understand right
TALK SO MUCH FOR WHAT??~!!
i oso never say "YOU R SO UGLY~~~~~~"
my gosh la so easily tempered, crazy guy~
yeah UR SO FRAGILE, if ur fragile right, then the whole world become fragile liao la~
ya ya, very pro, got save ppl from killing themselves (pfff)
LIKE WHO WONT HAVE LA =.= hao lian simi?
come on la like u got pei me when im having my depressing moments right???
idiot idiot idiot idiot idiot person

sorry la ^^ i know not worth it to scold him,
but then, wah i buay tahan lor T.T
U SEE HIS THIS KIND OF ATTITUDE??!!!!
anyone talk to him he oso "u dont understand u dont understand" den APPPPP all the way
harna harna, nobody understands u la, only u understand ppl lah =.= whatever~

^^ TODAY..
IS SO SIAN~
everyday is sian lols o.O
uhh, got new games on hp?
lol can keep monster then make them GROW GROW GROW ^^
gotta feed him le T.T byebye

P.S SHYT U LA

2008-10-19T21:47:00.000+08:00

YAY IM BACK ^^
ok la i tink nobody actually read my posts hor o.o
no no no, im not emo =.=
of course im back with my edward T.T i miss him so dearlyyy~
AND JACOB IS GETTING REALLY ANNOYING! SERIOUSLY ANNOYING IN ECLIPSE!!
HE KEEPS PURPOSELY BREAK UP EDWARD'S AND BELLA'S RELATIONSHIP!!
AND EDWARD IS SO SWEET TO BE SO UNDERSTANDING !!!
BELLA WHY U LIDDAT LA T.T

hais hais hais~~~
she got feelings for 2 ppl lor...aiya whatever la F3
MJ ITS FICTIONAL! DONT GO OVER THE TOP!
by the way...
from my msn personal msg...
ROBERT PATTINSON IS CRUSHINNNNNNN ON KRISTEN STEWARD!!!
omgosh thats like WOWWW!!~~~
sad lor, kristen stewart got boyfriend leh =.=
the guy act in sky high lor that main guy...
sad sad sad...
shud be kristen like robert ma hor o.o he's soooo...
freakingly handsome. the perfect MAN for edward
(SUCK ON ALL YA ANTI-ROBERT! GO FIND AN EDWARD IF U DONT THINK HE'S GOOD ENOUGH)

i just rebonded my hair LOLS~
weird decision =X
cuz the hair kept sticking out and very messy n unkempt...
i bui ta han lor =.=
i totally love it XD sorry have to admit ahaha~
i watched house bunny with xueyi n linying after exams ended in bugis wahaha XD
im the one who encouraged them to watch BECAUSE DANICA SAID IT WAS FUNNY N NICEEEEE!!
NOT MY FAULT~~~
oh, u dunno what im talking right ^^?
it just so happens that house bunny has more sexual references than i expected =.=
go watch the trailer, u'll laugh like shyt =.=
the women was like, "the eyes are the nipples of the face"
and im like "omgosh =.="
it is PG 13 =.= it has self control not to worry
throughout the entire film xueyi kept scolding me LOL XD
"MJ HOW COME U BRING US SEE THIS SHOW??"
but it was so funny i kept laughing like siao~
not my fault maaa XD but u all had a gread time LOL
den we also bought a friendship charm for all 3 of us ^^
IT IS THE INDICATION OF OUR EVERLASTING FWENSIP~
its four leaves clover actually, velli velli meaningful than heart shapes if we r talking abt friendships...

what m i up to now..?
actually im getting hell bored =.=
and though i LOVE my cca alot...its kinda...sian oso ==
sorry to say that lols~
CANT WAIT TO WATCH TWILIGHT AND HSM3
especially TWILIGHTTTTTT~~~
GOT KISS LEH GOT KISS LEHHH!!!! AAAAHHHH~~~!!!!
yeah o.o thats it uhh...
im playing neopets BECUZ I SERIOUSLY HAVE NOTHING TO DO~~~
anything that is asiasoft sucks right now =.=
unless there r friends in it...(currently none, HA =.=)

uhh, sis's bf bought tigger for me...
u know, the winny the pooh tigger...
she n him each got a pinglet, with weird names that ends with PINE
hers is porkypine, his is piggypine and mine is tigipine...
im liike "r u serious =.="
WHAT HAS PORCUPINE GOT TO DO WITH A PIG N TIGGER LA =.=
den liddat i call the tigger SAMBA from lion king lor =.=
nononono, im gonna call the tigger EDWARD ^^
my one and only EDWARD ^^
WAHAHAHAHAHAHA

sorry im being lame =.=
time to go get some free jelly for my neopet LOL ~~!!

2008-10-11T16:58:00.000+08:00

im getting closer to my sister ahahaha :D
as in real sister lols~~
im really happy u know, cuz like not until last year, we were super ignorant towards each other de~
small that time quarrel somemore~~
its...really a great feeling u know...
to know that at least u still have a family member caring for u ahaha

mommy came back during exam period =.=
for MYSELf, i am happy, but to think abt the EXAMS, im not really optimistic lol
becuz she usually everyday bring us out den wont have time to study =.=
but oh well :D
daddy oso came back later on and soon mommy went back while daddy stayed back for few more days...
P.S sorry la, too used to saying mommy daddy, dont wan say my dad or my mom la =.=
the house was...definitely more re nao ahaha :D
i like re nao places :D makes me feel like im not alone ^^
den go down 12 midnight nothing will oso happen
but then tmr daddy oso going back le =(
yeah, im actually quite sad,
though i shud be used to it =.=
got family probs POP out again =.=
crap la, i oso bu yao guan liao la i wan rest sia
nan de exam over come pop out another prob, argh =.=

well, at least there's still sis :D
but then she soon also will pangseh me de
cuz she after A levels can shuang for 4 months i tink before her school starts....
FOUR MONTHS LEH, NO JOKE OK
den she say she will travel "around the world" with all her friends =.=
im like "got money den come talk la =.="
aiya this is retribution la lols...
last yr i oso pangseh her n i let her go china alone lols T.T

i wan continue play games lol.
nothing to do la F3

2008-10-11T16:41:00.000+08:00

omgosh, exams are OVER~
as in literally OVERRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ok la, i was expecting to feel the "sense of freedom" de feeling hor,
but den compared to pri6 like abit too little leh o.O
^^ AIYA FREEDOM JIU SHI LE LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAaa

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
man, those few weeks were like crazy laaaaaaa!!!!
i tot science paper was quite difficult, frankly speaking,
as in, its very uncertain and alot of ambiguity (dunno how to spell la)
den super doubtful lor!!
"A OR C AH??"
like i know liddat =.=

hais, breathing the particles of freedom....
mmmmmm......
THEN I CHIONG TWILIGHT LE WOOHOOO~~~~
im sorry dear edward for pang-seh-ing you....
now i come back to u liao...
i carry on understand more about ur bella le hor ^^?
just now went to see dentist =.=
and then found out...uhh i better not say la =.=
fan zheng, if i wan use braces i have to find a SPECIALIST and not a normal DENTIST
the dentist was like "ur case is special case"
SHYT LAAAA~~~~ I DONT WAN PUT BRACES LAAAAA
not...NOT a SINGLE person tell me that putting braces not pain...
and to tink abt the fact that i have to full FOUR tooth...FOURRRR

i hope the specialist there got that medicine to make me asleep...
i dont wan awake then they go pull larrrhsssssss~~~~ how pain la T.T
someone jus go pull my mouth while i sleep =.=
some ppl dont need put braces still will wan to put leh
aiya liddat exchange teeth with me la =.=

ok now playing "rollercoaster tycoon" ^^
P.S NOT AN ONLINE GAME
but its fun larhhs, u build ur own theme park right, then the visitors come in lor
its super famous OKAYEEE =.= got no. 1 2 and 3 lor
3 most special, is 3D somemore :D
but i dont like it so i bought no. 2 =.=
actually wan upload screenshots of my built theme park
but lazy la what to do XD
haisssss....i dread next year....thinking of sarah faithe n linying T.T
i cant imagine how lonely i will be without them la
all 3 are one of my very bestest friends =.= and they r leaving...
crappppppppppppppppppppppppppp~~~
FREAK YOU THREE AHHHHH T.T

what online game should i play le leh =P?
i dont have the urge to play ANYTHING that is ASIASOFT...
that leaves me with nothing to play, actually...
i really really missed GRANADO ESPADA...its seriously very very very very good...
though not cute cute and scenery quite medieval,
but the kind of powers and attacks u possese is very unique
and the way they add skill points n level u up oso unique
somemore can control 3 chars at same time leh
super cool de, but then no friends there ma zzz

i cant think of anything to write
so i shall stop writing until i can settle my feelings down and pour all the stresses out ahaha =.=

2008-09-12T22:10:00.000+08:00

ahhh~ so long never update le hee hee =D
toooooo many things happen le, and i wan tell everything here lols lols lols
REVIVE BLOGGY, REVIVE~~~~~

no.1, i scraped off my tagboard =.=
its due to some of my personal reasons. to put it simply, i actually have a trauma of ever looking at the tagboard. DONT...ask me why. and its not your* fault, i swear its not, i jus got over-exaggerated with myself. the darn reasons why i dont wan update is cuz i dont like seeing the tagboard. ITS NOTHING TO DO WITH UR TAGS >< i love all of ur comments. its my prob kays ^^? got ppl read le i really so happy le~~

no.2, im very very very obsessed with twilight =D
and i gotta say THAT OUR CLASS LAGGED LIKE SHYT LA~~~
the fact that the book twilight was published in like, years ago~
other classes ALL COMPLETE THE BOOKS LA. im still stuck at book 1 lols.
i knew abt the book cuz my choir jie mei were talking abt it and how cool it is~
VAMPIRE. like, WOW. romance. like, HELL YEAH~!!
THANK U RACHEL KOH KOH FOR LENDING ME THE BOOK XD
and sorry for lending the book =X ~
i feel kinda guilty, cuz she bought the book with her money, and i get to read it for free...
=X =X =X~~~ ahhh~~~~ I WILL REPAY YOU WITH CHOCOLATES KAYS T.T
MOVIE IS COMING OUT ON 25 DEC!!!
HOORAY HOORAY HOORAY HOORAY HOORAY HOORAY~~~~~~
GOT WATCH THE TRAILER ??? EDWARD IS FREAKING HANDSOMEEEEEE
he's played by robert pattinson ^^ the cedric diggory in harry potter~~~
aiya when he in twilight he's damnnnnn charming okaysssss
im willing to give up almost everything to see him sia (as edward, not as robert)
and someone told me, "too bad he doesn't even know you"
LOLS, YA HOR T.T

no.3, i found out the mj is an easily forgotten person.
im darn serious. im almost forgotten in everywhere.
im not blaming anyone ok, im seriously an easily forgotten person.
and yet again, this is something to do with me, not with anyone else.
i hate being easily forgotten, frankly speaking. its like as if u mean nothing to them at all.
im probably a sucker in many ppl's eyes LOLS
just the thought that....what if i die n disappear one day and no one will even notice me missing...AHAHAHA
so cool o.O
its something i will accept gladly la~ i wont go around complaining like a toot

no.4, why r ppl so darn stubborn.
imagine this, u r totally dying to make this person feel better,
trying so many f-ing (sorry for bad word) ways to encourage him and give him as much support,
and trying to say that, "at least i will support u" or sth liddat
and then sucker keeps blabbering abt how sucky his life was,
like hello, WHO DOESNT COMPLAIN ABT IT,
some ppl may think that u know, their lives suck while other ppl r living in harmony n happily without any worries,
n kept saying "u dont understand, u dont understand, u never will"
what makes u think everyone is living happily huh?
come on la we all have our own probs to solve ok,
but we dont go around SHOWING IT OFF,
i dont feel pitiness at ALL. i feel shame.
becuz u r letting ur loved ones worry abt u. u didnt care what they think and only nags abt ur own probs.
becuz of ur probs, some ppl have to be constantly worried abt u.
dont ever say that u never asked them to worry u.
be glad that there is someone who cared of u.
there r other ppl who have no one to even tell their troubles to.
and u keep talking like no mother no father.

no matter how much i tried....
i wasted, WASTED ALL MY EFFORT.
im happy i got twilight to put my effort and time into
enough of time on u

now, i really feel like migrating.

no.5, though its kinda lagged, the hot topic now is abt our champion table tennis players r all from china, foreigners, and some singaporeans dont feel proud of them at all, some even saying that they used it as a platform to showcase their glory.
SHYT ON U ALL THESE CRAZY PPL MAN
how can someone even THINK that way la?? WE should be happy that despite they're from overseas, they're willing to fight for us becuz they loved singapore too, not COMPLAINING abt it. singaporeans can be overly-kiasu sometimes.
IMAGINE HOW THEY WILL FEEL IF THEY HEAR THESE COMMENTS LA. TYPICAL KIASU COMMENTS.
so racist la. we born in other country doesnt mean we must fight for that darn country right.
human oso cant choose where they'll be born. if they doesnt like the place, they will leave eventually right aiyooooooo =.=
its something like, it must be a singaporean player den we will feel proud. whats with that friggin !@$##$%!@ attitude problem with ppl nowadays. its making me sick.
we are from the SAME species, SAME skin, SAME body system, and we are EQUALS, like all humans do,
where the hell do they draw the line to separate others from us??? SHAME ON THESE PPL LA.
my main point: IF YOU CANNOT PLAY AS WELL AS THEM AND CANNOT BRING SINGAPORE A MEDAL, DEN SHUT THE HELL UP CUZ UR AN EXTRA.

ooooh i wanted to continue, but im talking on da phone =D
and den i wan watch america's next top modelllllllll and project runwayyyyy
im addicted to them too =D

2008-08-14T17:34:00.000+08:00

I changed my blogskin =D
The previous one too boring...
I LIKE THIS ONE LEH ^^ got the big word SMILE infront~
so true hor =D?

oh ya sorry la u cannot stop the music until u off ur sound system...
please dont stop the MUSIC the MUSIC...
the song not nice meh o.O ok wad...
sorry la, i like jap songs ma ^^
too bad for those who dont like =.=

sian la i dont like studying for chinese...thats why i now here right =.=
chinese sooooo dam siannnn
never liked chinese since the day i was born =.=
pri school got cheat before XD ahaha~
P1 P2 only la...i guai de okays...
SIAN AH still need study chinese for the next 2 years...
sibei boring sibei sian sibei tired sibei dont-wan-study...
hais...today geog test ok la hor o.O?
though i think i will flunk it =.= i got the pictures thingy the answers all wrong...
stupid sai la -.-

i know tagboard colour not nice T.T
Changing it tmr, today must chiong chinese ^^
byebye all~

2008-08-11T22:21:00.000+08:00

I just talked to a teacher...
Someone who knew what I was going through...
Probably one of the best teacher I have ever met in my life, seriously
I've never seen any other teachers who would care so much for a student...
For those of you who think far far, please show some respect to this teacher ok,
and hell im not telling u all who he/she is...

Well...I leaked out some of my problems to this cher...
Cher say I shouldnt bottle up my feelings n stuff
and Cher say i can find him to talk about my problems anytime...
I know i cant, cuz i definitely gonna break down =.=
like how i did previously~ bad bad bad...
Aiya, fan zheng any problems u can tink of i all have la,
emotional, relationship, friendship, family, life, physical, spiritual, ALL I HAVE LA OK =.=
I know some of u thinking "who all don't have"
precisely thats the reason why i dont emo in class or pour out emo stuffs here right?
I emo here for what sai? everyone all got emo probs de ah~
Because I scared he go around telling ppl i suck if i dont follow his orders =,= so i just blindly do everything for him
or not he will grumble here and there...
I hate homeEC, seriously~
Not like im not trying to change, i did =.=
But im very tired n exhausted from all these le
NOW CCA OSO POP OUT PROBLEMS, MA DE
I WAN GO CRAZY LIAO

Im happy when ppl pour out emo probs to me, it shows they trust me
but i dunno who to pour out to then...
i wan to tell my probs to someone, but that someone just had an emotional prob so even i tell now right, that someone will only focus on whatever problems he/she had...
IM SO HAPPY I HAVE SUCH A GOOD CHER IN MY LIFE T.T
he's probably the only person i can tell to...
When at least im with people i know and can relate to,
i can never frown, im always in a smile
but when im alone, den all the emo probs pop lai pop qu~
ma de =.=
esp without my sister, since im getting close with her...

Im used to bottling up my feelings =D
kinda proud of it...
i dont like rambling how sick my life is and explaining in detail and complaining
1) YOU DONT EVEN KNOW WHATS MY PROB
2) I LOOK LIKE A CRAZY WOMEN
3) YOU KNOW IT DOES HAPPEN TO YOU ALSO
u read until gong gong de lor~~
if i can live my life happy, i will~
we only have one life anyway hor o.O
SMILE BECUZ ITS WORTH IT :D
i dont like making anyone worry~
esp not that cher =)
we all have problems of our own...
WHEN THERES A WILL THERES A WAY AHAHAHHAHAH~~~~
=D im happye n contented with life, dont worry my friends =D
cuz i know there r more ppl who r in a much worse situation than me...
so, if they can be so strong and smile, SO CAN WE RIGHT???!!!
smiling can burn more baby fats on the face~
so must smile more =D

i know how lucky i m =D
every problem is a stepping stone in my life =D
making me a better person each time every problem is resolved (or not =x)
its okay if i have no one to pour it out to =D
I CAN DO IT~~~!!!!!!!
ok la, if cannot i will go outside my house n scream~
i live in 10 floor anyway =.=
that time during NDP on TV all the songs i sing like sia0
sing like no mother no father liddat, sing until damn loud
HECK CARE THE NEIGHBOURS LA =.= i too proud to be singaporean XD
yesh, im crazy when im at home...
cuz i dont have the usual family members at home~
probably one of the unusual features of my family huh o.O
I LOVE MY KITTIE =D HES SO CUTE N FAT AHAHAHAHA

i tink...
im liking someone...
or not...

2008-08-09T11:29:00.000+08:00

I know i know...
today is singapore bday =.= I KNOW LA~~
but then right, ytd was the olympics opening ceremony leh~~
den i watch it right, cannot stop thinking about it...
so dam cool laaaaaaaaa~~~
and im like, seriously NEVER SEEN SUCH OPENING BEFORE,
cannot explain la, i mean like, HOW MANY TIMES MUST THEY REHEARSE =.=
you know the countdown right, takes like 2 years to get it right u know...
as in there are you know thousands of boards with people la,
den when u hit it right, got light will come out...
so is like they countdown the seconds one by one,
using the lights produced when hit
so is like, a particular number of people in a particular area must hit it at a particular timing...
then the lightings altogether will be forming the number,
den they countdown 60,50 den jump to i tink 10, 9, 8...
DAM COOL OK

and its not like the number just APPEAR,
its from the sides den flow to the middle that kind of effect
so is like the people hitting the boards must know which timing, must know when la blah blah blah
considering the fact that there are thousands of ppl =.=
ITS SO DAM COOL OK?? freaking hard la
THAT KIND OF OPENING U TELL ME GO WHERE N FIND???
the entire opening ceremony is all like
"man-made"
every effect u see is allll human do one...
you see their willpower la omgosh =.=
I LOVE BEIJING~
i will shout i love singapore after i watch NDP la, for now let me scream that i love beijing ok =.=

I LOVEEEEEEE BEIJING
I LOVEEEE OLYMPICS
I LOVE BEIJING~~~
BEIJING HUAN YING NI AHAHAHAHAHAHAH~~
wah this year kill me I OSO MUST GO BEIJING!!!!!
last year purposely skip, this year DONT WAN SKIP LIAO LE LA WAHAHA!!!
must go there take lots n lots of pics
den show u, make u all jealous XD

i saw the MV of the BEIJING OLYMPICS SONG
and its so freaking cool and the tune is nice lor~
it gives you that, beijing olympic feeling~
make u cheer like dunno wad sai~
they have 100 SINGERS OK, 100~~
got JJ lin, jin sha, sun yan zi, F.I.R, wang li hong, Jolin tsai, ah du and jackie chan lol~~
its dam cool ok~~~~~
i below got put the video XD
i 100% GUARANTEE, YOU WILL LOVE IT~
cannot stop singing le laaaa ahahahaha !!!

DAMN COOL RIGHT????
aiya sorry la, national song really sing every year le ma =.=
hear hear new songs oso nvm la~
got 100 artists leh, all ur favourites all inside lor T.T
so cool so cool so cooooollll~~

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhh!!!!
SINGAPORE TEAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOTS~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
YOYOYOYOYOYO SG TEAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
SAD RIGHT LI JIA WEI CANNOT COME NDP =.=
SHE HOLDING THE FLAG LEH BTW!!!
WAHAHAHAHAHAHA SOOOO COOOOOOOLLL~~~~
we as a LITTLE RED DOT has come THIS FAR to the OLYMPICS WAHAHAHAHAH !!!~~~
KICK EVERYONE's ASSES WAHAHAHHA =.=

ok ending ahahaha =.=
beijing huan ying ni~~
YOU MENG XIANG SHEI DOU LIAO BU QI =D
YOU YONG QI JIU HUI YOUUUUU QIII JIIII~~~~~~~~=D=D=D=D

2008-08-02T13:50:00.000+08:00

had 2.4 run today...LOLS...
aiya i got lousy position la =.= at least improved from last year...
wan to know my position right? haiya =.=
77 LA 77 LA 77 LA 77 LA 77 LA 77 LA
HAPPY =.=?
last year got 100+ ok...improved by 30 positions leh XD!!
but my sista danica improved by 100+ positions T.T
last year 200+ this year 100+ le lehh~~~ pro seh !!! ^^

i only heard tat valerie got 1st for our lvl, serene 2nd, den i dunno
jacq got 9th position btw :D WOOOOTS~~!!
LINYING IS 10 T.T SIAO LA U T.T
dunno boys la =.= shud be junwen n zhenju top few i guess o.o

hais ytd kena lectured by choir....
jojo cried, rachel cried, i cried
yeeying eugenia no cry o.o
JIAN QIANG DE NU REN~~~
actually before we kena scolded i already dammm guilty...
and i like keep saying "we cannot late next time liao, we cannot late next time liao"
den when the lecture came, im like, aiya how to take it lor =.=
i already in heart so guilty n apologetic lia0, den with lecture i kaboom
den i oso know that we disappointed the whole alto section and SLs ...T.T
but this is definitely, a wake-up call for me la...

i lately havent been close with hilary they all...
and only recently i got to know how they feel about, US
and the alto section wasnt very pleased with us =.= as i presumed...
i seriousy, seriouslyyy felt veryyyyy veryyy guilty =.=
so today after 2.4 i went to apologise to our SLs T.T
i was aware that im not punctual...but becuz everyone was like, looking as though nothing has happened so i just follow suit...
which i tink i shudnt have done it...
its hard u know, becuz i love choir so much...
and to think that becuz of us, there r punishments and stuff being imposed on, we upset the entire choir and embarassed the altoosss
and we hurt them so much, i felt sooooooo angry with myself...
why did we did it in the first place...
we really really, DIDNT WANT IT TO HAPPEN AND DIDNT MEAN FOR THESE PPL T.T
we are seriously very very very sorrryyy to those who r angry...im very traumatised by it too, really really sad n depressed for the entire day T.T
im gonna make cards for everyone T.T i just dunno how to clear my conscience...

and ********* has been scolding us behind our backs about this matter...
ya i know its our fault...
but its abit backstabbing, considering the fact that she was like, suddenly stick with us just now before the lecture...
and after the lecture she kept scolding us behind our backs...instead of encouraging us to not make the same mistake...
and yes, dont tink that i duno wad u said, I KNOW WHAT U SAID and someone TOLD ME ABOUT IT, and if i was not in a good mood today, i will call u immediately and SHOUT INFONT OF UR FACE
ok la, im in no position to say her actions are backstabbly, but treat this as a takeback call
i mean, if u tink us as THAT WAY, WHY BOTHER MIXING WITH US IN THE FIRST PLACE?
or rather, we didnt want u to mix with us, u just, COME IN SUDDENLY and looked as though u r part of us,
not saying that we r a clique that doesnt accept others...
we want the entire sec 2 batch to bond well, seriously
but then, the fact that u BACKSTABBED US after this matter, DEMORALISE US instead of spurring us on, made us, or rather, ME think that ur backstabbing
i regretted fighting for u when someone prankcalled u and scolded u on the phone...
now i see the reason why that person does that...
though i tink its still wrong =.=
i seriously, will not BOTHER about u ANYMORE~~
i've had enough for these few weeks le okays, with my class with my friends with my studies with my CCA,
and now, im stuck with YOU

u know, u might be unhappy that alot of ppl hates u, and u relied on ur CCA instead for moral support...
but u cant just, totally rely on us, without changing ur attitude,
cuz in the end, u will make ur CCA hate u also
u complain "u know how suck my life is? my class hates me. im sad. why my life so unfortunate?"
guess what, EVERYONE goes through that ok, and all u do is COMPLAIN without finding out the dam problem
if u saw that everyone is having negative thinkings abt u, then the problem lies WITH YOU, not the class...
and u r supposed to find it, change it, and resolve it...
not taking that qian bian attitude and COME TO UR CCA N SHOW IT OFF AGAIN.
u know how, sad i feel when u were actually talking bad behind our backs?
imagine tat if u actually stayed back, came in the room and COMFORT us when u found that EVERYONE WAS CRYING,
our opinions n impressions of u will IMMEDIATELY change...
u didnt make it change, instead, making it WORST
but, i wont, becuz that im thinking negatively of u den i will hate whatever u do or treat u badly...
cuz i dont think that hurting someone can make me happy...

ur not the first one who pissed or hurt me off so badly anyway...
theres a more VERY-KNOW-HOW-TO-HURT-PPL-VERY-BADLY in my *****
but still, somehow, i will want to make him satisfied if i could
be aware of ur actions, seriously,
cuz by saying these, im already being kind enough...
i dont think those hot-headed ones will tell u such stuffs
they will MAKE UR EARDRUMS burst cuz they will scream at you =.=

calling someone stupid wont make u any smarter
calling someone ugly wont make u any prettier
and ruining someone's life certainly wont make u any happier...
all to hope for is to just solve the problem ahead and MOVE ON
its better to be a friend than an enemy...

my mom came back ytd. surprisingly without me knowing it =.=
hahas, im happy la of coz =) hoorayeeess~
but she leaving back to china in the next 2 days =.=
fweakkkkk =.= oh well...

2008-07-31T20:58:00.000+08:00

OHMY o.o
I wasnt able to log in blogger for like one week, AND IT WORKED NOW :D
Hais...I think right...I not supposed to be born in this world now... =.=
I KNOW SOME OF U MUST BE THINKING "ya lo, u shudnt be here at all, u suck"
i know i suck =.= i tink so too...
I seriously, will not think of my actions when i angry....
As in I wouldnt know how to react nicely to someone who did something wrong...
Its not i rash or wad, is like this person did something wrong that affects me n my friends, and was very proud of it and XUAN YAO - ING all the way and think like we dont care...
LIDDAT U TELL ME HOW TO NOT BAO LA...
but i shudnt bao la, make the matters worse...
shud have just like ask myself shut up first n calm down before shouting =.=

Up till now, i still dunno the reason why some ppl...
oh well, give me a cold reaction when i don't even know what happened...
I never offend that person, didnt do anything to harm them...
Usually last time, when i heard someone's negative opinion about someone else, i would immediately have the same negative opinion to that someone...
WITHOUT finding about that someone myself...
in which i tink this kind of reaction is very often...
and only a few ppl are able to realise this =.=
my sista DANICA is one of the few who realised it :D
shes such a sweetyyyy XD AWW~
so yeah, but then thats just the way most ppl are now i guess...and sometimes its just need time to realise...

and i tink, once u dislike one person, whatever good thing they do we will be like "act kind, act sweet"
trust me, i always thought of my disliked-person's actions as "ACTING" only,
only recently i realised that, u know, enemies do have their kind n sweet side too...
and today de CD (A SPECIAL DAY WITHOUT LIANG RONG GE :D) told us about violence and how to curb our anger...
which kinda made me reflect u know...
its not that i do not wan to change whatever bad points i have now u know...
im really TRYING really hard to change it...
but sometimes when things happen, i guess it cant be changed back...though im trying real hard...
i can never show my distaste, disgust, sulky face or give any other negative comments, becuz i know i will be like, sending myself to hell =.=
so must RENNNNNN and RENNNN and RENNNNNN...

Seriously, i tink im going into depression zzz
i cannot think of ANYTHING positive in my life...ah zzz
i only wanted to escape from this, this entire matter...
if theres an IP now, i really want to apply for it immediately...
thats my emotions now. to escape from everything. real bad.
I KNOW NOW SOME OF U THINKING "u shud go earlier, no one wants to see u"
eh, i dont stay for u anyway, i stay for choir ok...
wei le ni er stay? shen jing bing la...
and i dont wan becuz of this matter and jus like give up what i've been studying for 2 years...
and going a path in which i dont want it...
its not worth it u see...
and escaping from reality is not gonna solve any problem...

i still don't have courage to walk up to ppl and ask whats their problem with me =.=
cuz i dont tink i have the determination to put up a strong front and REN...
I
WILL
BREAKDOWN
VERY
BADLY
AGAIN
if i had to go through sth which i already did for once...
its like taking 2 X-RAYS in the same year =.= its tiring and killing
and from the CHAOJIAHMA BOOK,
"ni zhuan guo tou lai, hai you yi qian ge ren tao yan ni"
we cant be perfect, and let everyone like us anyways,
so we just, try out best to change and hopefully ppl will recognise us soon o.O

so im gonna renn till next year =)
hopefully, the best is yet to come :D
and i must stay the positive meeee~~
im like making myself very lonely n stuff,
and u must be thinking that im acting ke lian
but actually, i know how fortunate i am
at least compared to those who have lost everything =.=
its just what i m reflecting upon myself that only can be explained in words...
i still have good friends in class, i still have my CCA to hold on to =)
and who doesnt go through such stuffs?
its just sad to know that the best year in one's life (as what everyone says)
its gonna be the most terrible life-changing year for me...

i dont tink its wasted, i tink its the most valuable...
terrible becuz i've never experienced such stuff...
and this time, i didnt tell my parents anything...how am i suppose to tell them all these? i cannot bear to tell them =.= what r they gonna do?
but worth it becuz i went through all of it myself, with help n encouragement from true friends who were willing to change me...
and, it will be very memorable, seriously...
and now i sound like we're on a graduation ceremony and im like leaving off now...
ok no, im staying =.= though i want to go overseas and study, im staying here, FOR NOW =.=
too bad to ppl who wan me to leave =) guess u'll have to see me for 2 more years ^^

talking about overseas...my dream is to travel around the world o.O
i know impossible la =.= but then as we know, earth is dying due to global warming blah blah blah...
but then before all of nature's creations extinct off, i must see them, some, at least...
cuz we may not be able to see it in like the next decades, and its already dying out rapidly...
isnt it so sad =.=? what our dear mother nature had actually created for us?
and i say again, I AM NOT RICH.
its a dream =.= doesnt mean it will come true =.=

talk too much le =.= sorraye!!
thanks for those who were willing to read allllllllll the way T.T
freak the noticeboard, seriously dammm time consuming...
but cuz its the last one, so we just go ahead with it...
flunked my maths common test, didnt do last question...
which loses 3 marks T.T i xin tong lia0 sia...
maple is getting real shitty. gonna hate it real soon.

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2008-07-17T17:51:00.000+08:00

HI...

YOU'VE BEEN BORED FROM READIN MY LONG LONG LONG POSTS...

AND YOU ARE DYING TO SEE PICTURES...

okay im gonna show you pictures -.-

LET ME TELL YOU A TALE...

of a small, flat, little, blue colour girl...

called xiia0manman's-bus-card...

I LOST HER in the school for 2 months...

yes, 2 months, and i DIDNT BOTHER MAKING A NEW ONE...

im really lazy la -.-...

DEN THE SCHOOL FOUND IT FOR ME :D

after 2 months la -.-...

den as i enjoyed one week with my ba0beii card...

I LOST IT AGAIN -.-

this time on the bus...zzz...

sorry la....

DEN the next day right, with a velli heavy heart...

I WENT ON TO THE BUS...

and one uncle sitting on the seat where i lost the bus card yesterday was asking me,

"this card from your school right?"

and then i see...

AND I SAW MY BA0BEII AGAIN~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

THIS STORY IS TRULY REAL AND NOT FAKE!!!

I REALLY FOUND IT, ITS MINE,

ON THE SAME BUS AND ON THE SAME SPOT!!!!~~~

FOR ONE DAY NOBODY TOOK IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~~

IM THE LUCKIEST GIRL IN THE WORLD LIAO LA!!!

den i immediately sms xueyi~~~

this is wayyyy too cool T.T

TADAHHH~~~!!!!

sorry la i took wrongly =.= upside down de....

I ate alot of things recently o.O

and i felt guilty for it -.- cuz its during NAPFA period zzz~~

i show u the pics again lorrhsss....

I KNOW YOU'RE GONNA HATE ME :D

becuz this is SWENSEN's cream and cookies ICE CREAM COMBO!!!~~~

chio right, fattening de lor....ren BU KE MAO XIANG Okays...

I WILL NEVER REGRET EATING THIS

this is called DANGO!!!!~~ its a japanese dessert...

not HANA YORI DANGO the anime tys~~

i bought it from the hokkaido fair in TM (now gone le sorry :D)

i've ALWAYS wanted to eat it since the day i saw in maple the zipangu got sell this thing...

AND ITS RIGHT BEFORE MY EYESSSS !!! AHAHAHAHAHA XD

chio right? dam chio lor...esp the pink one...so chio...

guess what -.-

This is my first time eating this kind of kopi-tiam breakfast...

Not say i've always been eating high class la zzz~

but this is like those traditional kind de...you know the half boiled egg?

den u pour inside this plate and mix mix mix de...

First time eat leh...okay la taste not bad la...

cuz i personally hate yolk like shyt la zzz -.-

then, uhh no taste...only eggy taste....

ya -.-

THIS IS MY CHIO CHIO CHIO CREAMPUFF :D

made with my chio partner xueyi :D

ITS NICE OK??!!! cuz i make la den -.-

jkjk...too bad inside no stuffing and is like empty....

so i went recess buy yoghurt n eat wif it...

TASTE NICE OK??!! much better than eating it plain....:D

I wan chiong maple -.-

now still stuck at level 71...cuz seriously dam sian of it...

i stay becuz of friends there la...u tink i love maple ah?

MAPLE IS A WASTE OF TIME. LET ME TELL YOU THIS.

if u hav no friends there, DONT BOTHER PLAYING, IT SUCKS -.-

lunatics who chiong until 4th job are people who has lost their mind =.=

DO NOT FOLLOW THEM ZZZ~

planning to go inactive soon anyways~~

sorry people :D

Rebelling time (:

2008-07-10T21:01:00.000+08:00

CD LESSONS....
IS LIKE....
I DUNNO HOW TO DESCRIBE...
CUZ THE TEACHER IS LIKE !@#$%@!#$@!!!

and so...
I DECIDED...
TO SEND A LETTER....
to the ACP....

:D IM SO HAPPY !!!
I FINALLY DID SOMETHING TO REBEL THE SCHOOL!!!
ahahahahahahahahhaha~~~
Okays 2C dont worry tat you all will kena into trouble -.-
wont de lah, trust me :D

i show u wad i write:

I am a student from secondary 2C, and this is regarding about our Character Development (CD) lessons. To me, (at least), CD lessons are a time where students can relax from all the hardwork and stress, and listen to god's words. And fortunately, all of our CD teachers were able to achieve this point, until now. Recently, we had a change of CD teachers, and this one was so, let's put it nicely, making CD lessons a meaningless, unreasonable, disciplinary lecture session. My mind of CD teachers are that they are caring, kind, fun-loving, humourous etc. Sadly, this one was none of the above, but in fact, the opposite. His name is LIANG RONG "GE GE". So much for the "GE GE”…

During his first lesson, he asked the class what shape the earth was. Being ENTHUSIASTIC TEENAGERS and HUMOUROUS KIDS, one of our friends replied "square". It's obviously wrong, but what harm can a little joke do? Yet, LIANG RONG "GE GE" gave a nasty and stern look, and asked my friend to draw it out on the board. He then called 3 of my other friends to take a photo of it, requesting them to keep it till next lesson. Then he DEMANDED the whole class to be silent. Apparently, he's shouting, much to my horror. He did not allow any conversations throughout the whole lessons, not even when we were writing our journals. One of my friends got scolded for WHISPERING. AHEM, aren't lessons meant for us to talk? especially CD lessons? And, why can't students share thoughts and feelings when we were writing our journal? Wasn't CD supposed to be interactive?

The next lesson, he came in and DEMANDED to see the photos from the 3 students. When one of the students deleted that MEANINGLESS photo, LIANG RONG "GE GE" apparently recorded down his name, saying that my friend was in his "blacklist". Then when he knew that we were visiting the old folks the next day, he immediately gave us a "lecture" and "chide" us, saying things such as, "though the old folks seemed like nothing to you, they are still human. I hope that you will respect them and not...” I wondered, was that a direct insult to us, saying that we were having such evil thoughts about the old folks? This unreasonable accusation was totally unbearable. I was like, "WHAT KIND OF A TEACHER IS HE?” Pardon me for having such thoughts, but, we're teenagers. We have feelings and emotions too. If he thinks that we look at the old folks as "just a bunch of old people", then I want to ask, what does he look at us as? Does he look at us as "small little uncivilised, undisciplined kids who need an iron fist to control"?

It was only his 2nd lesson with us, but it was already enough to drive me to the fact that I actually wrote this suggestion to you. My tone may sound acrimonious, but the whole class is already very unhappy about this. Please try to understand our feelings. It's true that we should respect teachers, but, I don't call that as respect. I call that as "demand for silence". Even if he wants SO much respect, he has to give some of his respect to us. Though he is an adult, we are all humans, aren't we?

I would be really GLAD if we can have a change of CD teachers, but to prevent other classes from being tortured, I really suggest that he should know about this problem. After all, to be a GOOD teacher, he has to do this. To gain our trust and respect, he has to sacrifice his unreasonable side of himself. I apologise if he was to have some kind of reasons that made him so disliked by our class, but even so, he should not let his emotions get in his career. We are not his toys, and we don't need such an iron fist to be handled. Teachers are our friends, not our monsters and nightmares.

I hope that our voice really matters, and I believe that you will definitely help us in a way or another =)

P.S (Our class got unhappy after the Quality School Experience Survey, so don't worry that we graded the school badly)

Aiya sorry la too LONG le =.=...
but I tink is okay right??
The tone although sound abit like buaysong hor,
but shud be ok ba...cuz theres no vulgarities whatsoever ma hor o.o
i write too detailed le o.o but then must be detailed den the adminstrator will care ma....
and lols, i show u sth in the ACP damn funny one

Someone's suggestion:
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The adminstrator's reply:
Zhan Wei, please use this portal for the correct reasons where students offer their suggestions. This is not a tagboard. Thank you.

Wah I see i seriously wan laugh like siao la =.=
DAMN funny la lol lol lol~~~
Hopefully tmr they wont call my name up...
and den scold me during assembly...
O.O
omgosh...
that will be like, so terrible la T.T
ok, who cares XD this is so cool la XDXD SO FUN SO FUN~~~

Revived again

2008-07-05T21:34:00.000+08:00

YES -.- I know i havent post for a long long long time :D
Not really emo-ing, just really abit addicted to maple 0.0...
YES I KNOW! MAPLE! how old am i liao...
But then you all got better games den say la Zzz~

Today got choir prac :D
<33>
And then later me, jolin and yeeying went to have lunch at MOSBURGER :D
and we talk talk talk alotttttt of stuff~
Including my prob and jojo's de :D
But then after the talk, i just realise how STUUUUUUUUUUPID i was...

I will just be direct la. I wan learn from jojo, be a brave girl :D
ok la, I got emo for the prob la, although come school not emo but seriously in my heart right,
I WAS THINKING ABOUT IT ALL ALONG~
tats why it is so HARD TO FORGET U KNOW?
Den ya la, sad la, angry la...

Den also was quite afraid of 2C alot....seriously, im quite scared la....
NOT THAT THEY WILL EAT ME UP OR WAD,
but its like, after that "thing" happened right, den i hear like alot of ppl unhappy with me,
i just lose my confidence liao, ya, den became like not very sociable and like, jus no confidence at all la, feel guilty blah blah blah, den is just like wan to run away from school,
cuz during tat period, every school day was like hell to me,
so yesh, afriad. Scared of basically everything
tats why i was like, "Why the hell is everything in my life so miserable"
like nothing can go right de lor~

But then i thought alot today la,
and thanks to choir :D im starting to regain myself,
though now everything is quite settled for me, theres still some uncertainty in me,
for the prob thing right,
yes i know, sad, depressed,
but what can i do right? if wan blame must oso blame on my stupidity lor,
and i must not cry becuz its over, but SMILE becuz it happened ^^
MUST prove tat I can still survive (like duh),
right jojo ^^?
me shijia n jojo WILL JIAYOU DE !!
cuz i know tat i have other friends n my families around me supporting me ^^

for the class thingy,
now not as scared as before la,
becuz i created my own life motto :D
~SMILE because its worth it :D~
I LIKE IT ALOT LEH!!! YOU LIKE IT OR NOT???
I LOVE IT ALOT LOR!!! everything i write this down i feel really muchhhh better~
den u see all my books is have alot of this sentence de la -.-
i must carry tat "i do not care how u tink about me" de attitude,
its not as if i live for u,
so why should i care how u think?
if its my attitude problem, i will apologise,
but when its not my fault, pls do n die ok~
(im not talking about u, maple de midnightskyz de ex-dar =)

Last time i use to gossip alot about couples or relationships in the class or in choir~
And some were like, so strongly against their relationships n stuff,
but then right, now i tink,
ppl de business, u care simi sai la,
if ppl wan stead jiu LET THEM STEAD LOR~
Who are we to like, give comments abt them?
Disapproving them?
So, why care? why be so kiasu and so kaypoh?
leave them alone la,
unless u jealous la, den anything lor~

I actually wan tell u about the emo prob of mine,
but then i tink tat some *ppl will start saying im like very ahem ahem
*immature, guai kia, no experience de people
so I wouldnt say it la,
guess u all will know it anyway,
I only tell ppl who i know will understand,
so STFU next time abt this prob get it ^^?

Blogger is revived :D
But den i dont wan reply tags leh -.-
can dont reply ma? sorry la hor~
I reply JOJO one la ^^

JOJO :D: HELLO MAN MAN JING!! Haha you get what I mean la hor!! I love you altos!! Ty to all you epople for talking to me
MJ: No probs jojo =) WE WILL ALWAYS BE WITH U AND SUPPORT U JOJO!!!! jojo jiayou!!! :D

JIAYOU JOLIN!!! JIAYOU JOJO!!! :D

2008-06-16T01:06:00.000+08:00

Ahh~
tomorrow is school...DAMN IT LA WALAO EH DX
we like only have, 2 weeks of holidays during june holidays la!!!
why must come back on 4th week la walaoooooooooooooooo~~~
suay ah suay ah!!! T.T

And i fell sick. very sick. AGAIN =.=
firstly, I LOST MY USUAL VOICE!!!!
i sound like a MAN!!!
i know i m a man, as in manman,
but i sound like a MAN!!!
AHHHHHHH!!!!
and im COUGHIN :D coughin like shyt la zzz~
wth wth wth wth ><>

Thanks for those tags left by people who knew my emo prob =)
you guys really cheered me up ^^
and hey, im in the process of getting over it already :D
HOORAY FOR MJ XD!!
ahhh~ though the sadness still lingers abit...
oh well, :)
must stay positive right...=D
becuz there are definitely much more things to sad n depressed over it, ain't it :D?
don't feel like blogging nowadays lor...den didnt post our 1bee bbq~~
sorrryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy T.T I WILL POST IT SOON!!

Anyways nowadays i don't feel lonely around my sis le :D
cuz we r really getting bonded nowadays :D
and ITS A GOOD NEWS ^^
always say she bad den she say i bad~~
now like two good friends le lor!!!
Thanks to mummy n daddy's allowance of spending money jus to let the two of us go out n bond :D
of coz we go to high class restaurant la XD free money lehhh!!
joking joking -.-''
She even told me her darkest secret :D as in cannot-tell-parents-or-else-kana-humtam that kind de lor
cool right??? though i didnt tell her my cannot-tell-parents-or-else-kana-humtam de secret...
no need tell la LOLS

I still suffer from jetlag...unfortunately =.=
the time now is...1.20 am T.T
cuz i stayed up doing ms esther tan's birthday card, today's her bday :D
and i dont feel tired at all o.O
and sorry to 2C ppl that, I CANT FIND A HELLO KITTY CAKE zzz
becuz cake changes every week, and then the hello kitty one i saw was already sold,
so yeah, got a small chocolate cake...
IT'S STILL A BEAUTIFUL CAKE OK?!
thats why, in case the class ppl get angry with me, i go make another card~
A MAI DOU CARD :D
ok, ya, the drawings done by me -.-''
I KNOW I SUCK AT DRAWING ZZZ~~
but, its ACCEPTABLE ^^
not say very nice, but at least can give ppl la...
aiya u tink so easy u go draw la ZZZ~
(actually quite easy)
but still, i took really great care in doing the card
pls dont get angry with me T.T
and it will be a wonderful 2C card when everyone write their wishings and stuff :D
hopefully ms tan will be VELLI VELLI GAN DONG ^^

Oh ya, reply to tags ^^

isabel: haha okay actually i came to visit your blog for the 1st time! and it's really pink.
isabel: life is like manjing.. once you taste it, it slaps you in the face!!!
mj: -.-'' isabel...IM A SUGAR :D ur a salt XD jkjk...pink, is DA IN THING man!! (actually its not)...hahas, thanks anyway!!
zhidan: manjing, cheer up (: i noe wad happen n i noe its a very diff thing to get over. so ya smile (:
mj: hahas thanks =) i will de, and thanks for gu li-ing me ^^
michelle(: HELLO MANJING =D
mj: HELLO michelle :D
YSQUARE:D: link me toooo! ;D
mj: SURE YEEYING, but later lols
emma: and link me if you can yay
emma: hey yo manjing! i'm still feeling excited hahaha
mj: YEAHHH!!! just feels like ytd isnt it XD i'll link u tomorrow, sleeping soon T.T
passerby: correction: MJChoir got 98 pts haha. but anw MJChoir heard u all and think u all deserved better than RJ
mj: hahas thanks =) was glad that we all had made singapore proud :D
RACHEL(:: HELLO MANJING:D I MISS EUROPE TOO!
mj: me too =( wan go back there again...hais
ysquare:D: HELLO MJ AGAIN. ahaha. i ROFL-ED at the pictures xD and your words. DRAMAMAMA as usual! xDmemories~
mj: YEEYING...ur dramamama urself XD MEMORIES <3
JOJO :D: OMG MJ!!!!! CONGRATS!! CHOIR ROCSK LA
mj: YESHH!!! IT RULES OUR WORLD, IT ROCKS THE ENTIRE WORLD!!!!
jasmin: mj!!(: nice pics(:
mj: JASMIN!!!! hey thanks!! but you r not inside so its not perfect XD
YEEYING:D: 'Life is like a sushi..' ;D
mj: 'Once you eat it, ITS GONE' ;D
YEEYING:D: HELLO MANJING![; The secret about the iron shall be kept between us ! HAHAH
mj: LOLS YEEYING XD lucky never get caught...alot of money leh the bedsheet XDXD
jiaying: hi manjing (: this blogskin is so familiar.. haha
mj: O.o LOLS! its PINK X)
yuquan.: haha i noe its kinda late, but have fun and jiayou [[: AND OH YEAH HAVE A SAFE TRIP AS WELL xD
mj: hahas, thanks! :D we did have fun!
♥SHAREEEE`: sorreeee i cant come along . <3
♥SHAREEEE`: heyheys ! i know you're in olomouc , but im missing you lots alreadys ! win a gold ! do me proud ! X:
mj: We did win a GOLD XDXD HOORAYYY~~~ i just made you proud :D i missed you too sherrie =X
jasmin: !! i also wan go austria!!
mj: MUAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!! TOO BAD TOO BAD XD
aaron: Hav fun :)
mj: Hahas, thanks, and i did ^^

*cough cough cough cough*
walao lor -.- everytime cough liddat cannot sleep one de lor...
turn >> COUGHHHH!!
turn <<>
den occassionally blow nose~~
I tink im dying soon u know LOLS
anyways, got to sleep, got a school tml :D

2008-06-12T03:04:00.000+08:00

Hais...I wanted to post a very emo post actually....
But probably ppl will think I siao or what....
cuz i emo then write alot of stuffs right, they don't even know i emo for what sai right?
so rather don't write lor...

I dunno how to express this emo leh...usually alot of emo times I next day wake up den forget liao...
But then this one is like a huge avalanche...just hit me very hard...
I thought i can get over it u know...
But then every single day WILL think about it...
Aiya u see, don't even know what's my emo prob right?
I wan say oso cannot say...only like a few ppl know what's going on...

If i say, you all will be like "emo for this stuff? you loser"
yeah I KNOW =.= i LOOK pathetic...
But, oh well, it's my first one right...
My first experience right...didnt know it was so hard o.O
well, i'll try to be like, HAPPY ~
AHAHAHAHHAAHA SMILEEEEE =)
...........................
=( aiya jus so hard....and i STILL suffer from jetlagging...its now like 3 am in the morning, and i still havent sleep...
btw, jetlag meaning i didnt adjust to singapore's time yet zzz~
i woke up at 4 pm yesterday btw, COOL RIGHT?!
ahh zzz =.= really dam dam dam sad n heartbroken and watever larhsss~~~
WHY SO HARD TO GET OVER IT??!!!!!
ARGHHHHH!!! *slaps slaps slaps*
must be positive POSITIVE~~
come back from such a wonderful choir trip WHY SO EMO??!!!
must share all the chocolates i bought with everyone!!!!
(paiseh, i bought quite little cuz really dam ex la -.-'')
hais, so siannnnnnnnzzzzzzzz~~
So sad, so emo, if i had known that THIS will be the turn out...
I WOULDNT HAVE EVEN STARTED IT!!!

damnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn you sucker!!
you've just ruined my life, for once~~~~~
you and ur ridiculous nonsense!!!
not trustworthy....AT ALL!!!
go to hell, LOSEERRRRR DX

ahhhh hmmmm =)
i tink i feel better now!
need to lend shijia's book to heal my wound then....
tml still got onebee BBQ!!!!~~~ somehow dont feel like going -.-''
hais, anyways, gtg sleep!